1️⃣ my experience
I’ve split this document into three parts; the first deals with my personal experience, the second is Ghost’s public incidents, and the third is a list of health resources. I wanted to consolidate everything into one source, rather than it being spread across different threads on different apps. Please heed the warnings. In case any images break, here is a Google Drive with all of the screenshots.
My Experience with Ghost
CW: Suicide/suicidal ideation, self-harm, manipulation, familial death, ableism, (verbal/emotional abuse?)
I intended on keeping it a private matter, but between Ghost’s meltdowns about Team6x111 and their weird, racist comments, I felt I should comment on it and share my story. I have no interest in trying to cancel them or ruin their life, I want them to get help and not treat people like this. I want others who were hurt to feel seen and have the courage to stand up for themselves.
Before I start, please do not harass Ghost, and please don’t try to contact former Team6x111 members or push them to say anything.
(Edit 24 March: Every other Team6x111 member has been in support of me, publicly or privately. Please don’t pressure a statement from anybody else. I do not condone harassment of any kind, including towards Ghost)
I’m Enoch, I was friends with Ghost for over 5 years and was their roommate for 4 years, from 2021 until 2024 when I was 19-22. As I am writing this, Ghost is currently 28. I was in Team6x111 from its formation until October 2024. When I was 18, I had a brief stay in a psychiatric unit, during which Ghost told me I was moving in with them (it wasn’t a request, I was just simply told). They let me live with them rent free. I struggled to maintain jobs because of my disabilities and severe anxiety. I cut Ghost off after the culmination of the pain and mistreatment I received went repeatedly unaddressed in 2024. As far as I know, I was the only person to actually cut off Ghost; they were the one who blocked and ghosted everybody else. They haven’t meaningfully apologised to anyone.
I’ll discuss it further in this doc, but off the bat I just want to counter their claims of abandonment.
These claims of abandonment are largely false, even from Ghost themselves. This was their channel description in June 2025:
I will provide as much context and screenshot proof as I can, but some of these incidents happened in real life or I have to redact them to remove personal information on anybody who isn’t me or Ghost. In the screenshots, I am the one with the account named “little man” or “tobert/toby”.
June
My memory is fuzzy on specific details, but starting around June 2024, Ghost would have these episodes where they would not come out of their room and would not respond to Discord. They would return after some time and said them remaining silent was “the point” for whatever unspecified "toxicity" people were perpetuating (Ghost refused to give examples).
This caused a lot of anxiety and panic in me; I don’t know what I did wrong or how to remedy it. When I asked what specifically I did wrong, I got a non-answer and they just repeated the assertion that we were being mean and pessimistic.
I never really got a direct answer as to what exactly I (or anyone else in the chat) did to illicit this. This fed into my paranoia that I was doing something so horribly wrong to people that no one would tell me about. I knew to some extent it was irrational, I tried being honest about these fears, but no one would respond to them and would talk past me. This just made my fears grow worse and served as a “confirmation”. I know it may seem dramatic, the screenshots and my recollection don’t really tell a full picture; it was a slow process of minor events that led up to this. I felt I had to walk on eggshells because I was doing something to upset them to this degree.
August
I feel comfortable talking about it here because it is something Ghost has addressed publicly, but their mother died this month. People were there for them and tried offering condolences. A friend took time off work to drive Ghost to the funeral, I stayed home to watch the cats.
September
Mold & Poisoning
Ghost began to believe there was mold in the apartment (I’ll explain further on there was no mold), they attempted to clean every surface with bleach, as well as tried cleaning cat urine (ammonia) in the carpet with bleach. This created chloramine gas, a toxic fume that can be extremely harmful, causing chest pain, shortness of breath, and in severe cases, can lead to pneumonitis. Sources: [1], [2], [3].
My lungs are compromised, which Ghost knew, as well as there being two cats in the apartment. I had to immediately leave the house because I couldn’t breathe and my chest hurt. I asked them to please stop using bleach as it was causing me significant pain, and that the pain was lasting for days. Ghost accused me of lying and giving myself a “placebo effect” because they felt fine, and that I was also fine using Clorox wipes (they lack bleach). They never apologised to me after this or even acknowledged what they said to me was hurtful.
A maintenance worker came and thoroughly looked over the apartment. There was no mold. Ghost later bought petri dishes to catch(?) mold spores. These also turned up nothing.
Hotel
Around September 8th, early in the morning, they woke me up to tell me we had to leave the apartment and stay in a hotel because of the “mold". I wasn’t allowed to shower or take my meds, or even really take anything with me because it was "contaminated". They refused to communicate with me straightforwardly, then insisted we had to jump ship and move to an entirely different state on short notice. I begged repeatedly for anything to be communicated to me, everything was told in riddles or told to other people (instead of me, their roommate). Ghost became more vague and then stopped communicating with me entirely, opting to funnel messages through a third party.
They would get extremely short with me or make mean jokes, or say accusatory things towards me. Whenever I expressed discomfort, they would lash out or give a half-ass apology. They would talk past my concerns, instead saying how they’re doing worse or would randomly start detailing their trauma (this pattern will be repeated, publicly this time).
All of this was taking a massive toll on me. Everything that was happening in the year, plus untreated anxiety and PTSD, came crashing down. I expressed in the Discord chat how terrified I was and that I felt the only solution to get out was to kill myself. I felt everyone hated me and was giving me signs that I was better off gone. Instead, Ghost would talk past me and wasn’t acknowledging what I was saying, just kept telling me to “wait” and they would explain the plan later (they did not).
Even as I was breaking down sobbing on the hotel hallway floor, tearing chunks of my hair out because of their lack of communication and feeling so utterly lost, Ghost had no reaction and ignored me. A friend asked Ghost to check up on me and this was their response:
If I remember, they never did actually check up on me. They seemed inconvenienced that their self-proclaimed selfish actions were taking a toll on me. Instead of making sure I was okay, they asked me to run an errand for them.
Moving
A couple of friends had flown out to help Ghost move, but mostly to be there to support the both of us. I can’t really be specific on what, but people sacrificed a lot to be there for Ghost.
While helping move things out of the apartment, I kept getting repeated POTS episodes (tachycardia, dizziness, near syncope) and I had to keep sitting down to catch myself. I don’t remember the specific wording they used, but they kept responding in a vague, accusatory tone like, “Are you sure that's POTS? I don’t think that’s what that is. It must be something else”. I have been diagnosed and was in the process of receiving treatment. I was baffled by this weird response to my disability flare-up from physical work. We went outside to get fresh air for a moment, and when I was using a cane to stand because I literally couldn’t support myself, Ghost tried taking the cane out from under me to use for themselves. I held onto it and emphasised it was for me, which left them confused.
I gave them clear reasons why I didn’t want to move out of state immediately. I was reliant on their support because I am disabled–they knowingly signed up for that. I had about $30 to my name and struggled to keep a job. I was terrified of being left in an environment where I could be homeless or without stable medical care or insurance. I didn’t want to go long without my medication and withdrawal and possibly cause harm to myself. Ghost just shrugged these off. On top of that, they were not actively looking for a place to stay; in fact, they discouraged it, saying it was “a waste of time” despite the fact they kept lamenting about being “literally homeless” while staying in a hotel. They have more than enough money to find a place to rent, too. They dismissed my concerns repeatedly.
(edit: mislabeled a person as ghosts s/o, they were not dating at the time, entirely my fault for misremembering sorry for any confusion)
During all this, my mother had to undergo surgery. Ghost knew this and still tried asking me if she could help them move. This really upset me, especially since they have more than enough money to hire movers.
October
Separation
When I realised they were set on moving out of state and I did not want to be trapped living with them in a completely different place, I moved back in with my parents. I didn’t really want to make that decision, and it has taken a significant toll on me to be reintroduced to an abusive environment, but it was the choice I made. Later on down the line, Ghost made some comment about how they “thought about moving back in with their dad” to garner sympathy, which left a really poor taste in my mouth given my current circumstances. This entire time, I would express repeatedly how I felt hurt. I never received an apology, Ghost would instead scold me and list each reason they’re actually doing worse.
After I was fully moved in with my parents, I gave them back the keys to their car, which I had to leave in the car because I could not be in their presence without having a resting heart rate of over 150bpm and severe panic attacks to the point of blindness and fainting. I cut them out for the sake of my health and safety. As I said at the start, I was the only one who did cut them off, and I had expressed multiple times before how hurt I felt. Instead of receiving any sort of an apology, Ghost would talk over me, saying how they’re more traumatized, more disabled, more unwell than me. Even if that is the case, it doesn’t give someone a pass to completely disregard someone else's feelings, and how they’re facing the consequences of your actions.
Post-split & 2025
Aftermath
I can’t really speak much on what happened after I left; I don’t want to tell other people's stories they don’t want to tell themselves. But I never received an apology from Ghost, or even a recognition that they did anything wrong. The last thing said to me was, “No hard feelings”.
There are more perspectives to this story, as well as different stories I am not a part of, so I will describe the following events in a vague and disconnected manner. In early 2025, Ghost cut everyone off from Team 6x111 and ghosted them. Friends did try reaching out to check in on them, but would receive vague answers from a third party.
After the 2024 presidential election, Donald Trump, who campaigned on deporting immigrants and stripping the rights of transgender Americans, won. In the team chat, a friend asked if people were holding up okay. This was Ghost's response:
While I’m sure they couldn’t predict everything that has happened in the past year, this is such an insensitive and flippant response to a man who campaigned on the promise of oppressing immigrants and trans people. I am a transgender man and most of the team is trans/non-binary. There are people on the team who are people of colour and children of immigrants. This is a repeating pattern by Ghost, as well as making it about themselves and how “terrible” their fans are. Which, mind you, Ghost is placing themselves in the role of white nationalists in this allegory.
In May or June 2025, Ghost changed their YouTube description to this:
Unfortunately this isn’t backed up on the Wayback Machine, but people commented about this on r/ghostandpals.
Even Ghost themselves say they were the one to cut everybody off, not the other way around.
Conclusion
I have no intention of trying to ruin Ghost’s life or make them suffer. While it is true much of their behaviour was fuelled by stress and mental illness, I don’t believe it absolves them fully. They deserve help regardless of what they’ve done. But I also wanted to show how much they hurt me and how much support was given to Ghost. People put their livelihoods and personal health at stake in order to support them, and they pushed us away and isolated themselves from us. I pushed my body beyond its limits to help them move, as well as being the sole cleaner of the apartment. I was never fully honest about my attempts at suicide–I knew I would be dismissed or lectured. I fought for direct communication, only to be met with paraphrased concepts of a plan funnelled through third-parties. There was no “honest misunderstanding” as they put it; Ghost was plainly hurtful and ableist towards me. I have never received an apology or even an acknowledgement of what they did to me. In fact, nobody has. Ghost always had some excuse or a list of things to prove they were the most tortured person in the room, and it couldn’t be their fault.
There’s a reason I was silent on things for so long, both as a musician and speaking out against Ghost specifically. I am sorry I didn’t say anything sooner. I had this idea implanted in my head by Ghost that every single fan is an abusive stalker, seeking to destroy anything you create. I was led to believe any critique against Ghost was an unprovoked, ableist attack and harassment. It took me around summer of 2025 to realise I wasn’t crazy, nor was I the sole person at fault. In a way, I felt preyed upon. It’s plainly obvious once you see my YouTube channel, but I was so heavily inspired by Ghost–they’re the reason I started making music. As many have observed, it is true that almost every single one of Ghost’s friends were once fans. I was only a few weeks into being 19 years old when I moved in with them; I felt I couldn’t speak out during that time or my housing would be lost.
I was initially going to keep things private, I do still believe personal matters should be kept that way despite this document existing, but Ghost repeatedly calling out Team6x111 and its members made me feel livid. I was also so frustrated at how they could once again run away from their problems, deleting their BlueSky without addressing a single one of the racist posts. Once again, I apologise I didn’t say anything sooner and my excuses don’t matter, but I would rather say something late than never say it at all.
There’s a lot more that happened, but it’s either not for the public's eye or not my story to tell. Please do not contact former Team6x111 members about this and don’t harass Ghost. I suppose that's the goal of this kind of behaviour; for everyone who has been hurt to remain silent and keep the predatory pattern covert. I don’t believe Ghost is beyond saving, however, they are aware enough of what they are doing and it shouldn’t be my responsibility to save them. The only person who could help Ghost is themselves. They dismiss therapy, saying it can’t “fix” you and that they have “learned everything they need to know about therapy”, which shows their fundamental misunderstanding of what therapy is and what its goal is. In the third tab, I’ve compiled a list of resources that may be useful to people going through similar issues, or even useful to Ghost themselves if they read this. Even if we are no longer friends, I still care for them as a human being and want them to get help. I don’t want them to feel miserable, even if it vindicates me. There is no one perfect cure-all fix with no side effects, trust me, I know. As long as we’re still living, we can still try.
2️⃣ public interactions
Their Questionable Public Interactions
CW: Emotional codependency, talks of CSA, racism
I didn’t just want to talk about my experience; I also wanted to include Ghost’s public actions. I feel that people are afraid to call them out, fearing they may be labelled as parasocial or ableist.
While there are impersonator BlueSky accounts, the official one was ghost-and-pals.bsky.social (link, deactivated) (wayback link)
(link) (wayback link: post, all channel posts incase the link doesnt work)
I also wanted to add a small section about the whole Distortionist situation. I’m woefully uneducated on it, as this happened almost a decade ago and not much screenshot proof still exists. Here is the link to Umbratic Forest’s document on it.
Parasociality
Too Much Information (Trauma Dumping)
Ghost has been extremely candid about their CSA. However, this is something they have criticised in the past.
They would detail their CSA and other trauma to an audience of young teenagers. I’ve redacted the most graphic and left out some other posts for Ghosts' privacy, but note this happened multiple times.
Private/Personal Matters
“We didn’t want anyone to be put on public shame-blast,” which is why they named the team and producers.
Them bringing up their “white guilt” and “reverse racism” will be a pattern. They were posting in this thread for about an hour, instead of doing what they were saying in the first post and comforting their partner.
Inappropriate Interactions with Minors
TikTok OP in this screenshot is 14 years old.
People in the replies told Ghost how weird this is and that OP is a minor.
Ghost never deleted the tweets and said this in response.
“Sick of people spotlighting mentally ill teenagers,” so they decided to spotlight a mentally ill teenager and encouraged the maladaptive parasocial attachment.
Strange Comments
Racism & Dog whistles
“My fans are ableist in the same way that I’m racist for being white, in the same way that Russia is irredeemable media right now”
Covetous Trigger Warnings (Dismissal of Survivors)
Ghost released a song titled “Covetous” which featured graphic lyrics about C/SA. People were upset over the lack of warning, especially when this is something Ghost has provided for in the past. This was Ghost's response:
You have all this energy to make an entire PV and make multiple threads on BlueSky about it, but not enough energy to type four letters? They initially added a TW to the description, but then removed it, along with uploading an animatic similarly with no warnings. Covetous and the animatic have both since been deleted as of 19 March.
Other comments by Ghost on Covetous.
(Edit 25 March: Reply to a comment on Covetous)
Saya no Uta is a known lolicon game, depicting the sexualization and assault of children. Many of their followers were minors, and they still chose to post about a dark, adult game.
Palestine
“Your dad was right about you.” Absolutely nonsensical response. They somehow make the suffering in Gaza about themselves.
Mental Health (Anti-Recovery & Ableism)
Once again talking about “narcissistic abuse”, an ableist term against people with Narcissistic Personality Disorder.
If I have left anything out, please let me know on my Twitter. I am trying to keep this contained to recent events.
3️⃣ resources
I wanted to take this time to gather resources for mental and physical illnesses. I also wanted to compile the thread Carbon Monoxide made on the matter, so users off Twitter may benefit from this. Even if it helps one person, or better yet indirectly helps Ghost.
Beta blockers, such as propranolol, can help massively decrease the levels of adrenaline and norepinephrine, the stress chemicals that cause your body to physically lock up and 'freeze' during times of intense distress. Propranolol is shown to alleviate symptoms of (C)PTSD and hinder the consolidation + reconsolidation of traumatic memories. [Side note: beta blockers are also prescribed for POTS, a disorder that releases adrenaline & norepinephrine and causes tachycardia, fatigue, and even syncope.]
[Personal addition: I’ve been on propranolol for several months now and it has significantly improved the intensity, frequency, and length of freeze episodes I would get. I used to be paralyzed for hours on end or would have episodes of syncope. It has also greatly improved my POTS symptoms.]
Aripiprazole is sometimes used as an off-label medication for (ME)CFS, due to the fact it reduces brain inflammation.
https://link.springer.com/article/10.1186/s12967-021-02721-9
Adderall can heavily worsen symptoms of OCD and psychosis, because Adderall increases levels of adrenaline and norepinephrine. Plus, it can create a dopamine imbalance in the frontal cortex, which is a core physiological feature of those who undergo psychosis and/or have diagnosed psychotic disorders.
https://siliconvalleyrecovery.com/blog/adderall-ocd-connection/
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9403214/
[As a personal addition, I used to be on Adderall XR and used to have severe daily panic attacks. I have since switched to Vyvanse and it has decreased the amount of panic attacks drastically and improved my anxiety.]
For ADHD medications, Vyvanse is considered a more reliable and gentler option. Rather than providing your body with dextroamphetamine (the thing in Adderall that gives you energy), Vyvanse is a pro-drug, meaning that it's the precursor to dextroamphetamine, so it works within the bounds of your natural metabolism so as to not overwhelm your body with stress hormone.
https://childmind.org/article/how-vyvanse-is-different-from-other-stimulants/
A stellate ganglion block is a minimally invasive procedure where a syringe of anaesthetic is injected into this bundle of nerves near your thyroid that modulates your panic responses, essentially soft-resetting your nervous system. It’s been shown to have a success rate of up to 70% in people with severe, treatment-resistant PTSD, and is also a valid treatment option for chronic neuropathic pain.
https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/treatments/17507-stellate-ganglion-block
https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S2950553425000796
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC11385266/
The vagus nerve is a facial nerve that runs down the side of your neck, and it's responsible for modulating your sympathetic nervous system. Vagus nerve stimulation therapy has been shown to provide relief for not only those with treatment-resistant PTSD, but also people with POTS, MCAS, EDS (excessive daytime sleepiness), and (ME)CFS.
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/40097094/
https://maximizechiropractic.com/mcas-pots-and-eds-the-nervous-system-connection/
However, none of these are magical cure-alls for mental illness. They serve as tools to remove blocks that prevent you from going forward with PTSD recovery, but that you still need to do the hard work of unpacking all your trauma. In order to maximise the effectiveness of any of these solutions, you need to be in active trauma therapy. Things like EMDR and DBT are long term, evidence based therapeutic commitments. They will not work if you quit half-way through, and in the case of EMDR, it can be harmful.
- The text in the red was spoken by YoppyVU underneath Carbon’s original thread.