Well, this is something I wasn’t planning on doing but with some of the stuff coming out about her and others I feel the desire to talk:

This was not a decision I made lightly, and it is painful to re-open this pain from six months back.

Ellie, u/Every_Music_4172 on Reddit, one of GWA’s mods, and I were good friends for a while. Hell, we even had a bit of a dynamic where I’d call her “mommy”. I had asked anonymously in a mutual server with others I trusted at the time that I wanted to be a good boy in more of a play partner sense as I had never really done anything beyond just calling people “mommy” with their consent. She replied to the anon confession, and said to send her a DM. And we went from there.

TO BE CLEAR:

It never went beyond what I’ve shared. There was no e-sex, no exchanging of naughty photos/videos, this background is important to understand my sadness

I didn’t always agree with her, but I thought she was a good person. However, after the callouts towards Paul Nobody started coming in, I began to feel concerned after seeing her comment her support for Paul on a Reddit post following the callouts.

I decided to ask her about it, with an open mind that maybe there was more to things, even though I personally believed my other friends who were calling Paul out as I wanted to hear if there was more. It quickly became clear to me that she was unconditionally loyal to Paul. I’d prefer not to share every single message due to it involving some really personal stories.  At the time, I didn’t want to use the information to try to take her down or anything, but as things progressed I realized I couldn’t look at her the same.  

She disregarded my friend who was hurting.

She proceeded to mention she had a boyfriend (which I didn’t know about) and how a friend of mine, who happened to have been a victim of Paul’s, ruined her relationship and that she broke up with him on that day.

After talking to my friend, I learned it was likely that the boyfriend didn’t know she was going around essentially being open to playing mommy with me or whatever you wanna call it.  

I know a lot of things are platonic and we weren’t really doing anything other than me calling her “mommy” with her consent, but the idea this boyfriend wasn’t aware she was doing this made me sick to my stomach.

Add in the factor of her unconditional defense of Paul, I couldn’t take it anymore. I blocked her everywhere, I felt horrible because I basically ghosted her, but I couldn’t stomach talking to her after everything. Paul hurt so many of my friends and here was someone I cared about defending the hell out of this guy who hurt so many others I cared about.

I asked about her defense of Paul and how as an example, Doppel’s thread was the first sign of concern but then I heard other concerns from others.

She claimed Doppel was actually the one at fault and I asked why Paul doesn’t share the stuff that would “exonerate” him?

I guess Paul doesn’t share screenshots

But anyways, I told her that some friends were hurting due to Paul’s actions and she was able to correctly guess which one due to happening not long before I messaged her. She went on to essentially blame her for all the issues she’s had with her boyfriend (which I didn’t know she had).  Then she broke up with her boyfriend at the time due to him not defending her enough with the situation.

After all this as well as more stories coming out, I reached out to my other friend who had been wronged by Paul, and we talked about Ellie. Turns out it was likely that the boyfriend at the time was unaware of me calling her “mommy”. That made me sick, I was really stressed.

I blocked Ellie, I couldn’t stomach talking to her ever again. I felt terrible because for all intents and purposes, I basically ghosted her, I felt horrible that I did that given our history. I was so overwhelmed and upset.

I’ve spent the past six months questioning whether I’m a horrible person for the way I handled it. I hated that I basically ghosted her but I just couldn’t talk to her after everything that happened.