Let's start from the beginning.

In 2017, I meet Sesseur ( Jeff ) on DeviantArt.

(for those who don’t know, he was responsible for creating the creepypasta character “Jeff the killer”)

I was a child who loved horror stories and my favorite at the time was Jeff the killer, which led me to have my first contact with the creator of the story.

At that time I was only 13 years old.

As time went on I got closer to him, and consequently we took our contact on Facebook, and eventually I met his younger brother, Brandon, who at the time was around 21 years old.

 I got very close to Jeff’s brother, Brandon, and we used to spent a lot of time talking and I never hid from him the fact that I was underage, and he never cared.

 In 2018 we started to have a “relationship” by distance, we stayed together for almost two years, and in that period he asked me for photos, videos, among other things.

 My relationship with him was extremely disturbing, I was only 14 years old when we started “dating” but he was fully aware that his actions towards me were considered criminal, after all, child pornographic material is a crime.

He tricked me into doing a lot of things, like giving him my social media passwords to make sure I wasn't cheating on him.

 It was almost two years of psychological torture, he threatened to kill himself if I didn't do what he wanted, he sent me hundreds of threatening messages and even pictures of guns.

At that time, I was a minor, my parents didn't allow me to use Facebook, so my account was hidden from my parents, for that reason, when I stopped talking to Brandon and Sesseur, I eventually lost my account too.

They are addicted to drugs, both sesseur and his brother, including Heroin, and have been using it for many years, I imagine this should come as no surprise to anyone.

 I didn't had contact with either of them for almost two years until Brandon, my ex, came back to chat with me on Facebook in 2021 and we both decided that we'd matured and were mentally good enough to have a friendly conversation.

Brandon told me he regretted everything he did to me in the past and how wrong his actions were.

 He told me that he was in a relationship with a 54-year-old older woman, who supplied him with drugs, and that he occasionally had sex, but both decided to make it official and started dating.

 Brandon was constantly complaining about her to me, about how they always fought and how she was such a dirty bitch, and after long months he finally broke up with her, but he always bragged about how he still fucked her even after the breakup and how obsessed she was with him.

Sesseur told me that his brother has serious mental problems, and that he could be considered bipolar or with a brain disorder.

 Brandon was arrested in October 2021 for domestic assault, he faced long months of trial but was acquitted, having only to pay a fine, and although he always claimed the accusation was false, I knew it wasn't, he was very well capable of assaulting a woman.

 Brandon has guns in his house, and always makes a point of saying how much he wishes he could use them on his 54-year-old ex, and that he wouldn't hesitate to fire her if she upset him again.

Brandon felt comfortable telling me about his darkest thoughts, including a plan to murder his ex, later he apologized to me and said he had no idea why he was saying those things and just asked me to delete the conversation and forget about all that.

 Maybe I felt sorry for him, and maybe I cared a little too much about him and his mental health, and didn't wanted him to get into any trouble.

 I submitted myself to situations, that today I don't understand why I accepted to go through this.  He called me a bitch and a whore, several times I was cursed, mistreated and disrespected, the first few times I just ignored him and waited until he apologized, but the last time I took an action.

 I'm currently 18 years old, my contact with Brandon wasn't that frequent, but when he got the news that I was dating he didn't take it very well and started making a lot of silly games and having an extremely childish behavior, sending me messages and then deleting them before I could even read, I would ask why and he would just say that I was being rude to him, until at a certain point he started cursing me and I decided I had enough.

 About sesseur/Jeff:

like his brother, he is also a drug user, and has always made it clear in his DeviantArt and NewGrounds posts that he has been using hard drugs since he was young.  

When I went to him to tell him about my problems with his brother, he denied me any support and claimed that I had deceived his brother, even though he knew that I had never even hidden from him that I was a minor.

Before you ask me, “why didn't you just block him before?”, “You went through it because you wanted to”, “You accepted it”.

 No, i didn’t.

 I was a child when it all started.

 I have depression and anxiety since I was 11 years old, I take anti-depressants and I have already committed 4 suicide attempts, one of them in 2018.

 I was a lonely kid, with absent parents, always working, I had no one to talk to, it was so easy for me to get attached to someone I met on the internet.

 I was just a 13-year-old girl when this all started, and I let myself be swayed, let an older man take advantage of me.

 Anyone who has suffered some psychological abuse, and has gone through an emotional dependence knows how difficult it is to let go someone, no matter how many bad actions that person does.

 I've been silent for many years out of fear, fear of being called crazy or a liar or having my reputation ruined.