It finally happened. Faded from rippers with no warning. The days are over of gatekeeping the toxic elements/members of Siiva; who stopped using rippers after slithering their way into backroom. However, maybe it’s for the best that the people see what comes next. Now that it’s over, I may as well get this weight off my chest, and come for the necks of clout chasers who ruined the dream.
I was added to backroom extremely early on in the channels prime, and had a very close friendship with Chaze; the creator of the channel (who has gone missing for reasons I’ll get into later) since the channels inception. I loved all my Siiva team members like family, and as a result was demonized for the tough love I proposed for their own good. It gets me somewhat emotional looking back on old messages between myself and chaze; looking at the work I put in behind the scenes and the opinions we shared on the decline of the channel spanning all the way from 2016 to 2019.
When Siivagunner (at the time; Giivasunner) first started in Gangnam Goons; elements of the soundclown community who begged for Triple-Q to notice them were sour at the fact Chaze was on the come-up. I came to his defense saying (paraphrasing of course since I’m not in goons anymore) “You should be happy that one of your boys is making it; through him you might get a chance of making it outside the traditional Triple-Q mashup collab album”. We had a previous history; from when I was a part of Chaze’s Disneycore album, but being a loyalist to his brand from the Siivagunner channel’s inception - to this very day was what caused our friendship to blossom.
We would bash the worst elements of Goons, from players like Albert (the most explicit form of “Q please notice me”), to parodying the cringe PDA of cringe homosexuals (Mello and Darren, who later would turn out to be a part of Blazephlozard’s pedophile ring), to sharing in enjoyment of the frustration the owners of Goons had about the server being progressively more and more centered around the Giivasunner channel.
I soon noticed however that one of the only members of Goons who was actually funny (making rips like “amalgam i hate bernie sanders” “remove kebab sm64 merry go round” etc) - was Le Ruse Bird (who along with Renim G shoehorned me into the scene). I vouched for him to become backroom, along with many other talents from the 2016 era. Once he finally made it to backroom, I started to notice the divide and the struggle for power and political undertones within the Giiva scene. Puzzle Room was where everything changed. I was never a political person (Aside from strong opinons on the heterosexual struggles with modern women, and saying nigger online), but seeing the reaction of edgy deviants from yesterdays shock culture - (who were recently entering social sphere as acceptably SFW individuals) - to Ruse’s rip which played on shock culture, was extremely confusing to me. I never had a serious problem with homosexuals or transfolk until this moment, and actually felt safe/at home around these people seeing their perspective as an effective rejection of the fallen state of modern women. I didn’t understand why Q could get away with “fuck the fans idol anime is cool”, while Ruse couldnt get away with “fuck the fans they’re here from the kotaku article”, but eventually it would all make sense .
I schemed with Blazeplhozard to make a rip that would serve as damage control for the cringe apology following Puzzle Room. Uploading “felix game over” 2 days after the incident against the wishes of Chaze and the rest of backroom was what got me kicked from backroom the first time. This was a part of the events that violently r*dpilled me, and at the time my rhetoric was somewhat inarticulate and still being crafted upon (which, did not help my case). I was still close to Chaze, and we shared our sentiments on our support for Alex Jones and the Trump presidential campaign (remember, Giivasunner through strgg was a part of the Milo Yiannopoulos/Leslie Jones harassment campaign.)
By the time Giivasunner (now Siivagunner) was scheduled to end (September 30 2016), I was a full blown alt-right sympathizer; and was re-added to backroom - as the server was intended to be repurposed and serve as a hangout for the boys after the channel ended. Now we’re entering the dawn of 2017, when the channel was slated to make a comeback with Q’s christmas special, and the election of President Donald J. Trump.
With this newly found awareness of political undertones; I couldn’t help but notice Q’s CCC playing on historical and modern social stigmas. Weeks before the announcement of the CCC, Q had made a mashup for the election of Trump, “Wicked Trumpmann”, equating the President to videogame antagonist Haltmann, which would later be a recurring character in the CCC along with The Voice. Also worth noting, the scene where The Voice holocausted the anime’s in the CCC’s premier. I was confused as to why Chaze (A Trump supporter and Trump voter) would allow Q to let Chaze’s channel be an extension of the Triple-Q brand, although in 2019 seeing Q being the lead position in the channel after Chaze’s own team pushed him out of backroom I can somewhat understand.
When the Trump election happened, the majority of backroom regurgitated status-quo dismay causing Chaze to make a group DM with myself and the handful of Trump supporters on the team where we would talk about the hellscape forming in backroom as the divide became more and more obvious. Eventually this group dm reached the 10 person limit and I made it into a server; known to some as “BackBackroom” (April 2017). Chaze was a part of this server for a brief period until we started criticizing Q’s CCC delays/narratives. The second and last time I was removed from backroom was during the release of the long-awaited CCC ep7; when everyone gave themselves a pat on the back and I responded in tones of “that shit sucked”, citing how Can’s vocal work as the pitchshifted singing Hakura voice made the hair on the back of my neck stand up, speaking of previously mentioned undertones present in earlier episodes, and the coalition of african-americans being the protagonists along with Q’s own self insert smol nozomi. Even during the 2016 lore with Chad Warden (even as a nintoddler I can admit he’s one of the straightest gaming icons of internet history) being sentence mixed to defend Q and Love Live, I took issue with the channel being an extension of Triple-Q’s brand and deviating from the channel’s original flavor.
Though I already lost most motivation to be a creator on the team after puzzleroom, this was when I lost interest completely and somewhat fell out of contact with Chaze. We were still friends and shared ideals, but I still feel a sense of guilt for forcing us to abandon our friendship. I am full of regret for this, and wish that I could have been there for him recently when his own team forced him out of backroom. I sat back most of 2017 and 2018, which is where the channel made a sharp 180 from celebrating Adolf Hitler’s birthday as an idol birthday to having “gay day” and events like the “steven universe fusion collab”. Backbackroom continued to exist as a place where around 20+ backroom members could vent about the cartoonishly gay (both figurative and literal gayness) nature of backroom, until late 2018 when most of the pro-straight backroom members gave up hope completely on the channel, and left backroom. We did everything we could to save backroom and it’s former atmosphere, including ousting Jasper for trying to groom toonlink (who was at the time underage and struggling with uncertainties) with large purchases and claims of “being bi” and “liking him”, to smaller-less significant moves against the people promoting the change of atmosphere. Alas there came a point where there was nothing we could do to prevent the current state of siivagunner; which is why many of the founding members are now nowhere to be found in terms of involvement.
Jumping to 2019 and the reason Chaze is has gone AWOL - Chaze invited his girlfriend (which he met through Siivagunner) to be second in command and call shots regarding backroom management. She proposed a purge of backroom, removing members who did not contribute to actual progress or Chaze’s dream for his channel. Of course, the coalition of men who dreamed of being backroom’s “group girl” or “crown princess of siivagunner” did not take kindly to this, publicizing a hitpiece document on his girlfriend to prove she’s a “shitty person” for having the best interests of her love at heart. Multiple team members came to me about Chaze leaving them and I gave them the details I’ve stated in this document spanning 2016-2019, and a handful of people started to understand that perhaps his girlfriend was not the badguy after all. This all came about somewhat recently (past month or two) and I have reason to believe this is why I was removed from rippers (Not transphobia, not racism, not “toxicity”, but rather seething envy aimed at his gf and the damage I was doing to their carefully constructed narrative)
I have supported a purge of backroom since 2016 after the Puzzle Room incident, advocating for Chaze to remove underaged, impressionable members of backroom, despite the quality of content they create. I wanted nothing but the best for Chaze. He was a great friend to me and I have nothing but love for him (don’t misconstrue this statement; the male-male love I speak of is the kind of love where I’d take a bullet for him, not take a cock for him). I wanted nothing more than to be a brother to him, a loyalist from day zero, but the current body of backroom wants to be a group of his sour sisters, having nothing but seething rage towards Chaze’s personal interests and the woman thwarting their agenda of climbing the social ladder.
(sidenote I’ve retained this view for 3+ years now and think I’m pretty vindicated seeing where we are now)
I have stated earlier, that I had nothing but love for backroom and treated them as family; believe it or not, I don’t want transfolk “dead” as they may strawman. I want the best for them. I want them to have a beautiful life, a wife that won’t ruin their lives, and a beautiful family in a high trust community safe from the kind of people engaging in “code black” sexual deviancy and grooming seen in our community. With that in mind, bear with me as this gets a little more personal.
I’ll start with Q. I don’t actually have any contempt for you despite our political differences and your influence leading to the current state of Siiva. I still remember when we blocked Giiva commenters who were calling you a “tranny loving faggot” for introducing acts like truongasm and rosalinasama into the scene. I understand our differences and you understand my perspective (mostly in retrospect, for you. however hindsight is 20/20). Don’t really have anything else to say to you other than the fact that maybe you should discourage other members from dickriding you to the extent they have been for 3-4 years. Go in on them like you went in on albert.
MtH, I thought you’d be the great white hope of the channel when I saw you commit a real life hatecrime for a rip scheduled for Hitler Day. Guess I was wrong :/. Our differences socio-politically and the way you put your loyalty in Q over your loyalty to Chaze is where the line is drawn. Even trans members of backroom take issue with your fetishistic motives behind “making people trans”, projecting traditional feminine ideals (ideals modern women have abandoned for decades) onto yourself and others. When a Goddamn fatfur is taking issue with you for being overtly fetishistic about your assumed identity; it should be apparent that there’s a clear problem with your behavior. I also don’t appreciate the influence you’ve had on Can of Nothing. He was a good boy until you took him under your wing. Chaze told me in late 2016 about the erotic roleplays you had with Can in the context “its mello and darren all over again, what the fuck is wrong with the internet?”. My hopes are that one day you’ll both snap out of it when you see someone even more extreme and more unappealing than yourselves, but at this rate it may be a while. Regardless, I’m sorry that Chaze’s gf took the crown from you as the crown princess of siivagunner.
Hinchy, I don’t like you any more than you like me. I see you as a prime example of the worst kind of clout chaser. However, that doesn’t mean I don’t still worry about your mental health. It’s a tragedy that you’re surrounded by people who enable you to present the way you do. I don’t want any transfolk in backroom 40%ing, but at this rate, not much can be done to help you. I remember our first interaction in 2016 when you commented on an email submitted rip of yours begging for credit. And I remember in 2017 when you tried to cozy up with the far-right sympathetic atmosphere of backroom and begged us for acceptance. Now the script has flipped and you say “TUWieZ has made so many rippers leave and that bothers me, I couldn’t imagine putting up with that if I were a ripper but at least I have backroom!”. You have a bronze set of balls for talking about the overly sensitive rippers that I made leave, when you were one of the main actors in humiliating and chasing off the owner of Siivagunner with the hitpiece on his girlfriend. You have the clout you desired from the start as one of the only backroom members actually managing the channel. You did it bro. You’re siivagunner now. What’s next? Mutilating your reproductive organs in non-passing Laura Kate Dale style for a drop of respect in clownworld? You could turn around now and get respect from actual people with actual personalities, but the idea of that seems bleak. You’ve dug a deep hole for yourself but I’ll be here for you if the day ever comes.
(2016)
(2017)
(2019) (gee hinchy i wonder if you would have put up with the atmosphere we created from ‘16-’17 hmm)
Shonic, you probably have nothing to do with the current events regarding Chaze’s leave, but I wish we could have been friends. We share the same history with the same egirls that had the same effect on both of our hairlines. Even when you brag about being in the GNAA (founded by weev, one of the dailystormer’s publishers) I feel our commonalities. I’m sorry I went in on you in ventstones last year when I heard about you talking about our past in regards to going for the same egirl, but I needed to set the record straight. My issue with you, and the issue many other backroom members had with you is how you side with whoever has the most clout in times of disputes. You have a very lunar personality and engage in extreme duplicity to obtain power. My solar archetype of being honest for everyone's own good even when it’s not in my own interest, is in direct conflict with yours. You’re the Vergil to my Dante bro. And you’re running downstream with a sword aimed at my hairline while I’m running upstream with mine aimed at yours. It never had to be like this, but I can’t cry over spilled milk now.
Twonko, I’m not sure what to say to you. You’re probably one of the main reasons I was removed from the team. We had a brief period where we were friends when I showed you all the predatory behavior of siivagunner backroom; and in a feminine stroke you recanted our friendship and pretended not to remember anything out of fear. I have the receipts. I don’t know much about you besides complaints leveled regarding your behavior from the now-defunct backbackroom; but still I wish nothing but the best for you, even though you’re a fetishistic fatfur freak who wants to take the pinkpill while complaining about MtH’s trans-fetishism. I don’t appreciate that you were also one of the main perps in the writing of the hitpiece on Chaze’s gf, your jealousy is as apparent as MtH and Hinchy’s and you need to work on it as well. You were also one of the main actors in diluting the atmosphere of backroom into what it is now, and your ideas are what caused the majority of siivagunner veterans to give up hope on the dream.
Sylvspirit, Fuck you for catfishing your way into backroom. I don’t know how you’re still on the team when you’ve openly come out in support of NOMAPs (Non offending minor attracted persons) and catfished/groomed members of the siivagunner fandom. It’s mindblowing to me that a person like you, (though an inactive sleepercell) gets the privilege to be a representative of the team, while good intentioned boys who maintained this channel in it’s prime have all but been forced out. I suppose this is the true nature of current day backroom. Thank you Le Ruse bird for saving me from being catfished by this monster back in 2016, love you bro. (Oh yeah almost forgot to mention Sylv being on the jasper wave of making moves on toonlink while he was underage)
(sidenote i was vindicated on the group girl question too hehe)
Niko, you’re not really important to any of this. However, your ethnic hatred for me and my interests (being an ethnic jew smearing me as a nazi, emotionally barking up the tree to backroom about how much you want me bombed like dresden) is what provoked my forced leave. So I thank you for giving me the opportunity to get this out there. Love thy enemy.
And Chaze. If you’re somehow reading this, I’m sorry. I wish we could go back. To those days. To the old days. And be free again. Free from everything. The way we were then. I owe you everything, for giving my life some purpose by making me a part of the most successful operation I’ve ever been a part of. I know you defended me from getting kicked in 2018 when I stirred up the drama with shonic in ventstones.
I know if you were here now you’d still be defending me from these monsters. I’m so sorry that I couldn't have been there for you. I didn’t think you’d let things get this bad. I still love you man. Unironically. You’ll always be my brother, regardless of how you feel now about our current distance. Whether or not you choose to distance yourself from a cancelled man like myself to save your chances at a good life. I’ve always wanted the best for you. Since the beginning, until the end. I’m sorry that you had to deal with all of this. Even though my NDA is now void I still won’t put this out there because I don’t want you to suffer my same fate of demonization. I’m sorry they’re putting you through this, and I wish I could have been there for you during this. Thank you for everything, Chaze. I wish you the best.
And to all the rippers who will see the hellscape that’s yet to come without me there to gatekeep; you know where to find me. TUWieZ#2043. I got your backs. We’re a family.
With love;
-TUWieZ
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/156547643638546432/621555065487884288/dear_chaze.mp4