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Scared and Confused

Prepared for St. Michael the Archangel Matthews NC,  28105

by Fr. Michael Cawthon 2022


Prelude -

What’s going on?

Exhausted, running in the darkness, panting heavily, totally confused, not knowing where I am.  Finally, I see a few people sitting around a fire.  Excuse me, forgive me. Do you have something to drink,  some water?  Thank you.

This night is scary, and I am afraid.  

Say what?   please Say again,  What’s that?   I am sorry, I can not  hear you.  

What’s wrong with me?  Have you not heard?

The streets are abuzz with rumors spreading like wildfire, and growing by the hour. The people are stirring in the streets and  confusion is everywhere! The Temple Leaders are even stirring around, it is difficult to understand.  I am a man of the “One God.”  The Temple is like my home.  The emotions tonight have scared and exhausted the people  I don't know what to think or to do? Confusion stirs within me, my body and soul.

Our leaders, and their teachings in the Temple have always been true, but now this man named Jesus, who seems so harmless, real and authentic; well some are beginning to say that he is kind of like a new Moses, or even the promised Messiah.  Some believe he has come to reunite our two Kingdoms of our Nation.  He has spoken in the Temple and questioned their teachings.  He even went into The Temple and tried to clear it out of what he said was evil.  Now some speculate that this is the beginning of a “new Exodus” for us.  But I ask from where and from what, and from whom?

Now the latest word on the street is that he gathered tonight his followers, those who are called  Apostles, to celebrate the Passover.  But  as he gave them bread and wine, he broke from tradition and made this Passover different.  He told them this is a New Covenant and spoke as this was now connecting his New Covenant with the Old. He even  spoke of the Bread and Wine of this Passover meal as His Body and His Blood and told them that they must continue to “do this.”  

The twelve did just as Jesus told them, but before they finished the meal, they got up as he led them out, singing hymns, into the chills and darkness of the night to some special place, a place where he had taught and spoken with them in the past.  

We now hear he was betrayed by one of his own followers.  By someone  named Judas, one of his most trusted followers.  He was what they call an Apostle, within his  own circle of friends. Well actually, he became a traitor.  

All of this has caused fear and panic, which seems to be growing.  The authorities  sent soldiers to this place and captured Jesus and they brought him to the authorities of the Temple. They all seem to hate and despise this poor man.  Strangely, some say that the authorities actually fear him.  All of this makes no sense.

Now do you understand my confusion, they have captured him, and they are afraid of him?  Why, he has no army, no weapons.  He only has words and yes he has done some amazing works. So the authorities are afraid of his words, why?  They act as if his words are somehow greater than their God?  Words and kindness is all we have seen and heard from him, so what are they afraid of?  

What makes this even more strange is that just a week ago the city cheered and celebrated as he came into Jerusalem.  And now we hear that they hit  him and spit upon him as they have led him before the authorities.  I have heard that some people have cheered and celebrated this man’s pain.  What is wrong with us?  

Why are we  being so hateful to a fellow Jew who has done no wrong. I am wondering if  God, Peace, and Justice are at war with this cruel World?  I just don’t know.  

Some people say this is the dawn of a new era.  This seems to bef a spiritual battle. How will this this end?  Evil and Sin is everywhere so how is it defeated?  

Has God come to help us?  

I must go now, in case someone followed me.  Please pray to our God, for it seems like the invasion of this one man into our midst is of a power greater than we!


Section 1

The Gospel of St. John: Chapters eighteen and nineteen.

Chapter eighteen, verses one through eight  When Jesus had spoken these words, he went forth with his disciples over the brook Cedron, where was a garden, into which he entered, and his disciples.  

And Judas also, which betrayed him, knew the place: for Jesus often resorted here with his disciples.  

Judas then, having received a band of men and officers from the chief priests and Pharisees, cometh thither also with lanterns, torches and weapons.  

Jesus therefore, knowing all things that should come upon him, went forth, and said unto them, Whom seek ye?  

They answered him, Jesus of Nazareth. Jesus saith unto them, I am he. And Judas also, which betrayed him, stood with them.  

As soon then as he had said unto them, I am he, t

hey went backward, and fell to the ground.

Then he asked again, Whom seek ye? And they said, Jesus of Nazareth.

I have told you that I am he: if therefore ye seek me, let these go their way:

On this ugliest of days; the day we crucified our Lord,

and the innocence of one who is above all, endures hardship, and the death of a hateful and distorted world.  A world in which often the most beautiful can become defaced and abused by an ugly jealous and evil world, a world often angry at the joy and happiness of others, and only seems content within the emotions of their own anger and jealousy.  Let us walk together for the next three hours with our Lord; and see man’s unmerited hatred and anger towards its own creator.

Now as they moved to the mount of Olives, called Gethsemane, they had to cross over a deep and dark ravine called Kedron, northeast of Jerusalem before reaching the Garden.  Is this not often the way of our lives?

Often before we reach the objective of our labor, we must first labor. Often enduring many obstacles which enter into our lives.  This journey of our Lord this night is filled with pain and heavy labor as He endures many obstacles prior to sitting upon His Throne this day – this throne, this day, we will call his Cross.

        Matthew’s Gospel tells us that they had just finished the very first Eucharist, in which Jesus had told them “this is my body” and this is “my blood of the new testament,” and Jesus and his disciples sang a hymn as they proceeded on their way to the garden.  Often in life, we move from a high to low, from having a meal with our Lord to running from and denying him, do we not do this today?  The peace and love of partaking in our Lord during the Eucharist so easily seems to become an explosion of emotions, as soon as someone angers us.  Peace can turn into hostility, within a blink of the eye.  Anger is always close, even if we think it is not.  A triggered happy mind is always ready to fire a shot, and is often just one word away. C.S. Lewis warns us that intense emotions can destroy our faith (even) in what we already know to be true,

             And now, Judas who knew the place, for he was with Jesus often, John
8:1, as they went to the mount of Olives, and Luke tells of the night that they abode in the mount, so he was here previously with Jesus, with “his friend.”  Yes, we as friends often go to a common place to be together, it can be for fellowship with our friends or a common love of an event, so the normal thought of this place of commonality, would be for convenience; hey, let us meet here or let us meet there, for it is a common meeting place, never would it be for a place of betraying one’s friend, yea much less the betraying of one whom you had called “master” in the past, Matt 26:25. 

The pain of this night is just starting in a place where they resorted together, laughed together and praised God together - He and his disciples; friends of whom He would die for.  The love He had for them, the joy they experienced with him would make one believe that this place was a garden of bliss for Jesus and his friends, a place where he taught them and led them, a place where he loved them and corrected them, yes, a place of true friendship.

The lack of moral principle in this cruel abuse of knowledge by Judas was derived from the closest privacies of he and his Master.  So, let's dwell a moment upon the pain, this abuse of knowledge that caused Jesus to suffer.  No, this pain is not all a physical pain which will be great, but also a deep spiritual pain.

The pain of being stabbed in the back is horrindence, but even greater coming from a friend. By word or deed, or by action or inaction, by betrayal or lying; when the innocent, is the victim, viciously assaulted the undeserved misdeeds become difficult to watch as the world and its truth becomes distorted before our very eyes as viciousness has no limit.  

It is as if one decides to cheat on their spouse, and as if this is not bad enough, they decide to do their terrible deeds in a special place, maybe where the person and their spouse had their first date together, so the sin and pain then becomes even worse, as sin itself, is using a prior knowledge viciously.  Now the sin, the ugliness becomes even greater.  To what depth can sin go to become even more sinful?  


Jesus however; knowing that it is in this spot that Judas would expect to find Him, instead of avoiding it, goes Him, as a Lamb to the slaughter.  Sometimes it is difficult to understand why someone, who could avoid pain, submits themselves, knowing in advance, the outcome.  But, love is often that way.  With our children and yes, even with one’s spouse, we often can avoid the pain by avoiding the situation.  And yet, it is the situation that makes the pain necessary.  Although in avoiding the pain, if I do not this, knowledge is not gained (it is almost as if we need consequences in order to teach or learn.  If I avoid this or that, because of the pain it will inflict upon me, then my love for may not be strong, but weak.  It is the sacrifices we make in life that often brings the greatest benefits to us and others.


Jesus says "No man taketh My life from Me, but I lay it down of Myself", John 10:18. We must always remember, we are in control of very little.  We do not know the outcome of this action or that action, for actions bring counter actions and this continues what we call a chain of events, in which the ending is rarely known.  But this is not so with our Lord. God is so great, that it is He, who is in control.  He knew from the day of His becoming Man what his fate would be.  There are no unanswered questions to God and on this day of Him being betrayed, there was never any doubt of the ending.  And as a Christian, we too must have this same certainty, if we will do as our Lord did and say to God “not my will, but thine, be done,” if we truly engrave those words into our heart, soul, and mind, then the outcome for us is as sure as it was for His Son…for He has told us:

John 14:1 Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me.  In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you.  And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also. And whither I go ye know, and the way ye know. Thomas saith unto him, Lord, we know not whither thou goest; and how can we know the way? Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.

So why did Jesus take his disciples to the mount of Olives? Why did he go to this special place of theirs where fond memories were made, some have said, and I believe it so, that they left the upper room when they did because:

First, so as not to cloud the great gift that He had just given them in the Eucharist by sharing His Body and His Blood.  

Secondly, so that Jesus could complete the Passover meal that they had begun.  Jesus actions this night were not by chance, but in fact were all part of this precious gift that is being made just for us, for you and I.  This gift connecting the first Passover and the Eucharist will ever be tarnished.   The Eucharist is forever, it is present and feeds Christians today, just as the Manna from heaven fed the Jewish nation during their 40 year exodus, connecting Jews and Christians for eternity.  

This scene in the garden provided a “little bit of breathing time” between the Supper and the Apprehension.  The beginning scene of Mel Gibson’s movie Passion of the Christ portrays this precious scene in its very first act.  It is as if there is a brief "silence in heaven for just a few moments'' before the Trumpets of war as we read in Revelations 8th chapter, the final war was about to begin between Heaven and Hell.   The invasion of God's Kingdom had come upon the earth.  This moment is described as St. John wrote his Revelation in the 8th Chapter

Rev 8:1 And when he had opened the seventh seal, there was silence in heaven about the space of half an hour.  And I saw the seven angels which stood before God; and to them were given seven trumpets.  And another angel came and stood at the altar, having a golden censer; and there was given unto him much incense, that he should offer it with the prayers of all saints upon the golden altar which was before the throne.  And the smoke of the incense, which came with the prayers of the saints, ascended up before God out of the angel's hand.  And the angel took the censer, and filled it with fire of the altar, and cast it into the earth: and there were voices, and thunderings, and lightnings, and an earthquake.

So, it seems that the coming agony would have been too terrible for the upper room; nor would Jesus want to place a cloud over the delightful actions associated with the Last Passover and the first Lord’s Supper by pouring out the anguish of His soul there. The garden, however, with its amplitude, its shady olives, its endeared associations, would be congenial to His heart as a place of past joys and friendships.  This special place was a specialness for Jesus and His Apostles.  This special stillness would only be broken only by the treading sound of the traitor and his band of soldiers from the Chief Priest.

Section 1:  Meditation thoughts and questions:

1        They moved through deep and dark ravines and ditches.  What ravines are there in my life separating and keeping me finding my God?  What and where are those ditches and how can I traverse them?

2        Doubt can be the work of Satan as it weakens us and makes us question all things and blocks out trust.  As a Christian, how are we to deal with doubt?   How can we build and strengthen our Trust in Christ?  Do we live and learn or live and repeat?

3        Every generation goes through “the crisis of their age.”  As we go through the ravines of our generation and feel a world caving in around us, do we seek calm, meditation time with God?  We must learn not to storm ahead into whatever is laid before us often by others who care for their own interest before ours, and often not based upon truth.  We can walk with God (?) or storm ahead into the traps of this world?  The choice is yours!  How is your Spiritual Life?

Section 2

If I was a gambling man, I would wager that Judas was a very prideful man.  We all have probably known a Judas or two.  What do you think?  Was he Prideful or not?  He seemed so sure which often clouds reality.  He seems so sure that he knew what was best, and just like the prideful man, when things seem not to go their way, their pride throws a fit and becomes very angry.  Anger  always  makes the work of Satan easier.  

Judas seems to convince himself, which is easy to do when angry.  Instead of trusting Jesus he betrayed him. We all have worked ourselves up into a lather over things often don’t seem to be under our control.  Jesus was not doing God’s Will “right”,  the way Judas preferred.  This impatience seems to motivate a “speeding up the process” of returning Israel to its proper position as the Jews desired.  If only Judas would have remembered the words of the great prophets Isaiah and Jerimiah:  

Isaiah 57:13 … he that putteth his trust in me shall possess the land and

Jeremiah 39:18 … For I will surely deliver thee, and thou shalt not fall by the sword, … because thou hast put thy trust in me, saith the LORD.

        Let us return to this dreadful night with Judas as we read in Luke 22, verse 47  

He that was called Judas, one of the Twelve, went before them, and drew near unto Jesus to kiss him.  

This action alone brands Judas with a severe bad deed.  Being part of the sacred circle, Judas obviously had no sense of it.

We have all known or seen people like this.  They appear to be part of this group or that group, or both, while not really being a part fitting in with either.  To feel as part of a group can make one feel better and give confidence; you know, raising one's  esteem by being seen with the group while in reality not being a true member.  Maybe a member by their association to the group, but not a member by their actions and deeds.  Judas seems to be a man that became angry.  Whatever the reason, he allowed himself to become just the opposite of what he confessed.  He had heard the words of Christ, but they were obviously not in his heart or soul.  

              Now let's look at this
band of men with Judas: they were detached by authorities. They were on duty during the Jewish Passover festivities that night to maintain order, thus you can imagine their mood and state of mind.  I would imagine their mood was not very good nor pleasant. To be assigned to controlling the mobs that fled to Jerusalem during the Passover would not have been a job which one sought.  Adding to that level of anxiety, now add the officers from the chief priests and Pharisees, and the captains of the temple along with the Levites; oh, you know this had to be a miserable group of men going out together, although hating one another.

Just picture them in the ditches and darkness of night. The Romans not liking the Jews and the Jews despising the Romans, who both probably hated the Pharisees.  They were all now together, as one, on one mission.  A mission of which, they were simply the foot soldiers and pawns being used to get this one man, called Jesus.  To me, moments like this shows and proves that God does have a sense of humor even in the midst of evil people.

              By all accounts there was a full moon this night, but still they brought
lanterns and torches just in case Jesus had hid somewhere in the dark ravine.  Now they could  expose all hiding-places, having no idea of whom they really were dealing with.  One can only imagine the scene, as the soldiers were probably drinking wine to ease their burden on this miserable mission, having to deal with these Jews would make one do such a thing, drinking and slipping sliding all over the place while verbally abusing one another as they searched for Jesus, you can almost hear their frustration,  murmuring to one another “let’s just get this over with!”

Eventually they arrive to begin their devious plot.  For whatever reason Judas, out of his desire to mock Jesus or maybe he was told to do so in advance, for we now read:  

"Now he that betrayed Him had given them a sign, saying, Whomsoever I shall kiss, that same is He, hold Him fast" ( Matthew 26 verse 48 ).

Now lets see the pride and arrogance of Judas as he instructed the Romans and Jews to “hold Him fast.” Once again, it seems that just doing the filthy deed is not enough, but now we see a type of boasting by Judas; giving instructions and even demanding that they “hold Him fast.” It is a shame, Judas had not “hold fast” to the words of Jesus and trust in Him.  But this showing of power, over those he was leading to capture Jesus, portrays the same condition of instructing demons to do this or do that, of which CS Lewis writes of in The Screwtape letters as “demons instruct demons, we see this same type of works unfolding this night.

The cold-bloodedness of this speech was only exceeded by the deceitful deed itself.

And Judas went before them [ Luke 22verse 47 ], and forthwith he came to Jesus, and said, Hail, Master, and kissed Him ( Matthew 26 verse 49)

And kissed him” ... these words of pure deception should send chills down the spine.  Words of such betrayal exceed our ability to understand the true force of their ugliness when used against one’s God.  Just hearing these words “And kissed him”, these words normally would indicate an affection, a friendship or even love?  And now this distorted world shows its ugly head as it is Satan who is flexing his power through his work to “save us” from the one true God. Hate and pain replaces affection and love.  

To kiss one is to reveal the love of god as we read: In Exodus 4 verses 27 and 28

the LORD said to Aaron, Go into the wilderness to meet Moses. And he went, and met him in the mount of God, and kissed him. 28 And Moses told Aaron all the words of the LORD who had sent him, and all the signs which he had commanded him.

And in Nahum which shows the glory of God, by a mixture of wrath and justice against the wicked, tells us in:

Chapter 1 verse 15 “Look, there on the mountains, the feet of one who brings good news, who proclaims peace! Celebrate your festivals, Judah, and fulfill your vows. No more will the wicked invade you; they will be completely destroyed.  

and now of those feet who brings good tiding we read:

  In the Gospel of Luke, 7th chapter: verse 35:

And he turned to the woman, and said unto Simon, Seest thou this woman? I entered into thine house, thou gavest me no water for my feet: but she hath washed my feet with tears, and wiped them with the hairs of her head.Thou gavest me no kiss: but this woman since the time I came in hath not ceased to kiss my feet. My head with oil thou didst not anoint: but this woman hath anointed my feet with ointment. Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much: … And he said unto her, Thy sins are forgiven.  

These words  reveal and exalts the love of a kiss.  Normally a kiss is sought in love; however my friends, normal was not this night, nor these times.

A moment of pondering:        The arrogance of this horrific deed shows how thoroughly Judas, had by this time, received Satan into his soul.  The Jews call this place, what we call the soul, the Nephesh as “one's own completeness or being” and now this shell of a man (called Judas) is void of all goodness. There is not a good way to explain this, the dialogue between our Lord and His captors.  If he gave the kiss to Jesus before the dialogue, as some think it was, the kiss of Judas was purely gratuitous, meaning nothing. How sad and gut wrenching is this scene as Judus does this to make good his right to the bribe, the money promised.  His treachery shows to  the world a “nephesh” totally void of God.  Sometimes we may say the word love with our lips, but unfortunately our words are betrayed often by our deeds.  Often our own words are sadly “only words filled with emptiness.  

Now let us continue:

Our Lord presented Himself unexpectedly before them, by doing so, he rendered it unnecessary for anyone “to point Him out.”  However a comparison of the narratives seems to show that our Lord's "coming forth" to the band of men followed the actions of Judas.

"And Jesus said unto him, Friend" but this word “friend” was not the endearing term "friend" as found in John 15:5 (but I have called you friends; for all things that I have heard of my Father I have made known unto you,”  but simply used as a "companion" as seen on occasions of rebuke as in Matthew 20:13 “But he answered one of them, and said, Friend, I do thee no wrong: didst not thou agree with me for a penny? and 22nd chapter: verse 12 : And Friend, how camest thou in hither not having a wedding garment?

Judas was speechless when asked "Wherefore art thou come?" and in Matthew 26:50 "Betrayest thou the Son of man with a kiss"; imputing upon the foulest of acts, while pretending to be acting in the tenderest of affection?  This lowest of low, is then made even lower.  It reveals a brutality as when one would smile as he beheads another, expressing satisfaction and even joy while performing the most devious of all acts.  Jesus, over and over, on various occasions was keenly susceptible to such hatred and betrayal throughout his life by friends he loved and foes alike.


      But now our Lord takes control of the situation with  the cowards, with calmness and love for all in Chapter 18:4-9 Jesus knowing all things that should come on this dreadful night.

      He takes
upon himself and went forth: from within any shadows of the moon, that was hovering over the trees that night, and moves before them all, in plain view, indicating His preparedness to finally meet His captors.  Painful to watch as his boldness and total willingness to fulfill his Fathers Will is now observed.  

It is as Jesus is saying, here I am ready to do my duty, how about you, is implied to the guards?  So come, he seems to say, do your dirty deeds as we are wasting precious time for the coming of God’s KIngdom.  Why wait?  Do what you must do, just as I will do the same.

      But after this bravo moment, when we want to yell YES!!!! “you show them Jesus!”  It now, at this moment, appears Jesus shows compassion, love, and concern for his disciples.  Instead of waiting for an eruption of violence; as usual, it is Jesus who shows control with his simple but stern voice … Whom seek ye? 

Jesus simply and lovingly asks’; as if to prevent a rush of the soldiery upon his friends and  disciples.  He is saying No Need to rush us, here I am, the one whom ye seek.  Jesus' tendency, was and is to always protect others.  This showing forth of his might and power over the situation demonstrates his courage and His majesty, which had to overwhelm everyone that was there.  

I can only imagine the soldiers now thinking LOOK AT THIS.  How strange this had to appear to these warriors, these men of war, as Jesus seems as if he could not wait to be taken. This is your desire, well let’s do it he seems to say.  Surely these soldiers had to be shocked.  This was not expected for those who were expecting a fight.  It had to run through their minds, all of this misery this night, for This?  From this filthy Jew, was pure submission; no wonder people had followed him. Some soldier’s may have been shaking at this show of courage for there is one thing soldiers know when they see it, and it is courage, yes even the courage of an enemy brings about a certain kind of respect, you know, warrior to warrior.  We see their respect for this warrior as simply They answered, Jesus of Nazareth.  Just the sort of a blunt straight reply one would expect from military men, men of not words but actions, who were simply acting on their orders to get the job done, quickly and efficiently.

      I am He; now these are the simple and direct words used by Jesus.  Often he used them as beautiful reassuring words as he had done with his disciples; once as they tossed to and fro in a raging sea and heard their master's voice and words of comfort, as He informs them; It is I: be not afraid John 6: verse 20.


But on this terrible night, where normality was not, his mercy seems to flow upon those who were sent to capture him.  Similar words are now used, easing the anxiety of these brutal and harsh soldiers.  “I am He

      And now, Judas. . . stood with them!  Yes, Judas is now standing with them as he is now separated from his fellow Apostles  Later  that night Jesus Apostle’s, would show cowardness of their own by fleeing, thus they, like Judas, would deny him.

Today we say a Sacrament is an “outward and visible sign” of an “inward and spiritual grace.”  The Apostles would seem to fail the outward part as they fled, but inwardly a spiritual grace was strengthened within them, while Judas on the other hand, failed miserably on both the outward and inward part.  

No more is recorded here, but we have found the gap painfully supplied by the other Evangelists.


In John 18 6 we read:

As soon then as he said unto them, I am He, they went backward—recoiled, and fell to the ground

It seems they were struck down by a power which seems similar to that which smote Saul of Tarsus and his companions to the earth in  Acts 26 verses 13 to 15. It seems the glorious brightness, taken to the extreme, dazzles them by the majesty of Christ and His power, seems to have overpowered them.  This, occurring before His surrender, would show His power over His enemies, and so the freedom with which He gave Himself up."  Yes, freely our Lord is submitting himself to all of man’s hatred…freely He gives, even to those who deny him.


in verse 7. Then asked he them again, Whom seek ye?—It is as if Jesus, after displaying his power, is giving the mob a door of escape.  An escape from the guilt of a deed which now they were able in some measure to understand by being thrown to the ground by a force. It seems often when in the presence of God a presence is revealed, and yet we like they do not see often because we are blinded and fail to realize the presence of God in our lives..

Jesus of Nazareth--The stunning effect of His first answer wearing off, they now think only of the necessity of executing their orders.  Soldiers follow orders, and not swayed, even by a God, of which they and we have many.

              Verse 8. I have told you that I am He: if therefore ye seek me, let these go their way-- Wonder and splendor is shown by his self control and a consideration for others, even under these evil circumstances!

Section 2:  Meditation thoughts and questions:

4        Judas, why betray his master?  Many theologians have pondered this question.  Pride can be the most serious sin, blocking out  the light and words of Christ.  Could it have been pride?  How can we fight pridefulness?  Other reasons surely come to mind, not having patience, the work of Satan, reasoning, pure evil, what other reasons?  Politics uses all the above, was it politics?  Is it the answer complex or simple?  You have the choice: do you love Christ or the world (or both as it can depend)?  With Christ or Not.


5        Deception of a Kiss can be used when one is weak, but not this night.  Jesus tells us that He is the Truth, the Way, and the Life…and yet this world will use deception, mainly emotional in nature, to change the meaning of truth, way, and life.  Is there deception in my life?  Do I rationalize my actions to avoid the truth?  Am I truthful with myself and others as I try to walk in the way of The Cross and submit my life to His Will?

6        The soldiers are searching for Jesus of Nazareth so they can capture Him.  Do you seek him?  Why?  What importance is He to you and is His importance reflected in the way that you live your life?

7        Our Lord tells us to pray “Thy Kingdom Come” and so we do.  Sometimes we think that the Kingdom is something that one has to die to enter, disregarding the Heaven that has come among us.  Many of us, like Judas, believe we know better than God, replacing the Holiness of God with the “fun and excitement and easy way” of this world.  As we go through this world of time and trouble, which voice do we follow?  Do we seek His words of “Do this” or the world's words of “do that?”

Section 3

Words of Scripture: continued:

 John 18: 9 to 27 

That the saying might be fulfilled, which he spake, Of them which thou gavest me have I lost none.

Then Simon Peter, having a sword,  drew it, and smote the high priest's servant, and cut off his right ear. The servant's name was Malchus.

Then said Jesus unto Peter, Put up thy sword into the sheath:

the cup which my Father hath given me, shall I not drink it?

Then the band and the captain and officers of the Jews took Jesus and led him to the Authorities.

There are several sources and some early traditions that link John, the son of Zebedee with the Levitical priesthood.  Eucebius quotes Polyycartes of Ephesus as saying such. Thus John was able to gain access while Peter stood at the door without. Then went out that other disciple (John), which was known unto the high priest, and spake unto her that kept the door, and brought in Peter.

And the servants and officers stood there, who had made a fire of coals; for it was cold: and they warmed themselves: and Peter stood with them, and warmed himself.

The high priest then asked Jesus of his disciples, and of his doctrine. John 18 20 Jesus answered him, I spake openly to the world; I ever taught in the synagogue, and in the temple, whither the Jews always resort; and in secret have I said nothing.

Why askest thou me? ask them which heard me, what I have said unto them: behold, they know what I said.

And when he had thus spoken, one of the officers which stood by struck Jesus with the palm of his hand, saying, Answerest thou the high priest so?

Jesus answered him, If I have spoken evil, bear witness of the evil: but if well, why smitest thou me?

Now Annas sent him bound unto Caiaphas the high priest.

Let us now recall his words earlier:

John 16 39

And this is the Father's will which hath sent me, that of all which he hath given me I should lose nothing, but should raise it up again at the last day”

and as well the 17th chapter verse 12 While I was with them in the world, I kept them in thy name: those that thou gavest me I have kept, and none of them is lost, but the son of perdition; that the scripture might be fulfilled.


(The Evangelist St. John's shows here concern for the preservation of the disciples, showing forth  on this occasion as Jesus' concern for the Apostle’s that would be instrumental in moving  forward His Church.  For these are the ones to build upon the foundation that Christ, the chief cornerstone, built and they would do so under the direction of the Holy Ghost which will be sent to them.  The title of Apostle was of extreme importance in the early years of the church as they fought the heresy’s and evils of which this night Judas exemplified.  Now let us continue…

As the confusion and excitement of the moment surfaced, suddenly in verses 10 & 11:

Then Simon Peter, having a sword, drew it, and smote the high priest's servant, and cut off his right ear.  

The moment had arrived, the Apostles and disciples of our Lord, who had left all behind, finally came the time where they felt threatened, obviously as never before, so they striked out.  

Not looking to Jesus for instruction, the Apostle acts out of the pure emotions of fear and anger, Peter now decides to take matters into his own hands (sort of how Judus did, but Peter now draws his own sword.)  How often have we acted out of fear and anger only later to regret our actions? Harm seems to always follow fear and anger as negative feelings usually bring about a counter reaction against this or that situation, thus scripture tells us over and over to “Fear Not.”

To bring the story closer to us and to remind us of our own humanity and goodness, John even tells us the servant’s name is Malchus.  Somehow this knowledge of his name makes this scene even more vivid and alive.  We know that John the Apostle was known by the “high priest” John 18: verse 15 tells us

“And Simon Peter followed Jesus, and so did another disciple: that disciple was known unto the high priest, and went in with Jesus into the palace of the high priest.”


The giving of the name of the victim, who lost his right ear, is not surprising and it gives the mark of truth in this matter.  

Malchus, who lost his ear to Peter, may have been leading the mob sent, thus assuming a physical position in front of his men being foremost of those who advanced to seize Jesus, thus placing himself in the role of a combatant.  As the combat began, we can only assume that the vertical blow from Peter had as its target the very head of Malchus.   Situations in life can change in an instant, without thought or planning, events can take on a life of their own often without any regard to those whom the actions may harm.  These moments seem to occur within their own universe without any concern for anyone else.  Fights occur and lives are lost often for no reason at all or over matters that often are trivial or could be resolved via another path, other than violence.   As if enough was enough:

              Then said Jesus according to Luke 22 51 "Suffer ye thus far" – but to whom was Jesus speaking?  It appears this time our Lord’s love and concern is for his followers and comes to the forefront. He now seems to be speaking to the mob sent for him, to pacify them, that they might not be provoked to fall upon the disciples, whom Jesus had undertaken the preservation of: it is as if he is saying "Pass by this injury; it was without warrant from “me”, and there shall not be another blow struck.'  Although Christ had power to strike them down, to strike them all dead, yet he speaks to them in a fair tone, and, as it were, begs their pardon for an assault made upon them by one of his followers. This is a lesson for us to teach, even to give good words, even to our enemies.

              Put up thy sword into the sheath: the cup which my Father hath given me, shall I not drink it?  This shows both the feelings with which he struggled in his heart during the Agony in the garden and the avoiding of the 4th cup at the dinner.  This alone lends itself, but now add to it the Father's Will perfectly prepares for him to drink.  But why is Chist now using over and over again the analogy of “The Cup?”  The cup was  part of the Passover Meal which they had partaken earlier?”

The Words, Thy Will be done, shows an obligation to carry out the Will of the Father.


Fulfilling a promise, a vow, a covenant shows love and devotion and is not easy, fun, or pleasant.  Jesus knew that His death would be bloody, for it had to be for He had said earlier that night at the institution of the Eucharist in Luke 22: verse 20 earlier that night

This cup is the new testament in my blood, which is shed for you.” 

Jesus knew the Roman practice of crucifixion; it was an extremely cruel form of execution. Both ancient Jews and Gentiles alike regarded it as nothing short of horrific.  

Josephus later would refer to the crucifixion as the most wretched of deaths.  In Deuteronomy we are told that to be hung is a curse of God. “Can any man be found willing to be fastened to the accursed tree, long sticky, already deformed, swelling with ugly stripes upon the shoulders and chest, and drawing the Breath of Life out amid the long drawn-out agony” would be said later by Seneca, in his Epistle to Lucilus.  

John 3;29 speaks of the bridegroom and even Paul Epistle to the Ephesians 5th chapter verses 23 through 32, speaks of Christ as “the head of the church, as the Saviour of the body. that he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of Water by the word, that he might present it to himself and a glorious church, not having spot or wrinkle, or any such thing, but that it should be holy and without blemish. This is a great mystery: but I speak concerning Christ and the church.

Could it be that Paul, because of his Jewish background, saw the passion and death of Christ as the Fulfillment of the God of Israel's eternal plan to wed himself to humankind as an everlasting marital Covenant. Could the bridegroom of John 3: 29 now be turning his own crucifixion into wedding day also as he had said in Mark 2:20 “the days will come when the bridegroom is taken away from them and they will fast in that day.”  Let us now continue...


  The Gospel of Matthew emphasizes:

For all they that take the sword shall perish by the sword" Matthew 26: 52.

Jesus is saying 'Those who take the sword run all the risks of

human warfare; but Mine is a warfare whose weapons are not carnal, thus they attained with no such hazards, but carry a certain victory.'

The sword has its place in history, but here our Lord is saying “not here” and “not now.” This was and is a spiritual warfare of which our Great High Priest had to fight. This matter seems too important for the sword and must be addressed by the Creator Himself.

"Thinkest thou that I cannot now" even after all the things that have proceeded I can "pray to My Father, and He shall presently give Me" even "place at My disposal"--"more than twelve legions of angels"; recall how Luke tells us of an Angel had "appeared to Him from heaven strengthening Him"  Luke 22:43.  


"But how then shall the scripture be fulfilled that thus it must be?" Matthew 26: 54. JESUS could not allow any un-fulfillment of prophecy, should He allow Himself to be delivered from his prophesied death?  

A moment of pondering: Deuteronomy 6:4 Hear, O Israel: The LORD our God is one LORD.  If The Apostle Paul would have understood it as God’s redemptive plan his focus as a Jew probably was:  “The Lord is our God and the Lord is One!  Thus the Shema was seen by some Jews as a combination of Israel  uniqueness of “the Lord is our God”, and as they saw a future unity of Israel and the nations “the Lord is one.”  Thus the first century  Jewish Jesus movement, was convinced that the latter days -  the time of the ingathering of the Nations to the God of Israel “our God” - had already begun.  Thus the question of if the Messiah had come. Paul probably thought so.  Jews and Gentiles together is nothing new and Jesus being the Messiah is the culmination of many Old Testament prophecies.  

"No, this death MUST HAPPEN.  But before if earnestly begins:


And He touched his ear and healed him" Luke 22: 51, have we not heard

"the Son of man came not to destroy men's lives, but to save them" Luke 9:56), and, even while they were destroying and denying His life, he saved theirs.  Healed him, yes, and the early church taught that Malchus was not only healed physically but also spiritually; Quite possibly, he as a first hand witness, became a believer.  

Then the men took Jesus, but not till He implied

no man took His life from Him, but that He laid it down of Himself. 

They took Jesus and led him away, after they had bound him; surely they were confident that their superiors would be pleased, and just maybe, their night would begin to calm down.  So, through the darkness they begin the journey to now deliver their prisoner to Annas – the Father-in-law of Cai’-a-phas..

And led him away--"In that hour, "says Matthew chapter 26: the crowds began to appear and press upon them and "said Jesus to the multitudes, Are ye come out as against a thief, with swords and staves, for to take Me."  He expresses the indignation "I sat daily with you in the temple, and ye laid no hold on Me.” Luke even adds  in 22:53 "but this is your hour, and the power of darkness."  And Matthew continues--"But all this was done that the scriptures of the prophets might be fulfilled. 

When he had thus said these things all the disciples forsook Him and fled" Matthew 26:56, thus fulfilling the prediction that he had made

And Jesus saith unto them, All ye shall be offended because of me this night: for it is written, I will smite the shepherd, and the sheep shall be scattered.”

 in Mark 14:27 and  

Behold, the hour cometh, yea, is now come, that ye shall be scattered, every man to his own, and shall leave me alone: and yet I am not alone, because the Father is with me.” (John 16: verse 32.)  

As is often the case, our Lord speaks to us and yet we do not hear him and even if we do, we often do not understand.  So on this night, the story is told, not with words, but by deeds.  And one should not be surprised, for we learn often by experiences, and on this night, we have no prior experience and all things are new.  

So now let us return to the scripture”


Jesus is first taken to ANNAS John 18:13-27 and then on to Caiaphas. Had we only read the first three Gospels we should have concluded that our Lord was led immediately to Caiaphas.  But since the Sanhedrim would hardly have been brought together at the dead hour of night, as our Lord was in the hands of them sent to apprehend Him, and we are told it was only "as soon as it was day" that the Council met Luke 22 66, so there is some difficulty in knowing what was done with Him during those intervening hours. But in the Fourth Gospel, all this is cleared up as a very important addition is made in John 18 13, 14, and 19-24). Let us take a moment to trace the events in the true order of succession, and in the detail supplied by a comparison of all the four streams of text, the four Gospels.

This Annas, to whom they took him, was an appointed high priest by Quirinus, in A.D. 12, and after holding the office for several years, but was deposed by Valerius Gratius,  Pilate's predecessor in Judea [JOSEPHUS, Antiquities, 18.2.1, &c.]. He appears, however, to have possessed great influence, having obtained the High Priesthood, not only, for his son Eleazar, and his son-in-law Caiaphas, but subsequently for four other sons, under the last of whom, James the brother of our Lord we are told in Antiquities 20.9.1, was put to death. It is thus highly probable that, besides having the title of "high priest" merely as one who had filled the office, retained the powers he had formerly exercised, and came to be regarded practically as a kind of current high priest.

Oh, one more thing: If our Lord had been transferred from the residence of Annas to that of Caiaphas, one is apt to wonder that there is no mention of His being marched from one to the other. But the building, in all likelihood, was one and the same; in which case He would merely have to be taken perhaps across the courtyard, from one chamber to another.

Mark: 53. And they led Jesus away to the high priest: and with him were assembled all the chief priests and the elders and the scribes.  Thus, it was then a full and formal meeting of the Sanhedrim.

Section 3:  Meditation thoughts and questions:

8        Jesus showed concern for his Apostles and seems to have gone the extra mile in trying to protect and preserve their position, as they would be the ones used by the Holy Ghost to build and establish His Church.  What efforts do we make to preserve His Church? Do we participate in the church's life, or do we sit idly by and use it when necessary or required?  How can I do more for His Church?

9        Peter, acting in fear and anger, not under orders from Jesus, attacks the guards and cuts off an ear.  Regardless of the situation, anger can overtake any situation.  Anger is common, do I have this problem?  Jesus tells us: For all they that take the sword shall perish by the sword.  It is obvious that Jesus desires that we take up the Gospel and not the sword.  Do I try to apply the Gospel to situations that often evoke anger?  How can I bring peace to where there is anger within my life?  Is there strife within my family, my office, or within my daily routine.  What are they, how do I handle it?

10        Malchus was in pain until our Lord touched him.  Do we allow the Lord to touch us today?  How?  The Sacraments of the Church are an outward and physical sign of an inward and spiritual grace and instituted by Christ and His Church.  Do I understand the real presence of Jesus Christ within the Eucharist?  Are my confessions heart felt and truly penitential before receiving His Body and Blood in the Holy Eucharist?  Do I use the Sacraments to strengthen my sanctification…do I need an inward and spiritual grace?  Do I understand all that the church offers?

11        As Christ entered this night of darkness, His concern for others.  During times of darkness, we tend to look inwardly at self preservation and turn away from others.  We  lessen our concern for the blessings for which we have, thus we become guided by a spirit foreign to our created nature.  How can our nature at first become once again.

Section 4

Now, we must speak of poor Peter.  A small unimportant point: the first three Evangelists place all Peter's denials of his Lord after this time and we should naturally conclude that they took place while our Lord stood before the Sanhedrim. But, it is normally thought that the scene around the fire took place overnight, the second crowing of the cock would occur about the beginning of the fourth watch, between three and four in the morning. By that time, however, the Council had probably convened. If this is correct, it is fairly certain that only the last of Peter's three denials would take place while our Lord was under trial before the Sanhedrim.


NOW: This is the question that many must face from time to time, as questions of Peter’s loyalty to Jesus.  You can hear the indignation and hatred in the voice even today:


Art thou not also one of this man's disciples?  Implying as well "that the other disciple" John, whom she knew to be one as well, but she did not dare challenge him, perceiving that he was a privileged person – for he was on the inside.

      Peter replied I am not; denying them all who accused him, rightly so, by saying, I know not what thou sayest it says in Matthew 26: 70.  Then, Peter puts forth a point blank denial;

I know not, neither understand I what thou sayest" Mark 14: 68; and


Woman, I know Him not" in Luke 22 57.

So here we hear THE FIRST DENIAL.

"And he went out into the porch hoping he could hide away, and the cock crew Mark 14: 68. The servants and officers, probably some of the group that "took Jesus" stood there, made a fire of coals, for it was a cool night.

It is John in his Gospel who notices the material (charcoal) of which the fire was made forget not Isaiah 6 6. Then flew one of the seraphims unto me, having a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with the tongs from off the altar (is Jesus at both events?)  

But commonly thought the reason for a fire was the coldness of the night." Dark times are often marked by a coldness, if not of the weather, then of the heart.  A coldness of heart caused by sin often can only be overcome by the warmth of Christ.  Bad situations often lose their “badness” as the warmth of Christ shines upon them.  The fear becomes tolerable and the anger seems to lessen day by day.  But for these men, they simply had but a “charcoal fire” to keep them warm.  

"Peter sits to “see the end” and warmed himself at the fire" agreeing with MarK 14: 54. It is interesting how Satan works within our mind. Peter desired to "see the end," of these proceedings, which led him there as it seems to be a battle brewing within Peter, a kind of spiritual warfare in the midst of a world that was within the same battle.  Why not make himself comfortable?

To help visualize the situation:  Mark says "And as Peter was beneath in the palace" Mark 14: 66.  But Matthew Matthew 26:69 says, "sat without in the palace." According to Oriental architecture, and especially in large buildings as here, the street door, the heavy folding gate through which single persons entered by a door was kept by a porter, opened by a "porch" into a quad-rangular court, here called the "palace" or hall, which was open above, and is frequently paved with flagstones. In the center of this court the "fire" would be kindled in a brazier (a pan.)  At the upper end of it, probably, was the chamber in which the trial was held opened to the court and not far from the fire Luke 22:61,

Continuing: verses 19 through 21 it seems as if they were more concerned by his following, than his words.  The high priest asked Jesus of his disciples, and of his doctrine, surely attempting to entrap Him into some statements which might be used against Him at the trial. From our Lord's answer it would seem that "His disciples" were thought to be of some secret society.  So he responds in verse 20. I spake, have spoken openly to the world.  I constantly taught in the synagogues and in the temple, where the Jews always gather in public.  Ye ask, in secret have I said, but I spake nothing.  For there was nothing taught of any different nature.


And now to prove his point of hiding nothing but speaking openly and plainly verse 21 he says Why askest thou me? (why don’t you ask them which have heard me? They know what I have said. As they attempted to draw Him into self-crimination, they resorted upon the right of every accused party, to have some charge laid against Him by competent witnesses. Adding to the drama, as Jesus asks “Why askest thou me” he is struck by the palm of a hand.  As if to place even the Priest servants above Jesus and then screamed “Answerest Thou the high priest so Jesus responds verse 23. If I have spoken evil – then bear witness of the evil, and asks . . . “why smites thou me”

Often it is the simple question that can cause one to stumble and can cause one to reflect.  The smiting of Jesus, was it pure anger or was it to show superiority, reflecting one’s pride in the ability to do so.  It heralds the saying that “might makes right.”


              As our Lord is struck in the face, Peter is denying Jesus again… verse 25 as he continued to stand and warm himself. They said therefore. . . Art thou not also one of his disciples?

And In Matthew 26: 71 the second charge was made by "another maid, when he was gone out into the porch," who "saw him, and said unto them that were there, This [fellow] was also with Jesus of Nazareth." Mark 14:69.

In Luk 22:58 it is said, "After a little while" (from the time of the first denial), "another [man] saw him, and said, Thou art also of them.  He denied it, and said, I am not" He denied with authority this time, I do not know the man."


              In verse 26 one of the servants of the high priest, many believe a relative, to the man whose ear Peter had cut off, saith, Did not I see thee in the garden with him--No doubt the servants relationship to Malchus drew attention to the man who smote him, thus enabling him to identify Peter.


The other Evangelists make his detection to turn upon his dialect.

Luke says "After a while 'about the space of one hour after' 22: 59 came unto him … and said to Peter, Surely thou also art one of them, for thy speech betrayeth thee"

in Matthew 26: 73.  "Thou art a Galilean, and thy speech agreeth thereto"  also in

Mark 14: 70; and Luke 22: 59.

The Galilean dialect had a more Syrian cast than that of Judea. If Peter had held his peace, this peculiarity would not have been observed; probably by joining in the fireside talk he revealed himself.


              Now losing his case Matthew tells us 26: 74 "Then began he to curse and to swear, saying, I know not the man."  

This was THE THIRD DENIAL.  and immediately--"while he yet spake" in Luke 22: 60 the cock crew.  Later Jesus would tell Peter three times: feed my sheep.

Of interest, Mark is the only Evangelist who tells us that our Lord predicted that the cock should crow twice Mark 14: 30, so he only mentions that it did crow twice Mark 14: 72. The other Evangelists, who tell us merely that our Lord predicted that "before the cock should crow he would deny Him thrice" (Matthew 26: 34; Luke 22: 34; John 13: 38.)

The immediate subsequent acts are given in full only in Luke 22:61 and 62: "And the Lord turned and looked upon Peter," from the hall of judgment to the court.  Who can tell of the lightning flashes of  wounded love, that pierced from that "look" through the eye of Peter into his heart! "And Peter remembered the word of the Lord, how He had said unto him, Before the cock crow, thou shalt deny Me thrice. And Peter went out and wept bitterly."

Section4:  Meditation thoughts and questions:

12        Peter’s fall:  Peter's denial was but a brief  obstruction of the heavenly light and love to his Master which ruled his life.  We all know the pain of that “The Look'' as it projects the heart felt pain that can be worse than physical pain.  This pain can motivate us forward.  If you let down your Lord does the pain from doing so motivates you to move forward with him, or somehow does the pain push you away.  Suffering from failing can be a great motivator or can used as an excuse.

13         “I spake openly to the world”  Why do some hear the openly spoken word and others do not?  How can we “hear” and “understand” better and what is the role of Christ’s Church (St. Michael the Archangel) in spreading the word?  How can I help St. Michael’s spread the word of Christ to the world around us?

 14        “Did not I see thee in the garden with him” Peter was asked.  If people follow you today will they see you “with him?”  How can you make Christ more prevalent in your life? Do you wish to be seen “with him” – what would you like people to see in your life that reminds them of Christ?

Section 5

John 18: 28 through 40. JESUS BEFORE PILATE

John 18: 28 - Then led they Jesus from Caiaphas unto the hall of judgment:

              28. Then led they Jesus from Caiaphas to the hall of judgment, the palace of the governor of the Roman province.  The Governor's residence was in Caesarea, but during the holidays, likely time of Jewish insurrection he was usually present in Jerusalem.

John 18:29 - Pilate then went out unto them, and said, What accusation bring ye against this man?  28 Pilate needs to know the charge against this man that they had brought before him.  It is difficult to determine guilt if one knows not what is the charge being investigated.  This shows how uneasy was this relationship as the Governor had to come out, since the Jewish leaders would not go in.  Pilate is asking for what am I to judge?

John 18:30 - They answered and said unto him, If he were not a malefactor, we would not have delivered him up unto thee.  They were conscious they had no case of which Pilate could recognize; and therefore, they insinuated that they had already found Him worthy of death by their own law; but not having the power, under the Roman government, to carry their sentence into execution, they had come merely for his sanction.  The Jews were basically telling Pilate ``trust us” for we have already convicted him and we just need you to authorize our actions. To Pilate, this situation may have seemed to be a battle over who the Shepherd of Israel really was, the Temple leaders or this fellow called Jesus.  So they say, just tell us it is OK and we will leave.  But, Pilate sensing the Jews deception says unto them:

John 18:31 - Take ye him, and judge him according to your law. The Jews therefore said unto him, It is not lawful for us to put any man to death:

This whole scene demonstrates the fear they had of Christ, they were not scared of His words, but the crowd he drew, so the one wants the other to do the dirty deed and each seems unsure of the ground upon which they stood as the bearing of false witness was prevalent as one tried to nudge the other to take the final step. Cowardness ran rampant as Jesus already knew his fate; as John tells us  

John 18:32 - That the saying of Jesus might be fulfilled, which he spake, signifying what death he should die, that is, by crucifixion as we see in John 12:32 “And I, if I be lifted up from the earth, will draw all men unto me.,

and also in Matthew we are read 20:19  And shall deliver him to the Gentiles to mock, and to scourge, and to crucify him: and the third day he shall rise again.;

Crucifixion was the Roman mode of execution that could only be carried into effect by order of the governor. (Of note, the Jewish mode in such cases as this was by stoning).

Jhn 18:33 - Then Pilate entered into the judgment hall again, and called Jesus, and said unto him, Art thou the King of the Jews?

33. Pilate asks a question that many still ask today: Art thou the King of the Jews?  But why would Pilate ask such a question?  In Luke 23: 2 they charge our Lord before Pilate with "perverting the nation, and forbidding to give tribute to Caesar, saying that He Himself is Christ a king." Perhaps this was what occasioned Pilate's question; regardless, Jesus probes the question with his answer:

John 18:34 - Jesus answered him, Sayest thou this thing of thyself, or did others tell it thee of me?  an important question for our Lord's case, he wished to bring out whether the word "King" were meant in a political sense, with which Pilate had a right to know and deal with, or whether Pilate were merely put up to it by His accusers, because they had no claims to charge Him but such as were of a purely religious nature, with which Pilate had nothing to do.  This conflict must have seemed to Pilot be between the Jewish leadership and Jesus.  Pilot wants nothing to do with this struggle as this was for he Jews, of which he was not.

J0hn 18:35 - Pilate answered, Am I a Jew? Thine own nation and the chief priests have delivered thee unto me: what hast thou done?  What hast thou done?  You can almost hear the puzzlement in his words; these are "Jewish questions that I neither understand nor wish to meddle with; but here you stand before me. Thou art here on a charge which, though it seems only Jewish, may yet involve a treasonable matter: Tell me, then, what has brought Thee into this position in which you find yourself, tell me!  We must not feel too bad for Pilate as this question was merely to determine the relevancy of the charge on which he must decide.

John  18:36 - Jesus answered, My kingdom is not of this world: if my kingdom were of this world, then would my servants fight, that I should not be delivered to the Jews: but now is my kingdom not from hence.

These words, let us examine each point by point:

Jesus answered, My kingdom is not of this world, notice He does not say "not over," but "not of this world"--that is, in its origin and nature; therefore "no such kingdom need give thee or thy master the least alarm."

if my kingdom were of this world, then would my servants fight, that I should not be delivered to the Jews; "A very convincing argument; for if His servants did not fight, except for Paul who had acted out of rage, they did not prevent their King from being delivered to His enemies; much less, if of an army, they would had used force for the establishment of His kingdom."

but now--basically, the fact is.

              my kingdom not from hence--Our Lord only says whence His kingdom is not, first simply affirming it, next giving proof of it, then reaffirming it. This was all that Pilate had to deal with. The positive nature of His kingdom He would not force upon anyone who was not able to comprehend. It is worth noting that the "MY," which occurs four times in this one verse, thrice of His kingdom, and once of His servants, is put in a form of emphasis.

John 18:37 - Pilate therefore said unto him, Art thou a king then? Jesus answered, Thou sayest that I am a king. To this end was I born, and for this cause came I into the world, that I should bear witness unto the truth. Every one that is of the truth heareth my voice.

Art thou a king then?--There does not seem to be any sarcasm or disdain in this question, else our Lord's answer would have been different. Putting emphasis upon "thou," his question betrays a mixture of surprise and uneasiness, partly at the possibility of there being, after all, something dangerous under the claim, and partly from a certain awe which our Lord's demeanor probably struck into him.

Thou sayest that I am a king: It is even so.

To this end was I: "have I been."

born and for this cause came I: yes, am I come.

into the world, that I may bear witness to the truth

His birth expresses His manhood; His coming into the world of His existence before assuming humanity: The truth here affirmed, though Pilate would catch little of it, was that His Incarnation was expressly in order to the assumption of Royalty in our nature. Yet, instead of saying, He came to be a King, which is His meaning, He says He came to testify to the truth. Why this?


In such circumstances it required divine courage not to flinch from His royal claims; and our Lord was conscious that He was putting forth that courage.


This one act of our Lord's life, His courageous witness-bearing before the governor, was selected as an encouraging example of the fidelity which Timothy, 1 Timothy 6:13,  ought to display. As the Lord revealed Himself before a most exalted council, so He confessed His royal and kingly dignity in presence of the representative of the highest political authority on earth.

As Jesus bears witness to the Truth:

John 18: 38 - Pilate saith unto him, What is truth? And when he had said this, he went out again unto the Jews, and saith unto them, I find in him no fault at all.

Pilate saith unto him, What is truth?--that is, "Thou stirrest the question of questions, which the thoughtful of every age have asked,

but never man yet answered."

And when he had said this: as if, by putting such a question, even Pilate was getting into  inquiries with no answers, thus this madness demanded prompt action.


he went out again unto the Jews: thus missing a noble opportunity for himself, and giving utterance to that consciousness, of all intellectual and moral certainty, which should have been the feeling of every thoughtful mind.  How often we are hurried to do something, to make this decision or that, to act is often demanded, but in reality time would offer us a better perspective. Truth often takes time to be proven,  but we never seem to have time.

In these hurried situations

"The only certainty," "is that nothing is ever certain.”  

            and Pilate saith unto them: after hearing of our Lord, who had been brought forth by the Jewish leaders:

I find in him no fault, no crime.

This so exasperated "the chief priests and elders" that, afraid of losing their prey who seemed to be their challenger, they poured forth a volley of charges against Him, as appears from Luke 23: 4 & 5 on affirming His innocence, "they were the more fierce, saying, He stirreth up the people, teaching throughout all Jewry, beginning from Galilee to this place."

They now see no hope of getting Pilate's sanction to His death unless they can fasten upon Him a charge of conspiracy against the government; and as Galilee was noted for its turbulence ( Luk3 13: 1 & Act  5: 37 ), and our Lord's ministry lay chiefly there, they artfully introduce this fact to give color to their charge. "And the chief priests accused Him of many things, but He answered nothing ( Mark 15: 3.)

Then said Pilate unto Him, Hearest Thou not how many things they witness against Thee? And He answered him to never a word, insomuch that the governor marveled greatly" (Matthew 27:13, 14.)  In his perplexity, Pilate, hearing of Galilee, thinks to himself of the expediency of sending Him to Herod, in the hope of further shaking off responsibility in the case.

His trip to Herod is discussed in Mark 15:16 and Luke 23:6-12

The return of the prisoner only deepened the perplexity of Pilate, who, "calling together the chief priests, rulers, and people," tells them plainly that not one of their charges against "this man" had been made good, while even Herod, to whose jurisdiction he more naturally belonged, had done nothing to Him:

He "will therefore chastise (punish) and release him."  see Luke 23: 13-16.

John 18: 39  Now, Pilate being sharp on his feet acknowledges an established tradition: But ye have a custom, that I should release unto you one at the passover: will ye therefore that I release unto you the King of the Jews?

Once again stirring their emotions, Pilate seems to enjoy this,  by calling Jesus their King (of the Jews).  Pilate is flashing before them his authority, taunting them, now only seems to strengthen their resolve.  As they:

Jhn 18:40 - Then cried they all again, saying, Not this man, but Barabbas. Now Barabbas was a robber.

Barabbas in Hebrew/Aramaic means Son of the Father (likely he was an insurrectionist).  The leaders, the Pharisees, decisively rejected Jesus who claimed to be the Son the Heavenly Father.  Eventually they asked for and accepted the release of someone whose name itself is connected to sonship.  Yet, the true King of the Pharisees, will die.  

        Give us evil and not God, these are their words demanding of Pilate.

Section 5:  Meditation thoughts and questions

15        Pilate saith unto him, What is truth? "Thou stirrest the question of questions, which the thoughtful of every age have asked, but never man yet answered."  Truth…think about it, what is it? The Church proclaims the truth as things believed by all, everywhere, and in all times.  Is this a good guide?  What would you say is “Truth”?  Jesus says I am the truth.  It is in Truth only that you will find peace.  The Church must remain faithful to the Truth it has received, how important is the Church in your life?

16.         "And the chief priests accused Him of many things, but He answered nothing (Mar 15:3 ).  Jesus remained silent…was this smart?  Could he have changed their minds?  Could he have advanced the truth?  Are there times when being silent is wise?  Do you have trouble remaining silent?  Is this a talent that could help you in life?  Can you find ways of building the courage and character of doing so?

17.         Give us evil and not God: is what the crowd demanded.  How often in our lives do we say or do this?  Having the proper priorities leads to proper decisions being made…How are your priorities?  Is this something that you can gain through emotions and rationalization?  Is it through the Holy Ghost that you can do this, have you prayed for the Holy Spirit to give you the strength to place God Will above yours?

Section 6

The Passion of our Lord is painful and hurts, but let us slow down and review the Gospel of John 19.

John 19: 1 through 19

 Then Pilate therefore took Jesus, and scourged him.  The horrible tragedy witnessed, is that the Word of God himself, humiliated by the Gentile soldiers.  The desire of the Jews manipulated this entire situation as Jews wanted the Gentiles to do their evil deeds..

Pilate desired to appease the blood thirsty crowd, whose emotions had been stirred; so finally given in, to their wants and desires.  Let us look at the members and strength of the Jewish Population, which is believed to be  between six and ten percent of the population.  This minority however, was influential enough to cause significant  problems for the Roman government.  Even the  views of the Jews, varied greatly among the Roman Administrators.

Pilate probably knew that even the torture would not satisfy their hunger for this evil was seeking “the death” of righteousness.  How often have all of us “given in to the wants and desires of others,” although we knew better only to regret the outcome?  Regardless, "And the soldiers led Him away into the palace, and they call the whole band" Mark 15: 16. Sin loves the company sin, thus the whole body of the military stationed there was called to take part in the mocking and the corruptible coronation, which now will be enacted.

And the soldiers platted a crown of thorns, and put it on his head, and they put on him a purple robe, in mockery as it is the color of Royalty, but first Matthew tells us of them "stripping him" in Matthew 27:28 of His outer garments. This robe may have been the "gorgeous" one in which Herod arrayed and sent Him back to Pilate but we know not for sure Luke 23: 11.

Lesson:  The importance of the crown and of the garments. On one level these things are done as acts of personal, and political, mockery.  As well a first century Jew would know that kings were not the only ones who wore crowns in the days of Jesus; for it was customary for the Jewish Bridegroom to wear a crown on his wedding day.  As noted in the Jewish Mishnah & Tosefta, for they both speak of the custom of crowning the bridegroom.

        Saint John speaks of the seamless Garment of Jesus in John 19:23 through 25 and again of the Jewish bridegroom, “think Christ and His Church,” was to be dressed as a priest, see Exodus 28 and Josephus Antiquities 3. 161, and when these are linked with the crown as a King and now with the garment of a Priest we see why we call Jesus, the King and great high Priest.  And so next:

"And they put a reed into His right hand" in mockery of the regal scepter showing imperial power. As a final insult "they bowed the knee before Him" in Matthew 27: 29.  Is it not so human to want to have the last word; like an exclamation mark, so they kneeled with pride as they gave one last parting shot.  

My personal thought: My mind tells me that he had to despise them for all their cruelty, but my faith and understanding of God tells me He probably prayed for, and actually, pitied their pride and actions.

And said, Hail, King of the Jews! as they smote him with their hands, heaped contempt upon him, as they paid homage for an approaching emperor.  

Then “they spit upon Him, and took the reed and smote Him on the head"  we are told in Matthew 27:30.

Pilate therefore went forth again, and saith unto them, Behold, I bring him forth to you, that ye may know that I find no fault in him.  Pilate, knowing there were no good choices left, went forth again, and said: Behold, I am bringing, that is, going to bring him forth to you, that ye may know I find no fault in him. By scourging Him and allowing the soldiers to make sport of abusing Him, I have gone as far as I can to meet your great anger and rage.

Then came Jesus forth, wearing the crown of thorns, and the purple robe. And Pilate saith unto them, Behold the man!  There is no reason to think that contempt was dictated by his words, for there was clearly a struggle within this wretched man called Pilate, for whatever reasons.  These words are said in confusion but to a Christian they say much.  

For we know of the Incarnation of the Lord  showing his divinity, being the son of God, and here, and yes, He is man.  We may add: fully God and fully Man.  So many of the mysterious claims of Jesus that night show the true Majesty of our King.  “Behold the man” those three words have been eagerly appropriated by all Christendom, and enshrined forever, as giving complete admiration for the suffering Lord. Behold the man – indeed!.

When the chief priests therefore and officers saw him, they cried out, saying, Crucify him, crucify him. Pilate saith unto them, Take ye him, and crucify him: for I find no fault in him.  It seems as if just the sight of Jesus kindled their rage afresh.  Their own hatred seems to have gained an advantage as seems to be the case when rage is unleashed: Crucify him, crucify him: says Mark 15:14.


              Pilate says unto them, Take ye him, and crucify him; for I find no fault in him as if this would relieve him of the responsibility of the deed, who, by surrendering Him, incurred it all!  It seems that Pilate then, and we today, often give-in to the pressure of others.  He, and we, seem to lack at times any fortitude of standing for what is right and against what is wrong.  This action is contrary to what our Lord showed forth that night, and is so evident within the world today.

The Jews answered him, We have a law, and by our law he ought to die, because he made himself the Son of God.  Having failed in their criminal charges, they give up at that point as Pilate was throwing the whole responsibility upon them.  They retreat back to their own Jewish law, by which, as claiming equality with God in John 5:18;  He ought to die; insinuating that it was Pilate's duty, as a civil governor, to protect their law from such insult.  Two groups that despise one another, obviously could not even figure out who should do this cowardly deed. The Cowardness of both Pilate and the Jewish leaders, is revealed before the world.  Behold, the cowards!

When Pilate therefore heard that saying, he was the more afraid; Yes the name "SON OF GOD" startled Pilate by the lofty sense attached to it by His Jewish accusers, and by the dialogue he had already held with Jesus, and there was the dream of his wife as we read in Matthew 27:19 when previously Pilate “was set down on the judgment seat, his wife sent unto him, saying, Have thou nothing to do with that just man: for I have suffered many things this day in a dream because of him”’  All these things had to be working together in the mind  of the man whose wretchedness would be revealed by his actions.

And went again into the judgment hall, and saith unto Jesus, Whence art thou? But Jesus gave him no answer.  Pilate was obviously scared and confused and wanted to know beyond all doubt a question relating not to His mission but to His personal origin, but Jesus would give him no answer.  It appears that Lord had had enough, yes by not saying a word He is saying that he had said enough; the time for answering such questions was past; the weak and wavering governor is already at the point of giving way to the mob outside who were full of hate, that they could not see the God they profess, standing amidst them.

Then saith Pilate unto him, Speakest thou not unto me?  The "me" is the emphatic word in the question, as Pilate falls back upon the pride of his office.

He continues almost pleading now for help from Jesus: knowest thou not that I have power to crucify thee, and have power to release thee? One would think Pilate said these words hoping to work upon Jesus for an answer by fear or by hope.  But, by his answer, Jesus answers the questions in Pilate's mind, although he did not realize, he had ears, but did not hear.

Jesus answered, Thou couldest have no power at all against me, except it were given thee from above: therefore he that delivered me unto thee hath the greater sin.  Jesus is rather saying, "shouldst" have no power at all against me--neither to crucify nor to release, nor to do anything whatsoever against Me, except it were, "unless (the power) had been" given thee from above, "Thou thinkest too much of thy power, Pilate: against Me, that power is nil, save what is given thee by special divine appointment for this special end."

Therefore he that delivered me unto thee, the one you call Caiaphas, he only, who  represented the Jewish authorities as a body, hath the greater sin.

Section 6: Meditation, thoughts and questions:

16.  Then Pilate therefore took Jesus, and scourged him.  The crowd, a mob, often pressures others to do things that are contrary to the truth.  Do I give into others too easily?  In giving in to the desire of others, are we open to the sins of the crowd being cast upon us?  Standing for what is true is not always easy…what are some ways of strengthening my ability to stand up for what is true and pure.

17.  “Behold the man”  seems to have been said to move their pity.  When we see others, rich or poor, attractive or not, healthy or sick, regardless of their status, do we see God in them, as part of His creation? How can we become more sensitive to the needs of others? What in my life hardens my heart and what can I do to be more Christ-like in my dealings and feelings of others?

23.  Pilate was scared and wanted to know, beyond all doubt, a question relating not to Jesus’s mission but to His personal origin.  Understanding who God is, the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost, must be the foundation of our faith.  Peace and salvation is nice, but only possible because Jesus is the Son of God; thus God.  How can my understanding of who Christ is be strengthened?  Are my friends walking my journey of faith with me, or are they a hindrance?

Section 7

John 19: 12 And from thenceforth Pilate sought to release him: but the Jews cried out, saying, If thou let this man go, thou art not Caesar's friend: whosoever maketh himself a king speaketh against Caesar.

Now Pilate's confusion grows, especially after their latest conversation, which seems to have put him in awe, and at the same time redoubled his anxiety.  So Pilate sought to release him, but he would love to have the mob's consent,  as he could have done this at once, on his authority.  Often in life we come to a point to go this way or that way, and often we take the easiest way, which Pilate would do here, although he would never admit it but he feared the Jewish mob and wanted to avoid the violence that they could and would bring.

Regardless, the Jews began to cry out, and now seeing Pilate hesitate they sensed their advantage and wanted to gain the advantage as they sensed that they had Pilate on the run.  So they proclaimed aloud:

If thou let this man go, thou art not Caesar's friend,.

"This charge was equivalent to a “threat of impeachment,” which we know was much dreaded by such officers of the courts, especially Pilate. It also consummates the treachery and disgrace of the Jewish rulers, who were willing to push for their advantage, all this for the purpose of killing Jesus.  Their hatred continues to outweigh any desire for justice, for they were completely controlled by their own blindness of any desire to do right and put to death an innocent man all in order to silence him.  They appear to have won this battle and the crowds grow angrier, instead this shows their cowardness and lack of ability to rule the Temple.  They used their own people as pawns in the war between good and evil.  We still see blind allegiance in mob rule,  even to this day.  Anger is always hungry for its prey.

Now moving on to John 19: 13.  When Pilate therefore heard that saying, he brought Jesus forth, and sat down in the judgment seat in a place that is called the Pavement, but in the Hebrew, Gabbatha.

The weak cowardly way is now taken as Pilate, after hearing the fury of the mob, brought Jesus forth, as he sat down. "upon" the judgment seat, which was an elevated podium from which he would pronounce the sentence, in this case against the Prisoner.  Although some pity Pilate as being scared and confused, giving a penalty with which he seems to disagree; but a penalty, he did indeed inflict upon “The Son of God” himself” as he gives in.  And this was done in a place called the Pavement—which had a decorated flooring with mosaics patterns, which was much loved by the Romans.

A Thought to ponder: 

Exodus 25:22 discusses the Tabernacle and its furniture, especially the Ark.   The term "propitiation" is the appeasing of wrath and of being reconciled. Translated from the Greek noun "hilastērion (hil-as-tay'-ree-on:) In the Greek translation of the Old Testament (LXX - The Septuagint), "hilastērion" was used several times in the translation of the lid of the Ark of the Covenant.  In Ark was Manna the bread of heaven, the Commandment tablets and Aaron's rod which   had budded.  Christ Himself tells us in John 6:51 “I am the living bread which came down from heaven: if any man eat of this bread, he shall live forever: and the bread that I will give is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world.”  At each end of the Ark’s Mercy Seat  was one cherub and at the other end, one cherub.   

The mercy seat of the Old Testament and the blood sprinkled upon it by the high priest, was it a prefiguring of Christ?

Christ did come, Christ did make the sacrifice, Christ was raised from the dead.  The tabernacle was real. The ark of the covenant was real. The mercy seat was real. The cross is real. The empty tomb will be . And real women saw real angels at the head and feet of where Jesus had laid.

Is Christ our mercy seat?  

Is it here, at the empty tomb of Christ, that God finally meets us?

It was the preparation, that is the day before the Jewish sabbath.  It was about the sixth hour.  The reading here is most likely "the third hour" or nine A.M. which would agree best with the whole series of events, as well as with the other Evangelists.  And Pilate says to the Jews Behold your King! Having now made up his mind to yield Jesus to them, he seems to take a sort of revenge on them by this irony, which he knew would sting. Behold your King - But his form of revenge now only reawakens the mobs cry to despatch Jesus to his death.

John 19: 15 - But they cried out, Away with him, away with him, crucify him. Pilate saith unto them, Shall I crucify your King? The chief priests answered, We have no king but Caesar.

The chief Priest lied, for their King was obviously the power that they were determined to keep.   Being undermined by this man they sought to kill, so the chief priest instigated the mob, using Pilate's own  position against him, as they shouted take him away and crucify him.  Caesar is now, all of sudden, admired as their leader, their King?  The only justice that would be for this mob would be: "Some of those who thus cried crucify him, would die miserably in their rebellion against Caesar some forty years later.  But on this day the name of Caesar was well suited to their present purpose.

So thus: John 19:16  Then delivered he him therefore unto them to be crucified. And they took Jesus, and led him away.

Thought to ponder:  Pilate, to gratify the Jews' malice, delivers Christ to be crucified.  Willing to content the people, to do enough for them to settle them down that he might keep them quiet, so he released Barabbas unto them: Barabbas who was the scandal and plague of their nation released, and in his place is Jesus delivered to be crucified, He whom was the glory and blessing of their nation is betrayed by His own people, whom he had lead out of Egypt and now to be sacrificed at their hands. Though Pilate had scourged him before, hoping that this would calm them, not desiring to crucify him, yet he went forward to do just that.  He who could persuade himself to chastise one that was innocent in Luke 23:16, now by degrees, persuades himself to crucify him.  Evil often works in degrees until the consummation of a deal with Satan himself.  As it says in Psalm 1 verse 1: evil first walketh with the ungodly, then standeth with sinners, then sitteth in the seat of the scornful.  Let us all pray Psalm 140: Deliver me, O LORD, from the evil man: preserve me from the violent man.

Christ was crucified

A bloody death, blood is the life we are told in Genesis 9: 4, and some say blood connects the soul and body, so that the exhausting of the blood is the exhausting of the life itself. Christ laid down his life for us by the shedding of his blood, and as told in Leviticus 17:11 “For the life of the flesh is in the blood: and I have given it to you upon the altar to make an atonement for your souls: for it is the blood that maketh an atonement for the soul.”

It was a painful death; the pains were great, for death makes its assaults upon the vitals through their exterior parts, which quickens the senses. Christ died, as that he might feel himself die, because he was to be both the priest and the sacrifice; so that he might be active in dying; as he cured  our souls of sin as  he became on the cross the physician of our souls, destroying the disease we call sin. Crucifixion, a most painful punishment: Christ would meet death in its greatest terror, and so to conquer it. In 1 Corinthians 15:55 we read “O death, where is thy sting?” and later “O grave, where is thy victory?”

It was a shameful death, the death of slaves, and the most dangerous of criminals, it was so accounted among the Romans. The cross and the shame are now put together. God having been injured in his honour by the sin of man, it is in his honour that Christ cures man from their destructive disease of sin, not only by denying himself and divesting himself of the honors due his divine nature, and for a time submitting to the greatest reproach that human nature was capable of exhibiting. Yet this was not the worst.

It was a cursed death; thus branded by the Jewish law in Deutoronomy 21:23 “He that is hanged, is accursed of God.”   Upper class citizens by contrast, were put to death by more “respectable” means, such as beheading.

John 19: 17 And he bearing his cross went forth into a place called the place of a skull, which is called in the Hebrew Golgotha:

Jesus bearing his cross went forth Hebrews 13:11-13, "without the camp"; "without the gate." And upon arrival at the place, "they gave Him vinegar to drink mingled with gall wine mingled with myrrh Mark 15:23, and when He had tasted thereof, He would not drink" Matthew 27:34. This drink was to help one not to think or feel, and was given to criminals just before execution, deadening their sense of pain.


        Jesus had vowed “I shall not drink again of this fruit of the vine, and  until that day when they arrived at the place call “the place of the skull.”  Thus Jesus refused the wine while carrying the cross because he did not want to dull the pain of suffering in the midst of his passion. Our Lord would die with every faculty clear, and in full sensibility to all His sufferings. Some of us would add “remember the 4th cup” at the Seder Dinner, and this was not the cup for which he longed. Yes, He would finish that meal started hours before in the upper room with his Apostles.

It would be written years later:


Thou wilt feel all,

That Thou may'st pity all;

And rather would'st, Thou wrestle with strong pain

than overcloud Thy soul in agony,

Or lose one glimpse of Heaven before the time,

O most entire and perfect Sacrifice,

Renewed in every pulse (unto the end)

John 19:18 Where they crucified him, and two other with him, on either side one, and Jesus in the midst.

With malefactors listed in Luke: 23 verse 33, thieves, or robbers, on either side Matthew 27:38 & Mark 15:27 they crucified him.  Jesus in the midst, holding our Lord up as the worst of the three. But in this, as in many other of their doings, "the scripture was fulfilled when it saith in Isaiah 53:12, and he was numbered with the transgressors."  

"Then said Jesus" probably while being nailed to the CROSS," "FATHER, FORGIVE THEM, FOR THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO" Luke 23:34, and again the Scripture was fulfilled which said, "And He made intercession for the transgressors" Isaiah 53:12, which reaches even deeper.

Section 7: Meditation thoughts and questions

24.  They were completely controlled by their blindness to any desire to do right.  Blindness, darkness, can be brought upon those who do not have deep roots of Faith.  Are your roots of faith deep and strong? Is your faith dead because you have ceased growing, is your faith dry?  Does your faith guide your day?  What can you do to strengthen your faith?  Do you attend any services outside of the weekly Eucharist (at least weekly?)  Do you seek Christ by yourself, or do you use the church to grow spiritually; if not, why not? Do you assist in spreading Christ to others?  Do you love the church, if so do you support it?

25.  “they gave Him vinegar to drink mingled with gall (wine mingled with myrrh, Mar 15:23), and when He had tasted thereof, He would not drink" (Mat 27:34). This potion was to “help one not to think or feel.”  Do we need drugs, alcohol, or other substances to ease our pain?  Are we dependent on them?  Is all pain bad?  How can my faith assist in battling pain and depression?  It is important that we follow the directions of our doctors, but we must also know their views of pain and drugs.

26.  Jesus refer’s over and over again to the “Cup” and had promised not drink of til the coming of the KIngdom, thus completing the Passover meal.  By connecting the Cup  of the New Covenant with the cup of the Passover, does this have an impact on your longing for the Holy Eucharist.  Does it help to clarify the fulfillment of the Old Testament prophecies?  

27.  "FATHER, FORGIVE THEM, FOR THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO" (Luk 23:34.)  As Christians, do we know what we are expected to do?  Do we accept as valid the words of scripture or do we take some words and leave others.  Would Bible Study and Sunday school help me to more fully understand scripture, do you participate in these programs – why or why not?  As a Christian, do we have the option of “not knowing what we do?”

Section 8

John 19: 19 - And Pilate wrote a title, and put it on the cross. And the writing was, JESUS OF NAZARETH THE KING OF THE JEWS.

John 19: 20 This title then read many of the Jews: for the place where Jesus was crucified was nigh to the city: and it was written in Hebrew, and Greek, and Latin.

John 19: 21 Then said the chief priests of the Jews to Pilate, Write not, The King of the Jews; but that he said, I am King of the Jews.

John 19:22 - Pilate answered, What I have written, I have written.

written in Hebrew the language of the country.

and Greek--the current language.

and Latin--the official language.

These were the chief languages of the earth, and this secured that all spectators should be able to read it. Stung by this, the Jewish leaders retreat.

But Pilate thought he had yielded quite enough to them; and having intended expressly to spite and insult them by this title, for having got him to act against his own sense of justice, he put an end to debate and refused them.

And thus, amidst the conflicting passions of men, was proclaimed in the chief tongues of mankind, from the Cross itself.  The circumstances threw upon it a light of Truth which will  be owned by all the world!

John 19:23 - Then the soldiers, when they had crucified Jesus, took his garments, and made four parts, to every soldier a part; and also his coat: now the coat was without seam, woven from the top throughout.  

The clothing of a priest (Exodus 28 31 through 32; Leviticus 21: 10;Targum Isaiah 61: 10.)  Without seam, woven from the top throughout "denoting considerable skill and labor as was necessary to produce such a garment.  The work may have of one or more of the women who ministered in such things unto Him, Luk 8:2-3 "

The four who nailed Him to the cross took and parted his garments amongst themselves…and also his coat—which would have been a Roman tunic.

John 19:24 - They said therefore among themselves, Let us not rend it, but cast lots for it, whose it shall be: that the scripture might be fulfilled, which saith, They parted my raiment among them, and for my vesture they did cast lots. These things therefore the soldiers did.

They did cast lots as prophesied in Psa 22: 18. That a prediction so specific, distinguishing one piece of dress from others, and announcing that while those should be parted amongst several, that should be given by lot to one person, that such a prediction should not only be fulfilled to the letter, but by a party of heathen military men without interference from either the friends of the enemies of the Crucified One, is surely worthy to be ranked among the wonders of this scene.

Now come the mockeries, and from four different quarters:-- "And they that passed by reviled Him, wagging their heads" all said to ridicule (Psa 22:7 109:25; compare Jer 18:16 Lam 2:15).  And as an exclamation to their ridicule

"Thou that destroyest the temple, and buildest it in three days, save Thyself and come down from the cross" (Mat 27:39, 40 Mar 15:29, 30).  It is evident that our Lord's saying, or rather this perversion of it (for He claimed not to destroy, but to rebuild the temple destroyed by them) had greatly exasperated the feeling which the priests and Pharisees had contrived to excite against Him. It is referred to as the principal fact s we see now this saying brought out in evidence against Him on the trial (compare Act 6:13, 14). And that now while the fulfilment is being revealed that it is being made more public and more impressive by the insulting proclamation of His enemies.

[WEBSTER and WILKINSON].  "Likewise also the chief priests, mocking Him, with the scribes and elders, said, He saved others, Himself He cannot save" (Mat 27:41, 42).  "If He be the king of Israel, let Him now come down from the cross, and we will believe Him" (Mat 27:42). No, they would not; for those who resisted the evidence from the resurrection of Lazarus, and from His upcoming resurrection was beyond the reach of any amount of merely external evidence. "He trusted in God that He would deliver him; let Him deliver Him now if He will have Him [or 'delight in Him,' compare Psa 18:19 Deu 21:14]; for He said, I am the Son of God" (Mat 27:41-43).

Now we thank you, O ye chief priests, scribes, and elders,

for this triple testimony, unconsciously borne by you, to our Christ!

"And the soldiers also mocked Him, coming to Him and offering Him vinegar, and saying, If thou be the king of the Jews, save Thyself" (Luk 23:36, 37). Their insulting offer to share with Him their own vinegar, or sour wine, the usual drink of Roman soldiers, it being about the time of their midday meal. In the taunt of the soldiers "KING of the Jews", they speak an office and dignity which they did not even comprehend.


"The thieves also, which were crucified with Him also reviled him in the same way.  Scoffs proceed from the passers-by, the ecclesiastics, the soldiery, even from His fellow-sufferers."

Jhn 19:25 - Now there stood by the cross of Jesus his mother, and his mother's sister, Mary the wife of Cleophas, and Mary Magdalene.

Jhn 19:26 - When Jesus therefore saw his mother, and the disciple standing by, whom he loved, he saith unto his mother, Woman, behold thy son!

Jhn 19:27 - Then saith he to the disciple, Behold thy mother! And from that hour that disciple took her unto his own home.

BEHOLD THY MOTHER!--What forgetfulness of self, what filial love,

and to the "mother" and "son" what parting words!

from that hour. . . John took Mary, the mother of Jesus, home; for his father Zebedee and his mother Salome were both alive, and Salome was present Mar 15:40.

"Now from the sixth hour, twelve o'clock  there was darkness over all the land unto the ninth hour" ( Mat 27:45 ). No ordinary eclipse of the sun could have occurred at this time, it being the full moon, but there was darkness as with Moses, compare Exodus 10:21, 22.

Beyond doubt, the divine intention was to invest this darkest, of all tragedies, with a gloom expressive of its divine character.

 "And about the ninth hour Jesus cried, ELI, ELI, LAMA SABACHTHANI.  

My God, My God, why hast Thou forsaken Me?" (Mat 27:46 ).

"FATHER," was the cry in the first prayer which He uttered on the cross, "Father" was the cry of His last prayer in the garden, but it appears that matters had become gloom and worse. But we must remember Isaiah 53:4 as the Suffering Servant is  introduced as one who is "despised and rejected by men." And Psalm 22  begins with “ My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring?  but it ends with the 32 verse which even warns of His Glory saying  “They shall come, and shall declare his righteousness unto a people that shall be born, that he hath done this.”

Was the cross received with a secret joy, for it is the instrument with which he would save the world.

He "who did no sin"  tasted this bitterest of the wages of sin, and even

"Some of them that stood there, when they heard that, said, This man calleth for Elias" (Mat 27:47).

Jhn 19:28 - After this, Jesus knowing that all things were now accomplished, that the scripture might be fulfilled, saith, I thirst.

now accomplished--that is, the moment for the fulfilment and the time was come in consequence of the burning thirst which the fevered state of His body occasioned as we are told in Psalm 22:15  My strength is dried up like a potsherd; and my tongue cleaveth to my jaws; and thou hast brought me into the dust of death.


Jhn 19:29 - Now there was set a vessel full of vinegar: and they filled a spunge with vinegar, and put it upon hyssop, and put it to his mouth.

put it to his mouth--Though a stalk of this plant does not exceed eighteen inches in length, it would suffice, as the feet of crucified persons was not raised high.

"The rest said, Let be"--[that is, as would seem, 'Stop' "let us see whether Elias will come to save Him" (Mat 27:49). This was the last cruelty He was to suffer, but it was one of the most unfeeling. "And when Jesus had cried with a loud voice" (Luk 23:46). Just as even His own dying saints, particularly the martyrs of Jesus, have sometimes had such gleams of coming glory immediately before breathing their last, as to impart to them a strength to utter their feelings which has amazed the by-standers, so this mighty voice of the expiring Redeemer was nothing else but the exultant spirit of the Dying Victor, receiving the fruit of His travail as about to be embraced, and immediately following the words of tranquil surrender, in Luke:

"FATHER, INTO THY HANDS I COMMEND MY SPIRIT!" (Luk 23:46). Yes, the darkness is past, and the true light now shineth. His soul has emerged from its mysterious horrors; "My God" is heard no more, but; "As the Father receives the spirit of Jesus, so Jesus receives those of the faithful" (Act 7:59)  And now comes the expiring mighty shout.

Jhn 19:30 - When Jesus therefore had received the vinegar, he said, It is finished: and he bowed his head, and gave up the ghost.

But, --What is finished? The Law is fulfilled as never before, nor since, in His "obedience unto death, even the death of the cross";

Messianic prophecy is accomplished; Redemption is completed; "He hath finished the transgression, and made reconciliation for iniquity, and brought in everlasting righteousness, and sealed up the vision and prophecy, and anointed a holy of holies";

He has inaugurated the kingdom of God and given birth to a new world.

Jhn 19:31 - The Jews therefore, because it was the preparation, that the bodies should not remain upon the cross on the sabbath day, (for that sabbath day was an high day,) besought Pilate that their legs might be broken, and that they might be taken away.

Jhn 19:32 - Then came the soldiers, and brake the legs of the first, and of the other which was crucified with him.

Jhn 19:33 - But when they came to Jesus, and saw that he was dead already, they brake not his legs:

Jhn 19:34 - But one of the soldiers with a spear pierced his side, and forthwith came there out blood and water.

Jhn 19:35 - And he that saw it bare record, and his record is true: and he knoweth that he saith true, that ye might believe.

Jhn 19:36 - For these things were done, that the scripture should be fulfilled, A bone of him shall not be broken.

Jhn 19:37 - And again another scripture saith, They shall look on him whom they pierced.


Unchecked Copy BoxJhn 19:38 - And after this Joseph of Arimathaea, being a disciple of Jesus, but secretly for fear of the Jews, besought Pilate that he might take away the body of Jesus: and Pilate gave him leave. He came therefore, and took the body of Jesus.

Unchecked Copy BoxUnchecked Copy BoxJhn 19:39 - And there came also Nicodemus, which at the first came to Jesus by night, and brought a mixture of myrrh and aloes, about an hundred pound weight.

Unchecked Copy BoxJhn 19:40 - Then took they the body of Jesus, and wound it in linen clothes with the spices, as the manner of the Jews is to bury.

Unchecked Copy BoxJhn 19:41 - Now in the place where he was crucified there was a garden; and in the garden a new sepulchre, wherein was never man yet laid.

Unchecked Copy BoxJhn 19:42 - There laid they Jesus therefore because of the Jews' preparation day; for the sepulchre was nigh at hand.

Final thought to Ponder:

Am I ready to begin my Exodus away from the cruelty and ugliness of Sin?  Am I ready to walk with my Messiah across the barrenness of this empty life into the eternal Land of the Living.  This hope for a new Exodus is clear in Jeremiah, who more than once speaks of future “days” when people will no longer speak about the first Exodus, when God “brought up the people out of the land of Egypt.” Instead, they will speak about the new Exodus, when God will gather the scattered tribes of Israel “out of all the countries where he had driven them” (Jer. 16:14–16; 23:1–8).   This new Exodus when people will no longer remember the Ark of the Covenant, the most visible sign of the Mosaic covenant and the Exodus from Egypt (Jer. 3:17). This new Exodus is specifically messianic. The future will be inaugurated by the coming of the Messiah, the “Branch” of David (Jer. 16:14–16; 23:1–8); it is a messianic Exodus in which Christ from the Cross invites you to join.  In the future, will you (The Lost Sheep) return to your Shepherd?