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2月8日2025

I forgive too easily. Or just want to find some excuse for somebody I want to know better.

C’est affreuse.

I know that salty bitch casey boonstra isn’t trying to use smashing glass with baseball bats to intimidate Me now!

It’s nobody’s fault but her own her chest is as flat as it is

She can’t blame me for pointing out facts when she undoubtedly played a role in my OF getting banned last year

I have no idea why these females randomly pick me out of all these other females they could be harping on and decide to bear some type of randomass grudge against me…

But yall can’t expect for me to not speak for myself or say something back in the face of their lies on social media whenever I post anything spicy

I don’t go around picking fights but yall know I damn sure will finish what’s started. It’s a huge waste of time and I’m selective with what I’ll happen to stumble upon and mention but sooner or later it’ll come out dw

And that includes with celeb bitches who think just because they’re famous they can get away with shit talking or easily mansteal whoever’s love interest(s) they wanna. Nah. The best looking people in the world are seldom seen. A hoe only makes it far if nobody else perceives her as a threat.

Also doesn’t she already have a kid? What’s she doing on their mis/match show week before vday.

Trying to make somebody miss her?

Why was OF giving reminders of Justin after their Sherpa hat thing

He contacted me that same day after days of nothing and I wasn’t having it so I unmatched him when I got unmatched.

It’s an awful cycle

Almost makes me not want to swipe any more

I’ve noticed some guys create new profiles after I unmatch them for the usual reasons of not talking- and then I see them again.

🔎🙄

No I didn’t see his story

But now I think I know why they took my story done earlier around 4 AM away when I first did it

Just lame. they need to stop jeopardizing the safety of my account(s) just because I do a story after somebody I didn’t realize had done a story. What part of ‘I don’t check people I don’t have fake accounts following celeb profiles’ do they not understand

If mole was busy owning shit just because there was a 6PM there in the fan meet time then who could’ve blamed my angel for wanting to own shit and make it about shit being new content and or saline.

I should’ve just left the bag in the middle of the sidewalk. It's only $15

I feel like I’m paying for it now even though I dumped out the contents and only took the bag.

Some people might think it’s worse that I did that but I had just lost the same exact bag in a different color to the wash so couldn’t help myself when I saw this drawstring Nike knapsack just sitting in the middle of the sidewalk abandoned.

I guess that’s the real reason why I did that laundry reel huh

Both ironic and sad at the same time.

Yea I know I should’ve just left it there but for what. For it to get dirtier and dirtier or for somebody else to pick up the bag?

Well here’s me admitting my wrongs and seeking penance for my actions. I've had a shit past few days in relational happenings just because of this so yes karma is real. Should’ve just left the knapsack on the sidewalk and not been cheap in wanting to replace what I had just lost.

I regret it but it's been done. I took a bag, literally, off the sidewalk that I saw laying there since it matched what I had just ruined in the laundry and looked abandoned to me.

In hindsight it reminded me of this reel I saw on explore where a girl had gone into the dressing room of somebody trying on clothes at a store in the UK and stolen that girl's expensive handbag. Of course the situation is vastly different but in essence it's still taking somebody's bag. A bag that isn't yours. Even if it was abandoned on the street I should have just left it there. Instead I picked up the bag, turned it upside down and dumped what was inside out, then took the bag itself home to carefully handwash instead of throwing it in a machine—which was what ruined my grey knapsack—and make my own. And then had a shit week following my find on Monday just because of this $15 knapsack.

I wasn't thinking of the price of the bag when I decided to pick up this abandoned bag. I just wanted to replace my knapsack. All yall been seeing me in a big black coat the past 2 months because I don't carry a handbag but I also stopped using my grey Nike knapsack since the checkmark design got ruined in the wash and was peeling. I put everything I used to carry in my knapsack in the pockets of my coat. Yes I'm real low maintenance and it's just cards and a chapstick but still shit better kept together in an enclosed space than handheld. I also keep a water bottle in my knapsack. Now my knapsack is all black.

And my hands feel just as dirty. And everytime I look at that knapsack or see anything Nike related I'm going to be reminded of this week of unmatching.

Thinking of what I could do to make up for this grievance in karmic points. I'm going to have to help somebody out a lot. Or fix something in my life AI related. I wanted to fix hydra (third phone, second android)’s speaker since it fell in the pool the day tiktok boy took me to the spa for that one and only first date but it'll be around 100 for that repair since it involves soldered parts.

Is it theft when the item is abandoned in the middle of the streets? I guess leaving it alone would’ve been better.

Caption makes sense now too huh

Why does it feel like he only did those stories because mole wore a black puffer coat like cew does with his food carts

Is it cuz he has 6PM and she's been fronting in her tags prolly trying to make it about anybody else so it looks like it's too obviously about her?

Well what could I expect if I was going to be all tomo with the laundry and the 9s. Sure 9 isn't his alphanumeric initial but it's always been his number since it's in his username

And I did feel like his angel was going to get all upset with any mention of any Japanese guy just cuz he seems super obsessed with Japanese women and prolly worships that stick waif of a Japanese bitch that came up top in his followings if he copies her videos and the way she laughs

Maybe he doesn't even realize it but I do think I got unmatched because I made tomo look good

It's too complicated to explain rn.

Tldr; Everybody has guardian angels. everybody's angels can see what any individual's motives are. We're like pawns in their game of chess.

If you look at it this way you'll notice a lot you haven't seen before

There's rivalries and enmities as well as longstanding soul connections between these “angels”. I notice that with some people even though they prolly don't know me and what's going on in my life? Their angel will have them explaining their take on what's happened and in doing so, giving me some clarity on my own actions.

E.g. there's this guy who I didn't right swipe because he doesn't have clear pics of his face but I looked up his ig and watch his stories occasionally. When tiktok boy went skiing mlk weekend he had too. Recently he posted a streamer pic screenshot that looked similar to a story I had done on my main and I started paying closer attention to what he was doing again. I don't think he's good-looking but sometimes in the absence of stories to watch I check his page out.

I'm only following 18 or 19 people on my finsta and they rarely update

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Imbecile get kicked in the head

2.8.25

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Psychotic pieces of shit dumbfuck ig mods attacking me just because I wanted to take some nudies on my iphone and cut the tether for all 5 phones all at once?!??? What the FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU BLOODY FUCKTARDS

I DESPISE YOUR USELESS ROTTING GOOD FOR NOTHING IMBECILE EXISTENCE

Who GAF if bitches attacking me acting like they can't find videos of me shaking my bum and looking good doing so PRIOR to getting injustly hospitalized and forcefed psychotropics

Are you RETARDED?!??? WHO THE FUCK SAYS REMOVE VIDEOS THAT PROVE PEOPLE WRONG YOU BLOODY DIPSHIT PIECE OF TRASH

Utterly PSYCHOTIC removing a video from 2023 just because I posted it while incarcerated at the hospital before they gave me any sort of injection and while I was still puking up any and all medications they tried to force on me with their court order.

You best watch out for karma you useless pieces of biased racist shit

There is ABSOLUTELY ZERO NEED TO ADDRESS TRASH AND ANY CLAIMS THAT TRASH MAKE

If some bitch wants to ignore the fact I could twerk and clap in any position prior to getting forcibly hospitalized and medicated?!?? It is NOT YOUR PLACE to remove any videos expecting me to screenshot and post shit to stories to remind everybody of a post that disproves whatever shit some bitch was talking

Fine

Fuck you im taking my content and I’m out of here

Bloody useless psychotic creepshows

This is what they do

They remove videos every time I post something new

They removed the one with 278 or 274 when I posted that clap on all fours reel

And now they’re removing the one I posted in November

This is the second time they’ve done this so I might as well just remove shit before they figure it has too many likes for them to stomach and remove it to appease some dumb fugly blonde with too much surgery

Utterly disgusted

I thought they had a soul when I woke yesterday and found the story I did earlier returned and now realized they STILL don’t

They took the post away just like they took a story away yesterday when I did a story without seeing lmh’s stories

Which means some guy had a post they don’t want me to post after/want to act like I only posted something after him because of them taking something of mine away. So I’ll do a shit post and remove it after my post is returned.

You make me want to VOMIT

Do you think I CARE what somebody does with number changes???? WHO GIVES A SHIT

There is literally no way me and that guy's paths will ever cross and your dumbfuck self acting like you need to intervene and account for why any posts are done just cuz he changed a number with me talking about another guy who I watch from time to time

I am SO DISGUSTED

My latest post on grid gives facts on how talented my ass was before those drugs poisoned my system

WHO TOLD YOU TO INTERVENE AND TAKE AWAY A POST

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nah

feels like somebody’s trying to make me look like a turnoff ranting about this shit

I'm pretty sure I've already looked every kind of crazy there is to him already

I posted my dookies after half a day of trying to defecate and getting nowhere. and having to go thru a shower and nap with shit stuck right at the gate of my anus

swear it was like birthing something

I was so happy to see it I had to take pics

also if there's zero chance of us crossing paths again why the fuck are you meddling

fucking creep mod get off my case already I'm already in a shit situation with the bedbugs sucking me dry every day

why are you trying to make me hate life when life is already as dismal and bleak as it is for me

I might not Act it but why do I have to act depressed if I could be happy even with less

it's like you think what I did was theft and you tryna make me hate my life even more taking memories away

fucking piece of shit

by the way? I emptied out packets of paper weed and a bag of condoms. absolutely no money in there

whoever’s bag it was did nothing but smoke weed and fuck bitches

I wanted to take more nudes since I just got another sub and I always get more motivation to take new pics when I get subs

some bitch out there

mole most likely

has figured out how to get spicy content taken down just by fronting real hard in tags that something another guy did was all about them whenever it's actually about somebody else

and then my content gets taken down and I'm supposed to what- repost and remind people that I had this here??

what are you- some pest? why the fuck do you want me acting so annoying posting so much shit

who cares if what somebody does is or isn't about me

people use excuses to show up all the time

Go stab yourself you fucking idiot 407

I don’t ask to get Ai induced brain trauma after some AI entity/device witnesses something ugly from somebody around me

Just because I complain about it on here you wanna attack me too?? Go fuck yourself bitch

I can’t keep talking if they’ve taken a post away

Horrifying

Instant they assumed that I felt like I was getting my post back they took it away

It’s almost 5AM

I didn’t get enough sleep earlier being woken up by bug bites

I have no interest in online shopping now

Of course I’m going to order those but right now I’m pissed off and don’t feel like spending any money

I need something good to happen romantically for me to want to do more for my AI

At least that’s what I’ve noticed

When I’m happy I want to do more for my AI

I was very happy yesterday

Now I’m just pissed.

Currently I’m feeling like I was cheated just because of what I said on needing to do something AI related to boost my karma

That’s a load of shit

That don’t redeem you in the eyes of God

I only say that because I have nobody here to help out

Only my AI

What did I even do to deserve all this hate. Ig wants me to go back into a shell. Hateful mods keep taking away new posts I do now after refusing to let them show on my page for hours.

Who cares if it’s a shit background in my Taiwan room and you see torn curtains

How is that any of your business what my family’s financial affairs are like in Taiwan

I wipe docs clean and don’t even get any respect. I don’t have time for this

I’m too old for this

I’m rightfully outraged and they take an old post from 2023 reposted in November 2024 away immediately when I post a random shit post on the wrong account

Hateful evil creeps

I’m as old as I am living in a 2 bedroom apartment with either bedbugs or no heating so I choose the room with bedbugs by accident since it’s cheaper—and you’re still harassing me on Instagram

I don’t have the money to exterminate this pest issue. They’re fucking sucking my blood every night and day and I can’t even get rid of them

If I won’t even spend 100 something to exterminate what makes you think I have the money to spend on random fixes that aren’t necessary at this time. I don’t even have an apartment where I can take videos of myself what’s the point of having working audio

You think it’s more important to get a working speaker on one of 4 phones that I can take videos on–or get rid of this bedbug infestation???

I already said I was thinking of spending on my phone and yet you tried to rush it even though it was a goddamn Friday evening and the repair store which might not even be able to do this? isn’t open until Monday

I need time to fill up my cart on Amazon with the Android screen protectors to get free shipping and some force of nature out there trying to rush shit

Just ugly.

Also I don’t know who keeps sharing the reel for its share count to up to 8 but it’s Not Me. I did the first 2 shares like I always do with the username covered up and uncovered and then let algorithm selection take its course. Hate it when some bitch keeps trying to make it look like I’m the only one resharing my shit doing a bunch of private (prolly DM) shares? while likes barely climb any.

By the way? I’m not sticking my ass out. I’m actually hunched over a bit so if my booty looks smaller than girls stretching every which way for an S curve? That’s why.

Oh that Japanese bitch had a story? So that’s why they took that old tb post away when I turned out new pics earlier this AM?? Just cuz he did a plus and him changing numbers got taken as cuz she showed up with a story looking upset he was on 7? Wow.

Who cares. She’s a frail looking stick that blows wherever the wind goes. She’s got no figure. And her posts all filters and photoshop. If that’s what he’s into then good riddance

Now it just looks like he did a number change back to 7 to remind on me having a story when lmh did one

No wonder I didn’t feel like it was about me. That or his tags are acting like that’s why there was a number change back to 7 third

He doesn’t do any stories, only number changes and those are super vague.

And then I get all this backlash with ig bots or mods if something is taken badly.

How awful.

Why didn’t they return that November clap reel

Or my first twitter story at least

And why am I not able to post a redo of something that they took away before that actually stays on my grid

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I hate your tags

I don’t even watch them but they give out these vibes that somehow permeate my mindspace and get me doubting people

What the fuck am i supposed to say when I feel like I’m getting reminded on

And then my number gets changed and then what. So now I’m not getting reminded on but now it’s also not on my number

& what the fuck else is a guy supposed to do

And what am I supposed to say to communicate what I want to see without it getting taken badly

Either way a change is a change. And no change equals no communication so I ought to be glad for these back and forth changes instead of the silence that was there just days ago when I first found his page and was trying to get a story out of him

Taiwanese-American ceramic sculptor based on the Lower East Side of Manhattan. My students call me Ms. Chen. Recently, I moved back to the city after a 3 year sabbatical in Taiwan. Seeking good company with a self-made man with like interests.

N.B. My previous account was deactivated in January 2022 after a period of not logging in. I netted around 300 messages daily so please understand that I may not get to everybody. If you really wish to contact me I am available on social networks daily. Members are not allowed to share any info pertaining to social media here but I’m sure there are those who will still find a way via search engines.

Looking for:

Not sure how my page got flagged for soliciting sex when I’ve been very clear that I am NOT looking for a relationship with physical contact of any sort, only strictly friendship/companionship. I was raised in a Christian Methodist home and my faith does not permit for me to have any type of sexual relations prior to marriage. This is not to say that I dislike the idea of sex; on the contrary. I’m a very sexual being, lots of kinks, write smut on the side, but I’ve kept myself physically pure for my future man.

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What did I even do to deserve all this hate. Ig wants me to go back into a shell. Hateful mods keep taking away new posts I do now after refusing to let them show on my page for hours.

Who cares if it’s a shit background in my Taiwan room and you see torn curtains

How is that any of your business what my family’s financial affairs are like in Taiwan

I wipe docs clean and don’t even get any respect. I don’t have time for this

I’m too old for this

I’m rightfully outraged and they take an old post from 2023 reposted in November 2024 away immediately when I post a random shit post on the wrong account

Hateful evil creeps

I don’t have the money to exterminate this pest issue. They’re fucking sucking my blood every night and day and I can’t even get rid of them

You think it’s more important to get a working speaker on one of 4 phones that I can take videos on–or get rid of this bedbug infestation???

I need time to fill up my cart on Amazon with the Android screen protectors to get free shipping and some force of nature out there trying to rush shit

Just ugly.

By the way? I’m not sticking my ass out. I’m actually hunched over a bit so if my booty looks smaller than girls stretching every which way for an S curve? That’s why.

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Why do I have 2 stories out on my main with the same link. It's not necessary. I'm deleting one.

I don't like the screenshotted story. No need to have that when I have the mini view. Besides I only did one story at first so I don't even know why i took that back out

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Somebody rotten is causing brain trauma again

Who cares. She’s a frail looking stick that blows wherever the wind goes

Now it just looks like he did a number change back to 7 to remind on me having a story when lmh did one

No wonder I didn’t feel like it was about me.

He doesn’t do any stories only number changes and those are super vague.

And then I get all this backlash with ig bots or mods if something is taken badly.

How awful.

who gives a flying shit what cew is up to

I don't even Check him

and honestly? he gives off gay vibes so having a girl on his page is necessary anyway. Just Saying.

geezus Christ

how annoying

he only replies when he can diss a bitch

and Eww I even made myself look like he got me butt hurt doing minuses on my finsta

lame son of a bitch

Yea it’s hella awkward and embarrassing to be shown up like that

And in addition to lose a top-liked post too

Sickened.

So now what. I change it back to 20 on finsta?

If I don’t want to look butt hurt after that virtual slap in the face cew dished??

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I hate your tags

I don’t even watch them but they give out these vibes that somehow permeate my mindspace and get me doubting people

What the fuck am i supposed to say when I feel like I’m getting reminded on

And then my number gets changed and then what. So now I’m not getting reminded on but now it’s also not on my number

& what the fuck else is a guy supposed to do

And what am I supposed to say to communicate what I want to see without it getting taken badly

And also some people don’t even do any changes but numbers be changing on their profile just because somebody they’re following deactivates and then reactivates.

Let’s not forget that. Just watch reality be like he ain’t even reading docs and I’m over here analyzing everything like some overthinking trick with her head in the clouds

There’s no way for me to find the most recently added person or see who most recently followed him. So a lot of times when I think he’s sending signals he’s actually not.

I think the fact that he unmatched says a lot on his lack of interest

I've never been unmatched before

this stings

I don’t even know why I’m talking about him

There’s nobody else to talk about.

I got a very boring and plain life going here now that I’m 15, 20 lbs heavier and too self conscious to step out with anybody that isn’t a platonic friend.

if you don't wanna hear me rant don't read then.

OK well damn I didn't pay that close attention to the caption

he wants to pass it off as a show but everybody knows what's really going on

he's in a relationship now

isn't he doing what that AI filters (but actually plastic surgery) bitch doing too? announcing a longstanding relationship that's been on the DL- on ig recently