I will be breaking this doc into 6 sections.

-CSEM convictions

-Sexual Harassment

-Death threats against people

& Threats of taking their life

-Harassment

-Age

-Hurting your friends and other people.

First, I turned 18 in Sep 24, 2025

Proof:

First I will be addressing the CSEM convictions.

The post says that I said and think 16 yro’s should be able to post onlyfans,

I do not believe so, when I said this I was a minor, and I was also an idiot and said outlandish things that was sarcastic.

I was also criticizing how I was a minor at the time and did want to attempt to get on OF, obviously knowing it would never happen, I said it as a joke because I don’t believe OF would actually open up to minors.

I did not take this take seriously or believe in this, especially now as an adult I very much do not believe in the things I said while I was a minor.

I’m sorry if the things I said caused you distress, but I genuinely do not believe in the things I said in that vc and remember it more of saying it as a joke because I wouldn’t ever agree with minors going onto a platform like OF.

I know better to joke about such things now, but it’s something I do not believe in, but I do apologize to Fleur for saying such things in her server.

It was irresponsible and childish of me to say such inappropriate things in your discord server, and I’m such for saying such a thing and apologize for my ignorance and treating it to be so light, I won’t speak of such things ever again as now I’m an adult that can be held accountable and I was also seen as an adult who should have been accountable.

I do apologize for saying what I said, but I truly do not believe in what I did say.

The day the document was written and posted in July of 2025, at the time, I was 17.

And so was this part of the document, written while I was a minor.

Another thing I want to discuss was the part where it said that I send pictures of myself as a minor to 30+ yro’s for money.

At the time, I’ve been groomed for 3 times, once when I was 15, twice when I was 16.

Some of them did send me money but not for those explicit images.

I provided explicit images of myself for free when I was a minor to these adults through being talked into it.

I was exploited for their pleasure, and in return I did ask for money on them, but only way after I already sent them many pictures, I guess I treated the money as accommodation and a way I can say that what I did was fine because I did it for money but in reality the reason why I did it was because I wanted to feel “loved”.

Yea I regret being in these abusive relationships, yes I should have disengaged but when I did it left me empty and wanted to seek for a similar relationship like such.

It was my own problem for keep getting with and ending up with adults, these adults did know my real age and continued engaging even after they do so.

I’m sorry I gave pedophiles explicit images of myself for my own and their pleasure when I was a minor.

These pictures have already been deleted, but I am sorry for what I did as a minor. It was not ok for me to send those images to adults, but I cannot change what happened years ago.

That said I’m not interested in minors all my past relationships have been with people who are older than me, I have never been interested in people younger than me.

I only talk to adults about anything explicit and I make sure to ask for consent to not cross boundaries with people, please do not paint me as a predator.

Another thing to note, this is proof that I was groomed by an adult

https://x.com/kinacatgirl/status/1893544442935517615?s=46&t=w4n3kDRWI2Z2MnbNEYflvQ

This was not all the dms I had with said person but this is one of my groomers,

We used to have VC’s and do very derogatory stuff, I also sent them nsfw images of myself and there’s proof that they knew I was a minor.

There’s no screenshots of myself sending nsfw but I did send nsfw of myself when I was a minor to them, I will not be including the screenshots but it is true that I sent that to them.

I was exploited and used for these images, I’m sorry for sending them and I regret doing so, they have been deleted off my phone and I do not share nsfw images of myself when I was a minor.

I also do not distribute any of this publicly, this was in private DMs with single individual where I sent nude images of myself to them as a minor.

I ended up being groomed by 3 different people and sending explicit photos at the time, but it’s just too much to include and I don’t want to review the DMs I’ve had with them because it brings me a lot of pain as we have parted ways due to issues we had in our relationships.

Though none of the relationships I had with these adults were right, and I regret every single one of them as they affected me as a person and my life heavily.

I do regret and want to change for the better about this, which is why I’ve mostly been staying away from explicit requests and staying to IRL relationships.

Covering Sexual Harassment 

I’ve always openly admitted to what I’ve done in the past, and I’ve been showing regret for what I’ve done in the past few months.

I was told boundaries by a friend and I violated those boundaries, and instead of apologizing and taking their suggestions of going to therapy and admitting to the what I did, I got defense and posted a bunch of tweets that ended up hurting my victim, their friends, and myself.

I’m sorry I blew up the situation and got defensive about my wrongs, if I got another chance I would of listened to my victim and I regret every choice I took that led to how it ended, and I still deeply regret it to this day,

I’m sorry I crossed your boundaries and gave poorly written defensive apologies, I take all the responsibility and am fully in the wrong and I regret everything I’ve done to hurt you and your friends.

I’ve been in therapy for months and actively work with both therapists and psychiatrist to make myself a safer and more controlled person to interact with.

I still deeply regret what I’ve done and still self reflect to this day to better myself as a person and be different than who I was.

Addressing Death Threats & Threats of taking my life

Sep 24, 2025, I sent my victim message, it was 2 months since everything has happened.

Within the 2 months I was kicked from the communities I was in and all the roles I played in a large community I used to run, and practically everyone’s trust.

So on my 18th birthday I sent you a very awful message, during that time that I experienced a lot of loss, I felt like I wanted to blame it on you, and so I did blame it on you during that entire time, and I wanted to hurt you, the thought of it kept coming back into my mind of hurting people and then ending my life afterwards because I felt like life wasn’t worth living anymore after the incident.

My home situation at the time was still a mess and my parents hated me, and online everyone hated me and I had lost all my friends. Things irl also went down and I couldn’t take that I’ve lost all my irl friends and that hurt a lot.

I had a lot of thoughts of violence, but I still ultimately gave it up because that’s not something I want to do, I summed it down to I don’t want to be another one of those people in the news but in reality I just thought it was morally wrong and I can’t get the will to do such a thing, I’ve only thought of these plans in my head, but after a while I scratched them and decided that it was too wrong and didn’t actually take action to any of the plans.

Instead I wanted to blame you for the wrongs I did and I feel very bad for that, so I blamed my suicide on you but it was completely caused by me.

I’m sorry to my victim that I blamed that on you, it was completely caused by me and you did nothing wrong, you did not deserve that message and all the things I did and I deeply regret what I did and sent.

To the very end you still only cared about me and wanted me to do better and I’m so sorry I did such awful things to you that are unforgivable and all my fault.

I really do regret everything I’ve done to you, I cry constantly when giving it thought and it’s something that I hate that I’ve done, and I regret having it snowball to be so awful.

In the end I was placed in a hospital after attempt, I was taken care of and I talked to them about a lot of things that allowed me to rethink how I was going to live, it helped me rethink the situation.

They encouraged me to live even after all the things I’ve done that I am unable to atone for.

After that, once I was released, I started talking to my therapist about you and what I did, I was told a lot of things but I’ve reflected on my wrongs, and i was encouraged to do better and be a better person and live aswell.

At one point I really wanted to die because of the things I did and realize what I could of done, and I still really do regret what I’ve done to this day.

I have nothing to blame what happened but myself no matter how much I tried to blame it on others.

I realized it was my own fault, but instead of trying to kill myself now I’ve worked and decided to work to become a better and safer person to be around.

I’ve stopped getting close to people because I do not trust myself with them, and I’m scared of what I’ll do and hurt people close to me.

I keep my distance and I take boundaries very seriously, I ask and listen and make sure I don’t do certain things.

Ever since I started taking certain medication it killed my hypersexuality and made me not feel like I needed everything to be so sexual, one of the greatest things to happen in my life because for the first time I felt free from being hypersexual and disgusting.

Everyday I still reflect on my past and think about current actions, I hold myself accountable for everything I was wrong about, everything I said, and everything I did.

I’m really sorry for the mess I created and I genuinely cannot express how much I regret and am sorry for the things I did.

Harassment 

The day that I announced that I was still alive in December of 2025, after a while since a left the hospital and begin to recover, I posted that I was still alive to tell people looking for me that I was alive, people also saw my status to be online in discord and steam, and it made it rough to not say that I was still alive.

So I wrote that I was still alive and that I actually am very sorry for what I did and I really do regret it,

Eventually my victim and I talked since finding out I was alive.

I gave a very poorly written apology and I was still working and reflecting and wasn’t at the best time.

Eventually later I did comment on an alt account but it genuinely was because I regret what I did and didn’t listen to her.

And I still felt bad that I never gave an actual proper apology, so I did do that literally the day before the post about me on the blacklist was release, I had no idea the blacklist was going to release something about me, I did it because I wanted to apologize and am still reflecting to this day and giving the incident thought.

But I’ve now realized she wants me to apologize to the others I’ve hurt, and not just her, and she does want to be left alone.

I’m so sorry that I hurt you and harassed you, I will stop trying to talk to you or contact you, but I want you to know I genuinely regret what I did, and I do also regret having to send it to you in that way.

Thank you for caring about me even after all that’s happened, I will try my best to live up to your wishes and do better as a person and try my best to live as a decent person.

I really do want to live too after experiencing many near death attempts, I really do thank you for caring about me even after everything. You genuinely are the kindest person I’ve met ever.

Age

Yes, it is true that I lied about my age, multiple times.

I’m sorry, my actions at the time were stupid and I didn’t want to face the fact that I got into trouble lying about my age, so I doubled down and lied to everybody.

This actually hurts countless people who were exposed to this, the fact that countless people interacted with me while I was a minor and didn’t know and was under the assumption that I was an adult.

I genuinely am sorry about this, I’m sorry about my reckless and dangerous behavior that can get tons of people into trouble.

But all people were under the assumption that I was an adult and I take full responsibility for lying about my age and people being tricked into thinking I am an adult.

I am very sorry for what I did at 16, and 17.

What I did was extremely dangerous for myself and everyone around me, I do indeed regret not exposing myself as a minor and double downing on it, it created a lot of issues for me aswell, and genuinely wasn’t a good idea, but I kept getting in trouble for it at the time and I feared that things at the time were only going to get worse.

Now, a year after my lie, it has collapsed in on itself, and I can’t keep running away from it forever, I am coming clean about it, but the damage is done, and I’m already an actual adult now.

I’m deeply sorry for the people I hurt, especially @catefishin, her friends, and everybody that I knew that I lied to.

I am sorry I lied, to you, your friends, and everyone, for my dangerous behavior when I was a minor and deliberately lied about my age to everyone I know to get away from trouble. I really do regret running away from it and making a whole mess that’s extremely dangerous.

It is something I cannot physically do again, but I do not think what I’ve done is okay, I’m deeply sorry and regret what I’ve done, I really am sorry for all the danger I cause you and all the damage I’ve done to everyone and you and your friends.

To Mochi’s friends

I am sorry for causing all this mess that you guys had to help clean up, from being defensive and posting docs, to dms and everything that you had to compile, all the time used to make the doc about me and getting the truth out.

I really appreciate what you did for Mochi and I completely deserved what was posted about me, and thank you for being there for her at tough times to defend her.

I really do regret everything I’ve said since September of 2025 and all the time before that, I really am sorry about the things I did and the whole wreckage, also the fact that your communities and friends were broken up by me.

Not only that but I’m sorry for the damage I’ve done to you and your communities, after finding out all the terrible things I did.

I also want to apologize about what I said at the time, all of it I regret saying, and I deeply apologize for hurting all of you.

I’m also sorry about the things I said in certain communities that were inappropriate and obscene.

Especially to Fluer and her discord server where she had to witness what I said and the inappropriate jokes about OF and also telling people about how I “exploited adults for money when I was a minor by sending nsfw” when in reality that was not true and I was exploited for those images, but I do regret saying that in a place where I shouldn’t of.

I’m sorry that I made people unsafe, and I am trying my best to change that.

I’m sorry for all the arguing I did and defending myself even though I was in the wrong, and also trying to defend myself for actions that wasn’t okay.

I’m sorry for hurting all of you and I know that things aren’t forgivable but I also wish to move past this and live our lives.

I regret hurting you all and I do not want to hurt any of you.

I really am sorry for all the mess I’ve caused. I just hope all of you guys are able to move from it.