RAWS:
https://newtoki95.com/webtoon/267459?stx=나의&sst=as_update&toon=BL%2FGL
(READ SUHA AND JIWOON’s BACKSTORY AT THE END OF THIS DOCUMENT)
(NEW UPDATE: CH 86-87 SPOILERS; TEXT IN PURPLE ARE SPOILERS FOR CH 86-87!)
(NEW NEW UPDATE: CH 88 SPOILERS; TEXT IN BLUE ARE SPOILERS FOR CH 88)
CH 81 SPOILERS (GO ONTO NEXT PAGE FOR MORE SPOILER PARTS!!)
(IMPORTANT: These may be in the wrong order of chapters, in the Newtoki95 website, these are the correct chapter orders, mangago chapter orders are different I believe and on some other websites. For example!!: Chapter 82 is right on Newtoki95 website, but may actually be chapter 83 on mangago.)
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SUHA and female secretary/manager on phone speaking:
SUHA says: Hello Manager Choi, this is Lee Soo-Ha. The Director is away right now, so he’s not available to speak right now.
MANAGER CHOI: Oh this is the Secretary? Long time no see.
SUHA: Yes, how are you doing?
MANAGER CHOI: Good, are you with Mr.Park?
SUHA: No, he didn’t go to work today
MANAGER CHOI: Ahaha, I see. Then can you tell Director Park that the daughter of Hanhyun group chairman wants to see him?
So I think manager Choi called Jiwoon and Suha picked it up since Jiwoon wasn’t there I believe, Suha told the manager that Jiwoon wasn’t here to pick up the call. Then the manager told Suha to let Jiwoon know that the daughter of a company wanted to see him.
The call soon ends.
Suha then thinks to himself something like: Why does the daughter of that company want to see Jiwoon? Come to think of it, Jiwoon recently said he was going to meet the managing director of that company.
Jiwoon then comes into the room wearing a robe and asks what’s up. Suha tells him that he got a call from manager Choi and tells him that the daughter of a company wanted to meet him, and that Jiwoon should contact manager Choi again for more information.
Jiwoon thanks Suha. Suha then thinks to himself: Why does Jiwoon want to meet the daughter of a company?
Jiwoon notices and tells him that it’s not a big deal and that it’s a business discussion, don’t worry. Suha asks a bit more and Jiwoon tells him it’s personal with a smile.
Suha thinks something like: He’s going to meet? I thought he refused? And manager Choi doesn’t know about our relationship…
It’s fine, it must be just business, just business.
Suha then wonders what Jiwoon is hiding.
Suha tells Jiwoon he has a question and Jiwoon listens. Suha asks if he has met anyone else? I think Suha here is feeling insecure.
Jiwoon denies this and says he will be staying home today. Suha then feels flustered by asking that question. He continues on saying something to Jiwoon about marriage, that high society level people marry someone for image, I think Suha thinks Jiwoon is gonna marry the daughter of a company.
Suha then tells Jiwoon how he didn’t expect him to be swinging that way as well when they first ran into each other at the bar.
Suha then tells Jiwoon that even if he and someone else may have a consensual marriage, he doesn’t want Jiwoon to think of marrying anyone.
Jiwoon then tells Suha how he can think that when Suha knows he loves only him. Something like: “How can you say that knowing how much I love you? If you were me, would you be able to leave me be and meet someone else?”.
Suha then answers something like: “Same for me as well” that he wouldn’t leave Jiwoon. And then Suha asks Jiwoon what he is hiding from him, that he doesn’t know what Jiwoon is doing outside.
I think Jiwoon then says that it’s personal and he doesn’t wanna talk about it. Jiwoon then says “as I was saying before, there is no else I love as much as I love you. And what does it matter if you and I are men?”.
Jiwoon tells Suha that he has only him and loves only him.Then they both kiss and have sex, and as they are having sex, Jiwoon’s mind dialogue: “I really only have you, the only one I ever love in my life is you.”
Later Jiwoon calls back manager Choi apologizing for not picking up the phone. He asks who wants to see him, etc. they talk about business. I think they’re talking about some evidence to prove someone is guilty of something.
As they talk, on the other side of the phone, the little guy Secretary walks into manager Choi’s office saying something like “excuse me manager Choi?”. He apologizes cause she was on the phone.
They talk again for a bit, then Jiwoon tells manager Choi about getting evidence or something from the little guy Secretary.
(TO BE CONTINUED…)
CH 82 SPOILERS:
Suha here then eavesdrops on Jiwoon speaking about business on the phone as Jiwoon is saying they need to get the evidence/something from the little guy Secretary.
There’s a very short flashback of Suha asking Jiwoon what he’s talking about and Jiwoon tells Suha that it’s nothing important, that he shouldn’t leave the house.
Flashback ended. Jiwoon tells manager Choi that he will see her the next day. Suha continues eavesdropping. I think Suha then asks in his mind what he’s hiding or talking about with manager Choi.
Next day, Jiwoon meets up with manager Choi to talk about something. He then sees Secretary Yoon as well. Both talk to each other, Jiwoon asks him something like what could be beneficial to him, secreta Yoon looks nervous and says he doesn’t know what Jiwoon is talking about.
Secretary Yoon says he can’t help and Manager Choi tells him not to be ignorant and if he continues to deny, he will be seen as taking part in the crime. Secretary Yoon says something (not sure what he said but he keeps denying.)
Manager Choi then says: Even after looking at all these (papers), you still deny?
Secretary Yoon goes silent. Manager Choi continues to say something about Yoon helping with the embezzlement/fraud of a company (I think Yoon helps the red head and definitely had something to do with this, or he didn’t know.)
Manager Choi continues to say something and then asks Yoon to hand over the account books/something.
There’s a short flashback of Secretary Yoon with a co-worker or another Secretary helping the red head. She tells Yoon to keep the account books safe.
Flashback ends. Yoon stutters to say something and Jiwoon says something about redhead not being aware that they know right now.
Another short flashback.
Jiwoon meeting manager Choi and Yoon, Yoon accidentally drops papers and Jiwoon helps, he sees a paper that catches his attention.
FLASHBACK ends.
Jiwoon then continues to talk and says something like: “You still continue to deny after all that?”. He then says: “Will you continue to help the one who’s behind this and we investigate you and the company or you help us? Choice is yours, Secretary Yoon. If you want to consider, call manager Choi.”
They finish talking I believe and the next scene where manager Choi and Jiwoon are at a table talking. I think they are talking about the same topic as earlier with Yoon.
Next scenario, Suha is at home on the ground kneeling looking at papers. Later Jiwoon comes home and looks for Suha, he panics a bit because he thought Suha wasn’t here.
Suha then approaches him asking if there is a problem with the company. I think Suha here is defending the president (Jiwoon’s grandma I think?) saying that she wouldn’t do something like that, etc. (don’t really know what he’s talking about here.)
Short flashback of Jiwoon and his grandma, his grandma told him:
“Jiwoon, don’t embarrass me like that.” With a disgusted look at Jiwoon who looks hurt.
Flashback ends.
Jiwoon has a slightly hurt expression, he asks with a small grin if Suha thinks it will harm the president. Jiwoon assures Suha that nothing will harm the president and that the president isn’t involved, Jiwoon tells him something about never hurting his career. He asks if Suha was worried about this all day.
Suha then says “of course I was worried, you don’t tell me anything”. Suha then says he can help. He says something like: “In the first place it’s also related to me, I hope there is nothing I don’t know about what’s going on outside. Please, tell me anytime.”
Jiwoon says something like: “There is nothing wrong with what you are saying but it’s my work and I want to solve it on my own.” I think he also says that he felt shameful to ask for help.
Suha then says he doesn’t have to feel shameful and he kisses Jiwoon with a smile. He pushes confused Jiwoon onto the bed.
CH 82-83 SPOILERS (very short since I skipped unimportant parts):
Ch 83-
Suha pushes confused Jiwoon onto the bed. Jiwoon asks why he’s doing this and Suha says it’s punishment for not telling him anything. Jiwoon then thinks: Isn’t this punishment too good for me?
Then they have sex. Nearing the end of Ch 83, Jiwoon stares at Suha who’s on his knees seductively waiting for his d, Jiwoon has a worried/strange expression when looking at Suha’s tied hands.
Ch 84-
Suha then asks what’s wrong and Jiwoon says nothing, then continues on with the sex. Jiwoon in his mind thinks something like wanting to hold Suha and not have him leave him.
They continue to have sex. Then they talk about something not so important for me to tell you, just find out later; just casual small comedy talk.
SPOILERS FOR CH 85:
Ch 85-
A new scenario. Shows the grandma is sitting with a red head at the company. Then the scenario changes to the female Secretary and Secretary Yoon, Yoon thinks back to what Jiwoon and manager Choi told him.
Yoon then tells the female Secretary that he looked through the account books, he then nervously tells her: “I mean this is a crime if we do this, right? What do you think?…”
The female Secretary replied back saying something like: “I didn’t know you had such concern, I thought you understood why.”
Yoon goes silent.
The female Secretary continues on saying that the red head will surely be the one to take over the company and that nothing bad will happen so Yoon should stay as a Secretary for the redhead. She tells him that he doesn’t need to do anything much, Yoon just has to stay still.
Scenario changes. Suha is at home cooking food with a smile. He thinks back to the sex he had with Jiwoon with a bashful smile, he then imagined Jiwoon tied up in a sexy pose.
Jiwoon and Suha call each other, both talk on the phone with a smile. Suha asks when he will be back for dinner, Jiwoon answers back. Suha soon asks if he can use Jiwoon’s laptop for a minute. Jiwoon stops walking and asks what he needs the laptop for. Suha then says he wants to buy something online, Jiwoon says he can.
The laptop has a password on it so Suha asked for the password , Jiwoon answered: 0504 (I think).
It worked. Suha noticed with a bush it was Suha’s birthday month and day (I think May 4).
Jiwoon smiled and said he thought of him.
They finish talking and end the call. Jiwoon sees Yoon and walks past him nonchalantly, Yoon looks nervous and looks around before speaking to Jiwoon. Yoon asks Jiwoon why he’s doing this (about business) and Jiwoon says something like: “You want to continue working with (red head) even though he’s eating you away?”.
Yoon denies saying something like there can be better ways to handle this or else issues will arise in the company and there will be gossip flying around. Yoon then asks if Jiwoon is doing this for the heir position.
Jiwoon answers back saying that he doesn’t care about the company, that he doesn’t see his family as his family.
An illustration of him and Suha together shows in the scene as Jiwoon continues saying, “I plan to make sure no one is hurt anymore because of (red head).”
Jiwoon says that there were also a lot of people who denied him. He tells Yoon that “even if others blame you and point fingers at you, there is no reason to feel guilty if you are honest.”
Jiwoon then tells Yoon to think about what makes him feel comfortable doing. The discussion ends there.
Near the end of ch 85, Suha’s friend (brown hair) watches Jiwoon and Yoon talking from afar.
Ch 86
Beginning of ch 86, it starts out with Suha’s friend with brown ponytail hair walking into the company where Suha and Jiwoon both work at.
He is holding a teal bag in his hands and talked with the receptionist, saying:
“Hello, I’m here to meet someone.”
I think the receptionist asked “Who are you here to meet?”. The brown haired friend said he is here to meet Suha.
The receptionist told the brown haired friend that Suha has taken a break for a month. The brown haired friend probably is wondering why he’s on leave for a month.
Then as the brown haired friend is thinking, he overhears Jiwoon saying: “Think about what you can do to make yourself comfortable.”
(Remember? Jiwoon talked with Secretary Yoon about the evidence against redhead. He’s giving Yoon time to choose who he wants to side with, Jiwoon or the red haired).
So then the brown haired friend watches them from there on. Later the scene changes to a parking lot, Jiwoon is walking to his car but then the brown haired guy (friend of Suha) calls him, “Mr. Park”.
Jiwoon stops and turns back to look, greeting the brown haired guy with a “Good morning”.
The brown haired guy apologizes for bothering him so suddenly and then says he can’t contact Suha.
Since the brown haired guy knows where Suha works at, he must know who the boss is so that’s why he approached Jiwoon, saying he can’t contact Suha, wondering why Suha isn’t at the workplace.
I think the brown haired guy tells Jiwoon:
“I heard Suha is on a break for a month?”.
And I think Jiwoon replies back: “I heard from Suha yes.”
Jiwoon tells the brown haired guy that Suha isn’t feeling well so Suha is staying at home, resting. Then Jiwoon says if he has anything to say to Suha, Jiwoon will tell Suha himself.
I think the brown haired guy tells Jiwoon it’s fine and that he should take care of Suha since the brown haired guy already moved to another place and can’t help Suha or contact him.
Then the brown haired guy says: “I am also very worried about many things”, then stares at Jiwoon quietly afterwards. Both stare at each other.
The brown haired guy gives the teal bag to Jiwoon and tells Suha to contact him.
I think Jiwoon says something like okay, not sure if he’s actually gonna tell Suha though.
Next scene changes to Jiwoon sitting in his car, he already opened the teal bag the brown haired guy gave him, it was an AirPod.
Jiwoon then has a flashback of seeing Suha sitting at the bar seats, speaking with the brown haired guy who was the bartender there (this was the time when Jiwoon and Suha ran into each other).
Jiwoon puts the teal bag onto the passenger seat and gets out of the car. The brown haired guy is watching him, his car parked away from Jiwoon’s car. I think the brown haired guy is suspecting Jiwoon because notice— Jiwoon did not bring the bright teal bag with him when he went into the apartment.
The scene changes.
It shows Jiwoon at his house, sitting at Suha’s computer. He comes across a file called: “PINK BUNNY”, he clicks on it and porno appears.
Jiwoon got flustered, saying: “What is this?”.
Suha enters the room just in time and Jiwoon is surprised. Suha tells him that he’s gonna wash up and tells Jiwoon to wash up as well so they can have dinner together after.
Jiwoon tells Suha to wash up first, I think he said to Suha that he has something to do. Then Jiwoon looks back at the computer and Suha looks confused, so he calls Jiwoon.
Jiwoon looks up with a smile and says: “Why don’t we wash up together then? I’ll clean every nook and cranny.”
Suha blushes in response and says: “It’s fine” and then slowly leaves. Suha says he will wash up first. Jiwoon puts his head down and mutters “cute” because of Suha.
The scene changes.
It shows the redhead at his place with his other Secretary, the female Secretary who was talking with Secretary Yoon before.
The female Secretary tells the redhead that she went to the place that the red head mentioned to her about. She hands the red head a small paper.
Ch 87
At the start of chapter 87, the scene shows Secretary Yoon at his house, laying on the bed and thinking about what seems to be the business issues.
FLASHBACK
The flashback shows Secretary Yoon coming out of the elevator letting out a long sigh, thinking that he might’ve done something wrong. Then he meets the other female Secretary that also works for his boss, the red head.
They both go out for dinner and talk about something. The female secretary asks Yoon what his set goal is to see his enthusiasm since he’s a new secretary for the red head.
Yoon responds to her, saying that he just wanted a job and that he just so happened to be working at this company for the red head.
They talk for a bit, then the redhead appears out of nowhere, asking Yoon what his dream goal is and telling Yoon his own goals; living peacefully, taking care of his people (okay we hear you, liar).
FLASHBACK ENDS-
Back to the scene where Yoon is laying on his bed. He’s on his phone, looking at his contact lists. He has a small flashback to what Jiwoon told him, remember—Jiwoon said to yoon to choose who he wants to side with, Jiwoon or the red head. If Yoon chooses Jiwoon, he has to call Manager Choi.
Yoon is thinking.
The scene changes to the next day, the scene shows Manager Choi on her computer at work.
She gets a phone call from someone, it’s a call from Secretary Yoon.
Secretary Yoon called Manager Choi, saying he wants to work with them and go against the red head, he will give the evidence—which is the account books he got from the female secretary for him to hold secretly.
Manager Choi says she will wait for him.
The scene changes to Jiwoon’s house, where Suha and Jiwoon are fucking each other like it’s their last day before death. (I saw three semen filled condoms, just saying.)
Since Jiwoon only used the things Jiwoon himself ordered for their sex, Suha in his mind said he himself will order something to use too.
(I didn’t put any more dialogues here because they weren’t important, it’s just their lovey lovey sex talk.)
The scene changes, Suha is laying on the couch and then he gets up since the door bell was ringing. It’s the delivery person. Suha’s face lights up and he can’t wait to use the ordered item. He thanks the delivery person and shuts the door with a happy expression.
(So Suha wasn’t home LOCKED because he unlocked the door by himself, he could’ve left any time and came back, repeat; but he stays true to his words to Jiwoon when he promised to stay home until Jiwoon feels comfortable.)
The scene changes and the delivery person comes out of the elevator to the lobby, then he talks with someone on the phone, saying he will see the other person in ten minutes.
The scene changes, the redhead goes into the same elevator the delivery person came from.
Scene changes again, Suha is opening up his ordered item with a happy face until the door code thing unlocks. He thinks it’s Jiwoon since the code of the door was unlocked.
Suha is flustered and quickly throws the ordered item box across the room and turns to face who he thinks is Jiwoon.
No, it’s the redhead. Suha looks shocked. The red head found him, so I’m assuming the piece of paper the female secretary gave to him, in the previous chapter, is the address of where Suha is staying.
I highly believe the piece of paper had Jiwoon’s apartment door code and that’s how the redhead managed to just walk into the apartment.
Redhead asks Suha what he is hiding here.Then the redhead tells Suha he misses him.
End of chapter 87-
FUCK FUCK FUCK NO NO NO STAY AWAY 🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺
PEST ELIMINATION PEST ELIMINATION I REPEAT
I’m just gonna die.
Ch 88
RECAP: READ CH 87 SPOILERS OF THIS DOCUMENT
So this chapter (88) starts off with Manager Choi saying she will wait for Secretary Yoon, because remember the previous chapter where Yoon called Managed Choi to let her know that he sided with Jiwoon?
Now a new scene shows. The redhead is coming out of the elevator with a girl, both talking to each other about something. Then the redhead sees Yoon talking to Manager Choi, and the redhead stares at them with an unpleasant expression.
Manager Choi is talking with someone on the phone in front of Yoon who’s waiting, then Manager Choi tells him to go in the room first, to talk most likely. Manager Choi gives him a room key card I believe and then she goes in the elevator.
Yoon then goes to the designated room to wait for Jiwoon and Manager Choi. He goes down the stairs but then the redhead pulls him back by the wrist. The redhead asks Yoon what he is doing at work when Yoon is supposed to be on a holiday break.
The redhead asks Yoon if he has a good relationship with Manager Choi since he saw Yoon and Manager Choi talking together.
Yoon denies and tells Manager Choi that they were just discussing work business. The redhead asks what the business is. I think Yoon tells him or something cause the redhead tells Yoon that he disappointed him, disappointed because he’s working with Jiwoon behind his back.
Short flashback
The red head is walking with the same girl from the elevator, he sees Jiwoon with Manager Choi, both discussing something—probably their business plan against the redhead. So I think he found out Yoon is working behind his back because Manager Choi was with both Yoon and Jiwoon.
Flashback ends.
The red head then asks Yoon how he became so close to Jiwoon (it isn’t really a question though) and asks if Suha told him about the incident.
Yoon is about to say something, probably denying, and then he is shoved back against the wall by the redhead.
The redhead asks what he and Jiwoon (along with Manager Choi) did behind his back.
The scene changes. Previously where we left off at the end of chapter 87, Suha and Redhead in the apartment.
Suha is shocked to see the red head. The redhead asks what he is hiding here and then tells Suha he missed him.
Suha is about to ask what he is doing here and how he got in, but then the red head says something like—as long as he knew the address, getting in was a piece of cake.
The red head then says he didn’t expect anyone to be home, so I’m assuming that he could’ve come to Jiwoon’s apartment because he wanted to find the evidence files but then found Suha is here. The red head hugged Suha.
The red head says something to him about smelling good and Suha pushes him away, Suha feels disgusted.
The red head then grins evilly.
The scene changes back to the staircase with Yoon. Yoon is on the floor panting, he is feeling dizzy because he hit his head (I’m assuming because of the red head). The phone is ringing.
Just then, Manager Choi sees Yoon. She goes over to him and Jiwoon is behind her. Manager Choi asks if he needs to go to the hospital, Yoon denies and says that he met the red head just a bit ago, and that he knows about their business plan.
Yoon tells them that he didn’t tell the redhead anything and that the red head kept talking about Suha. Jiwoon’s looks shocked and anxious.
Jiwoon immediately runs and calls Suha but the call goes straight to voicemail. Jiwoon is stressed.
And chapter 88 ends here.
(My thoughts: SUHA YOU BETTER DEFEND YOURSELF, USE KITCHEN WEAPONS IDC, KICK HIS BALLS FOR ALL I CARE, ISTG IF THE SAME SHIT HAPPENS AGAIN. EVEN BEING “LOCKED”, REDHEAD BASTARD CAN STILL FIND SUHA, BOOST UP THE SECURITY. ACTUALLY EVEN BETTER— SUHA GO TAKE DEFENSE CLASS.)
Jiwoon was born from a mother who was from a less prestigious family than his father’s family. His grandmother (his father's mother) is a person who expects her family to be perfect to match their high status.
One day Jiwoon’s mother's family went bankrupt and collapsed. Jiwoon’s grandmother was very angry and couldn't accept that someone from a fallen family was in her house, so she kicked Jiwoon’s mother out.
Jiwoon’s father was very sad and disappointed in his mother (Jiwoon’s grandmother) who cares only about his family's honor, and went as far as disowning her daughter-in-law.
Jiwoon’s mother had to stay with her family to take care of the mess in her family, so Jiwoon only stayed with his father. But then his father also left, in the end both the mother and father went missing, most likely they ran away together, leaving poor Jiwoon behind.
They left Jiwoon with his grandmother when he was very young. As time passed by, Jiwoon got emotionally unstable and lacked guidance and was given no proper affection because his parents were gone and he overheard that they abandoned him. Young Jiwoon threw a fit and hurt himself.
His grandmother said she shouldn't have let Jiwoon’s mother of such low status marry her son, because such a mess - Jiwoon was born.
She sent Jiwoon to therapy and didn’t care much about him, because her first grandson, which is Jiwoon’s cousin (red tampon haired bastard) was excellent in her eyes. She always prioritized and favoured the first grandson while neglecting Jiwoon. Without proper parental guidance and love, Jiwoon became like the present day him.
Jiwoon came back from “therapy" during middle school. As a child who grew up without his family's love and with being left behind by his parents, he grew to be very possessive and scared of abandonment, which showed when he fell for Suha.
But he also became rather dull, which also dissatisfied his grandmother. When Jiwoon came back, he met Suha, whose family was taken care of by his grandmother.
To return her “kindness", Suha was educated to work in the company as a loyal employee. Because of being in debt to the old woman, Suha always agrees to anything she asks. He just can’t refuse her.
At some point (I think high school days) Suha started a relationship with the red haired bastard, but it turned out quickly that he was just a toy for him. The red haired forced Suha to take part in gangbang, often forcing Suha to satisfy his sexual desires.
During that time Jiwoon was in love with Suha but couldn't say it and always watched Suha from afar. Finally the red haired bastard left. Suha started to have random relationships for sex and when the story started he became Jiwoon’s secretary.
MINE:
What triggered Jiwoon’s trauma from the past:
Since Jiwoon has abandonment issues, I believe his trauma was triggered because Suha and the red head kissed in front of him as Jiwoon was drugged and he fell to the floor. Suha left him there without saying much which made him think Suha left him, abandoned him.
Jiwoon probably knows the red head threatened him. Another reason why he took Suha’s original phone away, so he won’t be getting calls from anyone and be threatened. Suha owes the grandmother and Suha himself is willing to do anything for the grandmother, I’m assuming Jiwoon is scared Suha will do something stupid again.
During that incident, Jiwoon was taken somewhere to a room and nearly raped by two men. I’m glad Suha stopped and realized his stupidity of leaving Jiwoon behind. The authors truly love making characters realize something so obvious later on as hints escalate. Suha went with the red head to protect Jiwoon but on the other side, Jiwoon was nearly raped. Thankfully, Suha realized something and went to Jiwoon, or else Jiwoon would’ve been raped.
Suha shouldn’t have to sacrifice his precious body to red head ever or listen to the red head, that scene pissed me off honestly. I hope the redhead gets what he gets soon, he better disappear for good. Jiwoon is suffering both mentally and physically, physically because mental pain can cause physical issues.
And you all know from the backstory how much Suha also suffered in the past, now the redhead is trying to mess shit up again.
I hope both communicate to each other. Mental issues aren't small, it's a huge issue in society and they all need help.