2012.doc

2012

A party is a type of space in which you can have a personal connection with someone

while being among a group of people.

Reading a book on a bus is the opposite of a party.

2012

I said you are being a jerk

and then I said it was better than

saying you are a jerk

sorry I was being an asshole

I remember at 15 being like mom you can't just go to the beach like that

look around everyone like waxes now and now I feel like such a jerk

That one was called “it's harder than it looks to not shave your armpits”

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it feels terrible to hate your friends

I'm not allowed to say things like that

you'd be surprised at how many things I can't really say

this is an experiment

does that make it free?

What if instead of movies we just had competitions

to see who could sing “New York, New York” the slowest?

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there's a difference between living

idioms and being in love with you

and you wanted to record these

on this and then not change

them everything is available if this

makes it both easier and I can get.

Doesn't understand that I don't

really care Caroline careful never

really feel like you say whatever

you want to say whatever you

want to say I can't wait to get

everything in order but really I

can't wait

Suck the next best thing was

sliced bread subplot about our

culture that the best thing with

sliced bread says a lot about that

the next best thing to sliced bread

says a lot about our concert

text Jameson texture than funds

will become more important than

food in the future because their

inability to be pretty textures and

cents will become more important

in future because of their inability

to be reproduced easily textures

and fence will become more in the

future because of their inability to

easily reproduce textures

insenssible become more important

senses in the future because of

their inability to be reproduced

easily

2012

Maybe I'll try to fix them first

What does that even mean?

I spend most of the time thinking about what everyone else is

I spend it on the same things I spend money

things that make me guilty

I don't really have any

Maybe somewhere I do but not

where everyone else does

I assume everyone is thinking everyone is thinking

about the same things I'm thinking

about in both senses which is why

I'm thinking most of everyone does not

spend any thinking time on the things

things that make everyone guilty

Maybe somewhere else everyone is thinking

but about money

about why everyone else is

I don't really assume the same things about

I spend what I have in both senses

which thinking is the same

it is: where do I spend me

2012

I wrote that at the beginning of the year and now the year is closer to over than starting and I decided to add in apostrophes that earlier in the year I had decided to take out but when I wrote them there had been apostrophes initially.

Is process stupid? I think that's a good question.

2012

I'll start from the part of the document when I realize that this is going to be everything in the same

document:

Everything should be in the same document.

I changed that capitalization at the same time.

Someone just wrote:

“I just interviewed a man who is 97 years old, lives on his own, has almost total recall, landed on Normandy (along with his brother who is now 92 years old), fought in the Battle of the Bulge, was one of the first to enter a liberated Buchenwald and, most amazingly was married 72! years to his wife who only just passed away last year (at 94 years old). Mind = blown

That time I didn't even care about capitalization.

At that time I didn't.

At this time I do.

This is fun.

2012

I noticed the slope again which shows up later, I don't mean to spoil it for you.

LOL at the false linearity of A DOCUMENT.

I can't keep in touch even when I want to what's up with that?

I can't wait to get everything in order but clearly I can wait.

Everything you've thought of Gertrude Stein's already thought of.

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Who is my last week here next

week is my last week in Los

Angeles completely I definitely

didn't have time I definitely go back

to you ladies to be when I'm

done I definitely don't know what

I'm talking about I definitely feel

like this car in front of me isn't

driving I definitely feel like my

coffee should have a lead I

definitely feel like I talk to figure

something out I definitely don't

feel like talking is the same as

writing definitely don't feel like

going to work right now I definitely

don't really Scenicpark I definitely

didn't get a tampon I definitely

didn't agree with the girls about

what people where I definitely

didn't care that kind of them

wanted to use my coupon I

definitely did.

The morning

I definitely think it's weird to you

later I definitely weird to you later I

definitely don't think it's weird to

think it's weird you I definitely h

aven't gotten a chance to look at

these I definitely wonder what they

say I definitely want to go home

and read them and type that I

definitely want I definitely don't

think what I'm getting weird I

definitely think other people want

to think what I'm doing is weird I

definitely don't know what I want

you definitely don't know what I

want to do I definitely am not

scared of moving to New York I

definitely am scared of moving to

New York I definitely don't know

what my future holds I definitely

don't know I don't definitely now

this is definitely somewhat

dangerous and definitely not

definitely is definitely somewhat

dangerous this is definitely not

what I meant to say this is

definitely I'm driving 75 mph this is

definitely not understanding

exactly what I mean that is

definitely comforting

There used to be something here and I didn't save it, making this about LOSS.

2012

at first I didn't know who it was

out there is anyone out

“waiting for a while

page is loading”

nancy sinatra sang wisely

you only live twice

or so it seems

one life for yourself

and one for your dreams

that was for a movie

or so it seems

2012

I liked that part before

and then I read it out loud

to a group of people

and no one laughed

but a baby started crying instead.

I'm not even joking

there's video

it's on YouTube.

I feel like at some point

someone said that a poem

was supposed to be able

to help work through a problem.

The title is “To get over the irritation I feel when listening to songs that rhyme the same rhyme more than three times in a row, as brought to light by that song that one song you hear on the radio sometimes that goes like 'it starts at my toes and then goes up to my nose wherever it goes the feeling grows'”

I spend all day wondering if anyone else is uncomfortable too

You're useless without a citation. Which one, you ask, but then realize there might not be two

Some girls say I can eat all I want and never get fat and it's true

This whole thing is a lie

Stay for a while

Fuck, why do I hate that song so much?

2012

George Washington waiting for a page to load

Really imagine it.

I don't care that George Washington was an obvious choice.

Imagine how we would act if there were an outbreak of a serious flu.

No one would know what to do.

A Chuckee Cheese drag show, that's what

It seems like back then, before the drag show

all they had to do was dine and change and dine and change

like on a vacation with your boyfriend's family to Puerto Peñasco

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coming to my last few things in

Los Angeles and again I'm driving

down Fairfax to get on the time to

go to the theater for the first time

in a month it's weird I've also

given on the street awful

but it is the street that my mother

but it's strange to have a most Merry Lisa

Tom's car is making some linemen

and then I am not sure why

haven't holding at the Midland this

thing that's wrong with me and I

was wrong with me that will

always be wrong with my

signature yesterday

Thanks again everyone changes

something something something

besides something was

emphasize jealous I just finished

taking the bar exam yesterday

which was a big deal family Citi

Cards out of Yamaguchi, it's really

important one

Just talking like

Not that I can more easily than

Midenchi I shouldn't say things

about more important things right

now but but honestly it personally

and the only thing on my mind I'm not

Okay that makes some sense

because everyone is thinking that

they are the only thing on their

mind it's kind of lying because

they're always on my makes it 09

allied matinee feel bad about it

any idea why was really busy but

that's not really good excuse in his

figure out a gym about you I was a

Jansug people in Los Angeles

people through million years

And I wonder because I was stuck

in Youngstown irony came back in

tomorrow morning get Bay Area

right I don't want to come back

from New York point and cool I

don't like meetings and I like it

but I don't like it always on the play

outside the Wilshire closure is a

big deal also pleasure of that

everybody's live closer closure is

confusing for people like

the lesser closures going to say closer

closer closer closer but that might

Bamat what is my iPhone about

the Wilson closer I can only do

this project in LA Weetabix

I'm thinking about this project

anything about a project that

I needed something about the

Wilseck ledger accounts just me

out as I'm stressed out it Pinecliffs

just me out right in the mail

We're both really friendly and are

really likable and really

understanding and I can get it

But I want and I can get me all the

way in my

Afraid of morning the funny thing

in the thing that I like it how likable

I am eligible for rehire anyone get

in so many faster I'm still driving

on this crap relay with all these

cracking turns out he's got really

changes. Apocalyptic looking area

wondering if someone is never any

changeling got time with me P

ennywayne one Waynecroft

pregnant Sunday time I don't

know I'm talking this neon cross

any uncropped this only the top

third of the cross of Crosscroft

heart and it looks like an upside

down cross that's funny that you

getting into the Sterba to take

back the thing that I just said I

don't wish that I don't wish that

you wish that traffic is really bad

for this time of night I feel Wilsor

closer thing it must be an

apocalypse think because of the

bright lights out that everyone that

in their cars

2012

I feel tons of stress over nothing

when there's nothing specific to do

I can't even get out of bed ask anyone I know

I live with all of them. Not anymore, 2012.

I don't mean to be too serious.

But we do a lot of things we don't mean to lol.

write by rote

I care too much about hearing what other people are saying

This is the right thing to do.

This This This This

Is Is Is Is

The The The The

Right Right Right Right

Thing Thing Thing Thing

to to to to

do do do do

by: Tom Comitta

also to do: wonder if humans will evolve

Buildings, and other designed objects, give us our sense of time

Now that it's months later though, I don't remember in what sense.

In the sense of a redwood?

In the sense of a sundial?

In the sense of their density?

In the sense of their style?

It's one month later now and I think the reason is because decisions were made.

It's about three months later from that and I can't remember what it meant again.

2012

Did it freeze?

Oh no, you're right, the grass is moving in the wind.

Did the movie freeze?

No, this is just the part where she sings “New York New York” really slowly.

About buildings specifically.

Bavarian versus Bovine.

We're always collaborators.

Watching a plant of your own dying.

It's weird to think.

We're all thinking with the same brain.

I hear some hollering somewhere in Lake Merritt.

How could I ever forget this year?

Is it wise to not have a twitter?

I try to be good to my plants but sometimes I worry they'd be better off wild.

Now I have one but I'm scared of it because of Chris.

I literally bounce up and down in this chair when I'm excited.

Is that normal?

The title is: I'll Have to Use Airquotes if I Plan to Ever Read this Out Loud and Apologize For Having Done it: An Example of When to Use of Future Perfect Continuous

“Is that normal?

Is that normal, doctor?

I never use italics.

I especially never use underlines.

I really especially never use them both together.”

This would be a confusing example of how to use underlines and italics.

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i'm getting this year I'm getting

miss this year

It feels really good to be able to

talk to you and you can

understand me I could get myself

into trouble this way

real idea to make jobs consist of a

place where people take

minimum-wage jobs and it's pretty

to just typing out what people are

saying into these things a

2012

Remember to image search spittoon collection.

Remember to ask everyone what are your feelings on double cherries?

Remember to fill out some paperwork.

This is a sacred space

i'm telling someone on facebook chat that this is a sacred space

a Nebraskan

2012

this was deleted earlier and i'm going to try to reconstruct it

I felt like I had to say that in order to be authentic

I don't like these parts though

here goes

something like come to terms with

something like admit to yourself

admit to yourself it's time to get rid of everything grey

grey makes you sweat admit to yourself

there comes a time when you have to admit to yourself grey makes you sweat

there comes a time to get rid of everything grey

none of that was right

2012

this is a sacred space

what does that even mean?

in the classroom in which I am the teacher there is a crucified jesus above one whiteboard

and a print of a statue of liberty above the other

the statue of liberty is slightly bigger than the jesus but they could still be prom dates

I have to admit something which is that not everything has gone into this document

but only when my cell phone is not working.

Now that I live in new york (this is later in time) that is often.

my cell phone has vanished bermuda triangle like

what would fill that gap

if the triangle were to

triangles were very popular in 2012

See also

Lovespoon

Wooden spoon

Daniel Cragin Mill

The lovespoon was given to a young woman by her suitor. It was important for the girl's father to see that the young man was capable of providing for the family and woodworking.

Certain symbols came to have specific meanings: a horseshoe for luck, a cross for faith, bells for marriage, hearts for love, a wheel supporting a loved one and a lock for security, among others.

Since the early history of domestication of the horse, working animals were found to be exposed to many conditions that created breakage or excessive hoof wear.

Further, all modern horse populations retain the ability to revert to a feral state, and all feral horses are of domestic types; that is, they descend from ancestors that escaped from captivity.

A feral organism is one that has changed from being domesticated to being wild or untamed.

The cat returns readily to a feral state if it has not been socialized properly in its young life. (See Feral cats.)

A feral cat is a descendant of a domesticated cat that has returned to the wild.

During the Age of Discovery, ships released rabbits onto islands to provide a future food source for other travelers. They eventually multiplied out of control and cats were introduced to keep their numbers, and that of mice and rats, down.

The Age of Discovery

Since coming to New York I haven't done much.

Just trying to get it normal.

Here is what I wrote in LA all on the freeway

by talking to my cell phone

who transcribed it for me.

We can read them together now.

Then we can decide

about it

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it's a guilty pleasure to be from LA

Salt Lake City right now I want

one driving mothers house later I'll

really what I'm doing decided this

traffic is an interesting see your

little your whole bunch of people

kind of like a party is trying to get

same direction these thoughts are

not you looking at least taking

things look I'm going to do

something productive going to

write a book I'm going to listen to

Lucretius and what am I doing I

left an hour early to make it

two:

are I'm here today I didn't feel like

driving and I'm interested to be

honest I still cannot send me a

couple of croissant please send

the guy said it with medleysk. o

three:

i am on the one with the radio

about 12 people who were killed

later watching that I know that

many of the people on the freeway

and also listening to this radio

seems like the traffic is slow or a

different way the shooter was my

age is also a question that is

possible for me to understand this

in our room at people make

decisions and making decisions

something that shocked me that

on the screen level I think I

planned on seeing this movie with

my brother and with your time and

I I think many people also had

planned country what are we

going to do country to country

what are we going to

four:

talk tonight love you I think it's

important to Gary I Fingalson this

is a mobile Ziron driving 65 I'm on

the way to work running really late

review

six:

came from the doctor

What they're driving to work

toward something that's important

last time I got this time and

thinking it out thanks

2012

The truth is I have a new life

I'm scared of it I'm not scared of it

I'm scared of sounding stupid in my new life

But I was more scared of sounding stupid in my old life

more stupid

back then everybody had a website

this morning I made the coffee and my clothes were all over the kitchen

the sink is in the kitchen

there's no sink in the bathroom

I just had to say it because i'm not faking it here in the document

more stupid

I'm lucky to have had good excuses my whole life

I'll always be able to say well you know I'm just a kid, right?

I'm taking a shit. It's unresearched.

I got rid of all my boring clothes and now I'm embarrassed all the time.

But for the first time I love everything in my refrigerator.

It's not my fault I love cabbage but then whose fault is it?

I wore this sweater to my dad's funeral

no one knows that in new york

2012

dear mom new york rains on tuesdays.

right now space is closer than california

thanks chris now I feel really small

I wear a robe

I ask a question

I drink strong coffee

I wonder what time it is

I notice a slope

I fail to run with it

2012

What's an experiment? What's a page? Why do this? Why that?

Is yes not no? Are you not me? Are you serious?

I'm alone now and so I'm myself and disgusting as I want to be.

I wake up next to you and smell your armpit.

I'm started over I'm here now. I know your type and it scares me.

This is about events and this has been an eventful time.

On the way to Dona's wedding we heard about the hurricane.

The hurricane kept us in California.

We were there when the Giants won the World Series.

That was a thing that happened.

I saw most of of my old friends and everyone was at the house.

New York was a thing that had never happened.

We came back and our subways are all down.

The election's on Tuesday.

Our ballots haven't come in the mail.

I'm using we and our now, that happened.

I'm at the laundromat now, that happened.

Someone said Sarita, that happened.

2012

good little Sarah

Sarita buena, querida mia

fija mia rajalada

I don't know how to spell that

It gives me chills to type

I can't google it

literally I can't

Kelsa calls me Sarita now, after my grandma

It's something they have in common

How good. How good is that?

It was my birthday and now it's not.

A realization at 25: No one is ever going to tell you they can see into your window.

That went by fast. I have some time now to piece together who I was earlier.

Earlier I had an idea now it's gone, that's who I was.

What was it today? UNGH I CAN'T REMEMBER.

Is keeping track important? Do I remember how to read?

I'll do a little of both to test it out.

The year in review: By now I have hairy armpits and hairy legs and one more hairy thing but I forgot what it was oh wait I remember. It was a kind of a test and sometimes I like it and sometimes I'm repulsed. I shaved my arms.

The year in review: When did I do most of my writing? When I was on the subway in my head and forgot before typing it here? Who knows who I am anymore. A rapid prototype. It is very important to not get precious. A new friend said that and I appreciated it and pretended it were true for me but it's not, I get very precious. One name my dad had for me was BGPBD and the P stood for precious.

The year in review: four years ago today I was in Puerto Peñasco with my boyfriend's family. Four years ago in a few days my father died and I bought the black sweater that I wore yesterday. I'm not sure why I bought the sweater. In fact I'm a little mad I bought the sweater. Now a little mad that I could blame myself in that state. I'm not sure why it's important to wear black at a funeral, but at the time I was, and Alana took me to Target.

On the drive home from Puerto Peñasco, I had heard that my father had been put on oxygen. I was in the car with Yotam, his brothers, his little sister, his little sister's two friends and their mom, his step-mom, and his father. The mom of the two friends was a young widow. I was sitting in the back against the window, and I was crying in a way so no one could hear me. Looking back I'm not sure if anyone didn't hear me and I'm not sure why it was important they didn't. Then again, it was a long drive, and at that point I thought he was going to die all of the time.

2012

His little sister is coming to stay with us for a week starting Saturday (it's Thursday).

She's ten now.

I shouldn't hide my hairy armpit.

2012

November it's not it's December.

New York has a lot of new sounds.

My apartment is at a 45 degree tilt and on a truck route.

On the truck route there's a truck that drives by every 25 minutes.

The truck seems to be carrying untethered pots and pans and driving on four different-sized wheels.

This is small, the year is ending, I don't know what to do.

I miss my old friends and now I miss my new friends too.

The internet's been down in my apartment for five days.

Tantie is in the hospital because she fell.

I sometimes think about people's funerals long before they die,

and what they will be like and if I will be able to make it out

and what it would be like if I couldn't.

Do you think about your own funereal sometimes?

There's no point in lying.

Dear Santa,

I sometimes think about people's funerals long before they die, and what they will be like and if I will be able to make it out and what it will be like if I can't.

Dear Santa,

It's almost next year. Did I do the right thing, can you give me a summary?

Dear Queen Elizabeth,

What do you have to do?

Dear Mom,

Hi.

Dear Rocky Balboa,

2008, Jill.

December 29 is a time of shameless nostalgia.

This is a time of shameless nostalgia.

The year in review: Dear Santa, I ate all of your M&Ms and then died of an overdose.

Dear Facebook: I know you know that I have been in this relationship for ten years. Please stop advertising diamond rings at me.

Wait is this my diary?

Then what will I do?

I am happy because I have a lucky life.

I'm not going to say it again.

Reprise

I've untangled this knot more than I've tangled it.

I mean, I've untangled this chain more than I've worn it.

This year was one,

it was a year.

Actually it was a good one,

no one died.