Firstly, I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I’ve conducted myself in such an immature and unprofessional way for the entirety of my YouTube career, making it increasingly more difficult to be a fan of mine. I sincerely apologize for that.

However, a lot of what’s been said about me online is just blatantly untrue. And a lot of what I’ve said has been purposely and maliciously misinterpreted.  Today I’m going to go over everything I’ve been attacked for, and explain it to the best of my abilities.

The Initial Discord Screenshots

This all started when a few screenshots of a private Discord server I was in were leaked. I’ll attach them here.

Firstly, although this won’t satisfy most people, I’d like to clarify that these statements were just jokes. They’re inappropriate jokes, yes, but they are just bad jokes.

The reason I made these jokes is because I had already garnered an undeserved reputation for being an “incest-fetishizor”, simply because I had spoken about how I liked the video game The Coffin of Andy and Leyley. People said that I fetishized incest by liking that game, and because of how ridiculous that was, I made some jokes in private about it.

Again, I know this doesn’t satisfy everyone, but these were honestly just shitty jokes.

My Initial Response(s)

Now I’d like to go over my response to the situation, how that made things worse, and why I responded the way I did.

I can’t find any screenshots, but my first response was simply replying to the people calling me out with cringy careless comments like “I’m just a silly goober,” essentially saying that I don’t care about the situation. I also made a short video saying the same. I apologize for this. I didn’t take the situation seriously at first because I simply didn’t realize how seriously other people were taking it. I thought it was fairly obvious that those Discord screenshots were meant in a joking matter, so seeing people acting angry about it was just kind of funny to me. It wasn’t until after a little time had passed, I realized the situation was being taken very seriously.

This is when I did a livestream discussing the situation and going over the accusations. And truth be told, I’m still unsure what I did wrong here. People tell me the response was bad and disingenuous, but I’m just unsure why. I did laugh at points while reading the leaked Discord messages, but that was because again, they were jokes and not serious comments. I tried to take accountability and I did so the best I could at the time.

I regret not taking the situation seriously at first, and I apologize that that made the controversy more intense than it needed to be.

My Worst Response

Although the damage done by everything that had already happened was really irreparable, everything got worse when I made the tweet that I’ll attach below.

Firstly, I’d like to make it clear why I said this in the first place, and why I was comparing incest to pedophilia. At the time this was all going on, I was being compared to another transgender horror YouTuber named Gomotion, who had recently been accused of grooming. So the reason I said anything on the matter was to share my disagreement with the comparison. Even if I were fetishizing incest, I believed that was in no way comparable to grooming and pedophilia.

However, the two certainly can be comparable in a lot of instances. Which is something I failed to acknowledge in this tweet. But I still stand by that there’s a distinct difference.

Note that I used the word “inherently” very deliberately. An incestuous relationship is almost always predatory, but it isn’t inherently. You can come up with some unlikely 1 in a million scenario where an incestuous relationship isn’t predatory. You can’t do that with pedophilia though. A pedophilic relationship is inherently predatory. There is an objective distinction.

So I do stand by what I said in that tweet, but I also wish I just didn’t say it because it didn’t need to be said. Although I believe I was completely correct from a technical standpoint, it still didn’t look good from an optical standpoint.

I’m sorry if that tweet made you uncomfortable or made you want to stop supporting me, but I do truthfully still feel like I had a point to make.

But just so I’m clear, I do believe that 99.9% of instances of incest are predatory and wrong, which is why generally, I am not in support of incest. Any comments that go against that stance are either bad jokes or comments that are being misinterpreted.

Allegations from my Ex

Lastly, I want to briefly mention that I am aware of a thread made by my ex-boyfriend where they essentially accuse me of using self harm as a threat and being a toxic and abusive partner.

I won’t go over their thread point by point, instead I will simply say that I am sorry and I mostly agree with what they said.

We dated when I was 16 and I was severely mentally unwell. I was dealing with many untreated mental illnesses as well as untreated gender dysphoria. I was suicidal and terrified and generally, a pretty bad person. I had this issue where whenever I would get in a relationship with someone I became overly and toxic-ly attached and obsessed with them. This was an issue in every relationship I had in my teenage years.

I acknowledge that I was toxic and a bad person to be with, and I apologize for that to everyone that had to know me during that time. All I can do now is promise I’ve put the work in to change that behaviour and I’m not like that whatsoever anymore.

Conclusion

Truth be told, I think this situation has been blown way out of proportion, but that is partially due to my own actions. If I had just started off being like, “hey, I don’t think incest is okay,” and then never said anything again, things would’ve mostly blown over. I don’t know why I couldn’t do that, heh. But hopefully I’ve provided a little more insight and context that explains that I do not fetishize nor condone nor support incest. And although I’ve made mistakes in my past, I’m always working towards being a better person.

Part of me is a little frustrated at how big this situation became. There are known child-rapists in the FNAF community that don’t get nearly as much hate as me. But again, I accept responsibility for most of that being on me. I just have a tendency to not shut up.

From here on out, I am done talking about really anything controversial. I just want to stream horror games and do my podcast once a week. I’m also going back to school soon for the first time since dropping out and I really think that could help me get my life on track.

Thank you to those that have continued to support me. And I sincerely apologize to those that I have pushed away from doing so.