edit: if you haven't already please watch this video, it's a good, thorough representation of everything: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oo_sChQ8EhM

so lately there has been drama about me, i usually try to solve problems directly, but this has been made super public so im gonna respond publicly.

Before I begin I will say that if you dont support me after this, you are allowed not to support me, I just want to clear up the misinformation.

basically, there's been a thread that was up for a while exposing me for stuff i've done in the past few years. now, the person who made the thread went locked their twitter, but i responded to it with a few screenshots in a sta.sh link a while ago. https://sta.sh/01tjbgf04ddi

recently a lot of drama has resurfaced, because I went into a server a few days ago of the people who hate me as a joke, posted a dumb sex joke to see how fast I would get banned. and in hindsight, it was a tasteless joke and overall a bad idea, and i'm definitely not going to do something like that anymore. it wasn't my intention to traumatize the people who were in there, and i am sorry to those who were genuinely hurt by me going in there, but all i can really do is admit to my fault here and stay out of your lives from now on.

a bit outside of the thread has some misinformation that's been spreading, is that people are saying i 'support pedophiles / maps' and that i'm a zoophile, and one person even stated that i fucked my dog.

I am extremely ashamed of my mindset back then, but I was groomed to believe that beastiality was okay in my old nsfw servers. there were zoophiles up the ASS on that server and it made me think it was okay. I deleted the server and I cut them out of my life after I realized how wrong it was. But if you've heard me recently talking about getting therapy, this is one of the things I was trying to get therapy for. I never sexually abused animals, I never 'fucked my dog' and I don't even have a dog, the last dog I had passed away in 2016, and the zoophilia grooming happened in mid 2017 - early 18.

this leads into the second thing. I don't hate all pedophiles. I don't support the 'map' community especially since some of them are trying to be accepted into the LGBT community, it's a paraphilia that I believe can be classified as a mental illness. But I do think pedos who are trying to get help, who are trying to have a normal life and have not groomed any children can be good people.

Also, this is a gray area, but i don't really care if people like lolicon/shotacon in fiction.
personally i don't care for it, but i could care less if someone else likes it. (unless of course they abuse/groom someone) Some people use / draw problematic fiction to cope, and don't get urges to do fucked up things irl. yes, fiction can affect reality but it doesn't always and here's a good thread that puts it into words

https://twitter.com/Zillychu/status/1258502748682833920
here is another document which includes reliable resources to back it up
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1tyMmYUN0qOHjg4HOuM5ohTLlIE18AIRiu2A-oTdDlH4/edit

also(i forgot to mention this initially but), i made a cat version of the 'white identitarian' from Jreg's centricide series (if you don't know, that character is a nazi.) I understand that kind of thing is offensive, but please understand that I don't genuinely support nazism(that shit was fucked up i think everyone can agree) i just liked the character jreg portrays in his series. i'm not going to make nazi related characters like that in the future, and i did change the cat identitarian's design to be a different authright ideology after someone pointed out how it was messed up, but yeah.

ALSO also: if you saw anything about me being "transphobic" there was a Month (feb 2019) where i used to watch kalvin garrah and i was a 'transmed' because i was questioning if the gender incongruence i had was just transtrender feelings.  i really do regret this time period since i made nbphobic art, i am and always have been nonbinary, i literally made a genderfluid fursona in 2009 (cutie puppy). i am sorry for that, it was due to me being confused with my identity. I fully came out as nb in july 2019.

if you hate or dislike me over this, you're allowed to. but please understand the full story before jumping to conclusions.