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1580. I’ve been getting away from my morning pages.  I am back at McDonald’s on Beach, but most of my homeless pals have scattered.  I think we’ve had too much rain, and coming here by bicycle is not a good idea.

I’ve been slow on the uptick.  Corbett is out of the house for 3 days, so now I can get some shit cleaned up.

Over the past 3 months, I lost 2 pounds, yet my belly seems bigger and softer.  I fear I’m losing muscle mass.  I can barely do 5 pushups, and my Planet Fitness membership goes largely unused.

For rainy days, I have to exercise at home.  Stretching.  Planks.  Calisthenics.  More.

One benefit of no TV is I haven’t missed much.  My mother and her caregiver have Fox News on all day, at least until Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy come on.  It’s amazing how many hours of talking head time are spent on trivial political issues.

“A recent poll published in U.S. News and World Report now shows Oprah Winfrey as the clear winner in 2020. Beating President Trump by 13%.”

~ https://assets.stansberryresearch.com/content/reports/americas-next-president/?source=taboola1

Not out of the question.  But Stansberry says it will be someone even more radical.

Most Americans also don't realize that Millennials (who hold nearly 65% of this debt) are now our country's largest generation, outnumbering Boomers.

1581. {The term “public domain” refers to creative materials that are not protected by intellectual property laws such as copyright, trademark, or patent laws. The public owns these works, not an individual author or artist. Anyone can use a public domain work without obtaining permission, but no one can ever own it.|Public domain works are not restricted by copyright and do not require a license or fee to use. Public domain status allows the user unrestricted access and unlimited creativity.}

An important wrinkle to understand about public domain material is that, while each work belongs to the public, collections of public domain works may be protected by copyright. If, for example, someone has collected public domain images in a book or on a website, the collection as a whole may be protectable even though individual images are not. You are free to copy and use individual images but copying and distributing the complete collection may infringe what is known as the “collective works” copyright. Collections of public domain material will be protected if the person who created it has used creativity in the choices and organization of the public domain material.

The content of public domain works becomes available for public use. Anyone is free to use it – but also to reuse it, for instance publish a new edition. Therefore you may find in major ebookstores (Kindle, Nook, Kobo, iBook Store, or Google Play Books) some public domain books that are not free.

There are three main categories of public domain works:

Works that automatically enter the public domain upon creation, because they are not copyrightable:

The dates books enter public domain vary between countries. Some rights depend on registrations with a country-by-country basis, but the most important factor is how many years have to pass after the death of the creator to allow the works into public domain. 

1582. I’m getting tired of being a so called caregiver.  It sucks.  I’d rather take care of critters.  Corbett is taking advantage.  Mom is lazy.  And I get more pissed every day.

A gunman walked into a small Baptist church in rural Texas on Sunday and opened fire, killing at least 25 people and turning a tiny town east of San Antonio into the scene of the country’s most recent mass horror.

- https://www.nytimes.com/2017/11/05/us/church-shooting-texas.html

583. Anger As Motivation

Anger motivates.  Anger at myself.  Anger at the situation I have allowed myself to be put in.  Anger at life in general and the universe in particular.

So where do I find myself.  I have been delegated the task of caregiver for my 90 year old mother.  She has a long term care policy, so I get help, but I am stuck here with her declining mind and physical skills while others stay as far away from her bullshit as possible.

I have done this in the past for an old girlfriend’s mother as a makeshift chaufeur for doctor visits, and for my ex-wife’s grandmother in the last 6 months of her life. For granny, I was there when she passed, and I had to call 911 and the family.  

Those 2 were not so bad.  I was not related to either, and I had no serious duties like feeding them or cleaning them up.

My mother, however, used to have a sharp mind and was always working on projects.  She volunteered at the hospital and kept their history scrapbook.  She has 2 master’s degrees and was active with retired teachers in improving elementary education.

Now she spends all day sitting in what we call the “butter chair”, a recliner she inherited from my brother that is so comfortable it’s like that episode of Friends where Joey and Chandler don’t want to leave their chairs.

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Instead of getting up every hour to do some walking and improving circulation, she has a list of demands in her head for anyone who walks in the room.  She “depends” on pullups and pads instead of using the bathroom.

Why do I get angry?  She won’t do what she can.  No one minds helping with tasks that she can’t do.  She has gotten so lazy she would rather sit on the butter chair throne and give commands.  

Others in the family don’t have to put up with this shit.  I am living there now as a nighttime safety officer.  She has a medical alert button, but on several occasions she fell and could not activate it.

Once, I had been back in my townhouse in South Florida (actually filing for divorce), and the latest hurricane sent me back to Jacksonville to beat the storm.  I had planned to stay a week down there, but the storm was coming and people were going crazy emptying shelves and buying gasoline.

Twelve years ago during Hurricane Wilma, Ft. Lauderdale had not suffered a major hit for at least 50 years.  We pretty much ignored the power of these storms and paid the price.  A half century of trees were shredded and uprooted, and every stoplight in Broward County was out.

We ended up with no electricity for 15 days, FEMA, and MREs from the military.

It’s no wonder people were taking Hurricane Irma seriously.  I had some gas in the car, but I could not find any for sale until Vero Beach.  Searching for gas and taking some back roads slowed the trip considerably.

When I walked into my mother’s house, she was face first in the butter chair  with her body laid out on the floor, back bent.  She has never fallen face first before, and this had happened about 5:00 p.m. after the heath care worker had left for the day.

As she fell, she knocked the medical alert button off of her chest, and her cell phone was behind her in her purse on her walker.  She tried to roll over onto her rear end and failed.  

I finally made my way up the coast and arrived at 6:00 p.m.  I walked in the front door and found her face down in the recliner.  She couldn’t move, and I couldn’t lift her dead weight.  (She actually weighs more than I do.)

A call to 911 brought the paramedics.  It took 3 guys larger than me to extract her from her position and to get her seated.  One of the responders told me that had I not returned when I did, she might not have survived the night.

I guess I can say that Hurricane Irma saved my mother’s life.

But that doesn’t dissolve my anger.  She’s lazy, selfish, and demanding.

This is why I am laying out a 101 day plan to reinvent my life, reverse any negatives like diabetes, grow a full-time income online, and to book by next trip to Southeast Asia.

At heart, and at times when I was younger, I am a perpetual traveler.  It’s seems like the only time you can pull this off is in your 20s or 60s.  And you cannot do the same type of travel.

In your 20s, slow boats and grungy whorehouses might be where you sleep.  You looked for overnight train rides to save a room charge.  Beer was a major food group.  Food was fish heads and rice, or worse.

At 65, I’ve got a bucket list and not so many years left to empty it.  I look to Airbnb for a room free of parasites and other more human diseases.  Angkor Wat instead of bars.

  1. I am unwilling to live with an unhealthy body.
  2. Unwillingness ignites resolve and determination.
  3. Only when you are unwilling to put up with the bullshit do you grab a shovel and start digging.
  4. Lay out your strategy, deal with reality, and take action.
  5. When you’re willing to do what it takes, nothing else matters.
  6. I am wired to win.
  7. Negative experiences spread like a toxic chemical into other areas of our lives.
  8. I got this.
  9. If we look honestly, our problems are minor compared to the rest of the world.
  10. Your current problems are just a bump in the road.
  11. Uncertainty is where new happens.
  12. You’re an addict.
  13. Our aversion to risk is no longer necessary.
  14. When you stick to what’s comfortable, you’re living in the past.
  15. We settle for certainty.
  16. You will never reach your potential if you care what others think.
  17. Embrace the uncertain.
  18. “Change your thoughts, change your life.” - bullshit
  19. What you think and what you do don’t always have to align.
  20. You are not your thoughts.
  21. Focus and lean in.
  22. You don’t have to feel like today is your day, you just have to act like it.
  23. You change your life by doing, not thinking about doing.
  24. Act.  Put aside your thoughts and move.
  25. I am not my thoughts.  I am what I do.
  26. I am relentless.
  27. You can never really prove what’s possible or impossible.
  28. When you have nothing else left, call on relentlessness.
  29. There is no giving up.
  30. There is no quitting.
  31. There is no change of plans.
  32. I expect nothing and I accept everything.
  33. I am responsible for everything that happens in my life.
  34. Stop doing all that shit you know you should not be doing.
  35. Start doing what you know has to be done.
  36. We are all weighed down by expectations.
  37. Hard to uncover hidden expectations.
  38. Don’t expect victory or defeat.  Plan for victory.  Learn from defeat.
  39. Love the life you have, not the one you expected to have.
  40. Stay out of the swamp of mediocrity and drama.
  41. Improve your internal world by taking action in your external world.
  42. Get out of your mind and into your life.
  43. Stop doing what you’re currently doing.
  44. Start taking the actions needed to propel you forward.

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Gary John Bishop

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1584. ChkLines - Personal Daily Actions

My routine is way too detailed, but that is due to my own laziness and procrastination.  You may not need so many minute items.  I list the items that are important and not some others (like making coffee) that I don’t need to remind myself.

These are not to be done on a strict, monk like schedule.  My life varies greatly each day.  However, I’m like an addict.  I have to go all in and accomplish these tasks every day.


1585. ChkLines - Free Email Accounts

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Not all free email accounts are created equal.  Here are some features to consider:

Best:

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