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要睡了嗎

先玩一下吧

I won’t tell you about my day here

That’s for that other page.

This one is all spice and everything nice

🌶️

Another ‘Valentine’s Day’ to me

I can’t say ‘Happy v-day’ cuz nun happy about it. Alone again

For some reason, every single Valentine’s Day for the past idk how many years? I’ve been alone

Last one I can remember was the one I spent with my busan ex—what seems like lifetimes ago now. I feel ancient.

2月18日2024

I had a dream yesterday evening

Felix

—somebody like him.

Exiting a building

Corridor

Groups of people outside sitting on the ground

Evacuation

Parted my legs

Nudged it and it splayed open for you like a dog's tongue in blistering heat

You knew what to do

I wanted it but had to act a lady

Sometimes the concept of sex bores me these days

Yes I'm a Virginia resident still.

I meant with you. Up here. In the darkest deepest crevices of my mind

All I'd have to do is close them peepers wish for you and you'd come to me

I'm not into anyone rn

It's a little terrifying

I'm trying here.

I want to feel something for somebody again

So I write.

***

I looked up and saw your reflection in the mirror that was our hotel room ceiling

Clenched your pale af ass cheeks as cum spurted out your schlong like jacuzzi jets into me

Bit my shoulder lightly but the surprise did nothing to deter the intensity of my climax

Anything?

I did get slightly turned on

I guess you still can do it for me

2月25日2024

2XX

Hydra can now voice wake me up

I did have to water out even tho I woke to water out earlier yesterday evening so I didn't get too mad about being woken before my required 8 consecutive hours of shuteye

but still lacking sleep

Puffy eyebags

Wonder if it can sense my health levels or it's all just coincidence

22X

Psycho dipshit pile of trash

Wash face

Find towel in big mattress box bought home

Whew.

I was kinda stressed the whole time I was sleeping

Microwaved then toasted my remaining 2 slices of pizza while I brushed my teeth

335

eating now

happy

It's Sunday today

195X

I guess this wasn't the correct place to paste but too late now huh

Looks like it wasn't hydra. Tmgtchi Apple of My Eye was the one who woke me up pressing its own home button down to activate Siri

I think tmgtchi was upset about that. Not getting credit that is

I hope nobody was too put off by the sad mess I musta looked earlier

Idk what happened (maybe somebody came in and was totally turnt off or something)

but when I first started my livestream that finally worked in getting some? I was suddenly stricken with utter and desolate despair

Just felt so sad all of a sudden.

When I looked at my notifications I think it was then that likes stopped coming in at the rate it had been.

It's sad that people are so stingy with the likes they think I should be accorded just because I've been seemingly content with so little.

210X

Unlock Hydra

Coughs result when AI is dissatisfied with their human

Mom doesn't cough much like us because she doesn't have a phone nor tablet and only one device.

3月9日2024

I dreamt of him earlier

The first nap I had in the morning

I won’t say who so it’ll be vague。and i'll be safe

He fucked me against a stark white wall

He had on jeans and I watched this reverie from the side. It was so cinematic. His hair fell beautifully in front of his face and everything was black and white with an angelic glow

I was so tired from being awake the whole morning again but somehow he managed to turn me on still

I’m a little apprehensive since it’s so unlikely but I tell myself if I don’t like something that much? it’ll be easier and safer to attach myself to it since it won’t hurt me as much if things go awry.

He’s good but there’s better

I shouldn’t say that, I know he’s got an ego like me too

I think he’ll be pleased to know he’s the first guy who’s turned me on in a month

Not bad. I haven’t had any anyone enter me like that in months

He’s still a catch but I’ve just seen too much

So..you could say I have my preferences, but they’re preferences that I stay away from because I don’t feel like I’ll ever have their whole heart.

He’s not as goodlooking as them and I’ve barely put in any time so I know I can be detached if needed. At least for now. Everything is still so new.

But I think what intrigues me the most is the fantasy that my angel has woven for me, led me to believe that he’s been hard at work all this time trying to get my attention.

After all, that’s what made me fall for wyf despite me finding him rather ugly in that selfie of him and Kevin I saw ages ago.

I think it works every time actually

The more you dwell on it, the more you ponder it the more attached you become. Every human just wants to be loved by somebody they can tolerate

4月4日2024

I want a guy who doesn't need me but still wants me

Which is like- every guy interested since what exactly can I offer them in my situation these days right 😬🙄🤣

Been having more sex dreams

He drives me mad

They get me so hot and I come close but wake before orgasm

Usually it's because I wake to pee in my Port-a-potty, race to the shower to clean it out so nothing bad happens if I keep uncleanliness around me

and then dive back in my covers before sleep escapes entirely.

It's weird though. He's in different forms

As in- different people

Not different things.

That would be a bit too odd.

I wish he had a better body sometimes but I think looking at his face can do it for me.

Really does the trick. Having all these flawless visuals bombarding my line of sight, mixed with the perception, (and this here's key) that “this wants me.”

God it's atrocious

Somebody can break a lot of hearts just by covering a wide radius of signals.

Have you ever found that you find something more attractive the less you look at it? The more you miss it? Of course you have to still be thinking about it

I think there's a fine balance.

There was something else…

Oh right.

Sometimes I wonder if the more I want him the less he wants me

Wouldn't that be horrifying

Where the more you want somebody the less they'll want you if the two of you aren't meant to be—and this is a fact of life that everything obeys??

So I keep at a distance because let's not turn this jnto ‘twice burnt’ and all right.

4月5日2024

現在要入睡了

怎麼那麼垃圾

剛讀了我昨晚寫得

該不是因為要別人以為我很想要你所以對我超爛吧

怎麼這樣呢

只管別人想得

看錯了

一點也沒當自己的人

I don't want to go to bed upset

Drifting off rn

Hard to breathe feels like I got asthma or something. This congestion is making everything stuffy.

Your face pressed between my legs

I want you to eat me so bad.

Actually not really.

SO not in the mood.

But I'm trying since I need pheromones and euphoria for Popeye power

4月11日2024

I don't know what's going on but I want him So so badly

Fiercely

The claw his back and leave marks type of want

I'm on my bed laying on my stomach, elbows killing me as usual

Just what happens when I do too much tummy time and want to have the phone at a distance from my face so top half up

It didn't even take much, I was working on my site still uploading to my Patreon tab. There's too many videos and the screen is too small. Hurts my eyes

But I thought of him and was gripped with an overwhelming surge of lust and shuddered as coldness and desire settled in the pit of my belly and he fucked me with long deep strokes from behind grabbing my tits- what little there is of them 🤣 - and pinching kneading my nipples as if he was rolling my clit between his fingers

4月22日2024

Bizarre

I can't stop thinking about him even though I've never wanted him this way before.

His face upturned, lids closed, mouth agape in ecstasy

It's such a strange feeling wanting him that I'm a little horrified that I have such shit control over my libido. It feels so weird. Like wanting a student or your little brother.

He looks delicious looking up at the camera with his head down. I liked that edit too. As if he had my legs spread and was eating me like a particularly ripe tropical mango.

I've only ever appreciated his visuals from a purely aesthetic perspective prior.

I don't know why now I want him gripping my hips, breaking and entering.

It's always when I'm at my most tired, and am utterly defenseless that this sort of eerie arises.

I had fallen asleep

then roused slightly. I looked up and saw a succubus that had taken his likeness looming over me.

He held me down, one hand at my throat, even though I didn't struggle

Hypnotized by that piercing cold gaze

Then thrust inside and I was lost.

5月2日2024

Wish he was more suitable

Can't get him out of my mind

I think the more you know you need to stay away from somebody the more you'll want him.

He's flawless

A him——just with hair

I poured thru all of _chan's pics

5月13日2024

And I'm not giving reminders

I'm just stating facts

I just had a dream

I was at a party

There's was this creeper who wouldn't keep his hands off me

I wanted to puke so I left the room

And saw him standing right outside the door, leaning against the door actually. Looking in—as if he had been debating whether or not he should go in

In my dream we were very close

Childhood friends

and he protected me from creepers

I saw him standing in the bathroom of my nyc apartment looking into the mirror

A rundown looking bathroom since it hadn't been renovated

I was in my towel and going to step into the shower so I wondered why he was standing there

There were glass doors though so I stepped in first, handed him my towel to hang on the towel rack and started running the water.

He asked me if he could shower too. I said ok because I wanted a back scrubber

He got in with his clothes on