Summer Butterflies
I.
1.
We flitted around
Swirling and diving
Dancing in the air
Like Summer butterflies
Our wings were bright
Colorful canvas carrying us
We flew and fell
But never touched
I wanted to tell you how I felt
How you made me feel
(yes you made me feel)
But the more I wrote
And the more I spoke
The less I said
I got lost in the forest of the words
When I found my way out
You were gone
(And my wings had fallen off).
2.
I looked for you
But
Not right away
Whatever we had
Whatever we were
Became like bleached butterflies
Turned into moths
The ghost of love
Floating face down in a puddle of poison
And I floated too
Sometimes I sank
Sometimes I swam
And I usually missed you.
II.
Sometimes I went back to the forest
It was quiet there
And I knew you never much liked it
I planted more trees
Spoke seeds into being
Wrote leaves
And I started to see
Why you hated those trees
(It's because they block the view)
And I started to think
And I left again
I cut down a few trees
On my way.
III.
1.
I thought you were gone
Because you told me you were leaving
(This is what I thought)
But I saw in the sunlight
A flicker of flapping
I knew those wings
I fumbled and flexed
I hadn't even noticed my wings had grown back
But I flew anyway
2.
And the two of us fluttered
Like blown leaves in summer
Whishing whispers like wings
Twisting and turning
Like stunt panes
(or dogfighters)
We spun in the sky
Then I landed
And walked
And inspected my wings
For wear
(or battle damage)
And I didn't plant many trees.
3.
Last night, we fought
In my dreams
But the fighting was like dancing
Or it might have been
(I can't remember)
But when I woke up
I felt like I'd danced
But I'd known that we'd fought.