First and foremost: I apologize. I said a lot of things when I shouldn’t have. I jumped the gun and handled things in a way I’m not proud of.

Throughout this entire event, I understand that I made a lot of statements, came across as wishy-washy or back pedaling, and angered or disappointed a lot of people. I’m not looking to paint myself as the victim, pray for sympathy, ask for forgiveness, etc. I made my bed and I have to lay in it, but some extra clarification is in order because I continue to see a lot of things thrown my way that need addressing. I’m aware I already said I was done talking about this topic, and I apologize for going back on that too. I’m hoping I can make this final statement as definitive as I can.

This was a highly personal event for me. I may not have any direct ties to the charity organization, or personal experience with dementia, and I can only sympathize with those who do have that association to this whole thing, but Jirard is a close friend of mine in this space. Claims of me blindly defending him, thinking he could do no wrong because he’s a nice guy, only being defensive as a means to chase clout, defending charity fraud just because of who was at the head of things; it’s all ridiculous. And while I still believe malicious intent was never a motivator, things obviously got way out of hand. All my initial statements and defenses were based on what I knew and was aware of at the time.

I was NOT, nor was I EVER, defending the act of charity fraud. I didn’t believe it was taking place to be defended in the first place. Call it denial or being manipulated, I don’t know, but that’s where I was at. Obviously charity fraud isn’t okay, but I can’t fault people for believing that I don’t think that way. Truthfully, this situation is deeper and more complex than it appears publicly. That’s why I even started making comments in the first place. But in hindsight, because of the depth of the situation, I should have kept my mouth shut. I was merely trying to defend a friend I believed was being wronged.

I want to address my attitude throughout my tweets during this experience. All my tweets are still public; I’m not sure why some people are insisting I’ve deleted some. I never have, and don’t plan to. From the beginning, my stance was “let’s please try to get the story right, and try to be calm before the response video goes out.” Especially when the Dexerto headline was inaccurate with the information that was available at the time.

With my use of the phrase “Outrageous claims”, I should have been much clearer. I was referring to death threats and racism during the initial news breaking, as well as the weeks that followed, which obviously aren’t claims. Extremely bad wording on my part. During this whole ordeal, I saw a lot of people saying some really disgusting things. Not to me, but just in general. The truth of the situation absolutely sucks, but so many people spun narratives that were just flat out mean, and were getting under my skin. Yes, it was a smaller subset of the entire group, and it’s not addressing the actual issues at hand, but that’s just where my mind was at, and I could have worded it better.

Truthfully, my initial tweet was a response purely based on emotion, which is why I tried to clarify it in a follow up, to which people claimed I was backpedaling. Not at all; I’m just a bit of an idiot sometimes and tweeted without thinking about it. I was not trying to comment on the initial accusers; and I apologize if this was the thing that made me seem more delusional than anything.

Once again, I was emotionally invested into this, and was just happy Jirard finally got a statement out. I didn’t consider the ripple effect this would cause, and I apologize. That’s all this really boils down to. I understand people saying I shouldn’t have commented at all, but my emotions got the best of me.

Ok yea, this is just unnecessarily snarky. The reality is everything that many of us YouTubers do is to chase ad revenue, and it’s not a reason to completely disregard the work someone puts into their videos. I admit that, in many of my replies, I was unnecessarily snarky. Some people were mentioning me with sass and attitude, and I was responding with the same energy. I apologize for that.

As for the people I’ve blocked here on Twitter, or who have had their comments deleted from my YouTube videos…that part I don’t regret. I did go back to some people I blocked to unblock them and apologize, but quite frankly, the majority of people that fall into that category were annoying as hell. Constantly spamming me while I’m asleep, calling me a disgusting human being, or “just another YouTuber that can’t be trusted.” I responded to many people with the intent of having a normal interaction, just to be met with vitriol. It’s gross, because it leaves me no opportunity to try to make things right with specific individuals.

If I missed any specific thing that I did wrong on this, I apologize for that too. I’ve never made a document like this before, but my ultimate goal here is to just try and make amends, and hope you understand where I’m coming from.

I’ll leave this as my final note. I deeply apologize to anybody I’ve upset, disappointed, or confused during all of this. Going beyond just being a YouTuber, this was a highly complicated issue for me mentally on a personal level, and I approached it in a way that didn’t help anyone. That being said, I still don’t plan on deleting tweets. I want them to remain as a pocket of time where I did something I shouldn’t have. At this point, I’m not making any more comments on the matter. I just want to go back to uploading content to share my love for video games. Thank you for reading.